Hello all,
I've actually been on this forum many times in the past talking mostly about my boy kitty Jasper. Because of a move change, an email change and loss of password, I wasn't able to log in and had to start from scratch.
I lost my guy yesterday at the age of 11. We had him 10 years. He was such a little cat with the biggest personality. He took so much of my time. So much effort. He was really a huge pain. A huge pain that I loved with every fiber of my being. I can't stop crying. I see him in every room. In all the places he should be Ina morning like this. I miss him so much it hurts. And I can't imagine my life without him in it. So much of what I did, and when I did it, on a day to day basis , revolved around this little peanut of a cat. We had been through so much. From making him an indoor only kitty ( which he cried about for two whole years) to nursing him back to health through very serious issues. And then there was the long period we went through with him marking everything in sight ( which had come to a much needed end years ago).
I dot know what to do with myself. I have another kitty. A girl named Tess. She has kidney disease pretty bad. End stages really. I kind of prepared myself for her not being around much longer, poor girl. So when Jasper got sick suddenly (or so it seems, I was shocked and horrified. He stopped eating and drinking just a couple days prior, and I knew I didn't want him to suffer. Now of course, I second guess my decision, like we always do. I in the beginning stages and it's beyond tough. I read another post about someone not being able to sleep in her room. I do get that. I feel like I can't be in any room at all. Have missed two days of work. Boss is not happy with me and k couldn't care less. I just don't care about anything.
So many people don't get it. I just wanted to share my broken heart with people that do. Thank you.
Lori J
I've actually been on this forum many times in the past talking mostly about my boy kitty Jasper. Because of a move change, an email change and loss of password, I wasn't able to log in and had to start from scratch.
I lost my guy yesterday at the age of 11. We had him 10 years. He was such a little cat with the biggest personality. He took so much of my time. So much effort. He was really a huge pain. A huge pain that I loved with every fiber of my being. I can't stop crying. I see him in every room. In all the places he should be Ina morning like this. I miss him so much it hurts. And I can't imagine my life without him in it. So much of what I did, and when I did it, on a day to day basis , revolved around this little peanut of a cat. We had been through so much. From making him an indoor only kitty ( which he cried about for two whole years) to nursing him back to health through very serious issues. And then there was the long period we went through with him marking everything in sight ( which had come to a much needed end years ago).
I dot know what to do with myself. I have another kitty. A girl named Tess. She has kidney disease pretty bad. End stages really. I kind of prepared myself for her not being around much longer, poor girl. So when Jasper got sick suddenly (or so it seems, I was shocked and horrified. He stopped eating and drinking just a couple days prior, and I knew I didn't want him to suffer. Now of course, I second guess my decision, like we always do. I in the beginning stages and it's beyond tough. I read another post about someone not being able to sleep in her room. I do get that. I feel like I can't be in any room at all. Have missed two days of work. Boss is not happy with me and k couldn't care less. I just don't care about anything.
So many people don't get it. I just wanted to share my broken heart with people that do. Thank you.
Lori J