I know I made the right decision to put my cat to sleep almost 2 weeks ago, that's not what haunts me. He was going through heart failure and 17 years old. He was "off" - I don't even know if he knew who I was - and it breaks my heart still that in those last minutes he didn't know how much I loved him. I told him over and over, not just then but a zillion times over the years, but there's something unbearable about him dying without knowing in the last moments.
Also, when the vet came to euthanize him he was hiding under the bed where he'd spent the night. The vet's assistant went to get him, and I don't know why I didn't have the presence of mind to say I would get him, so he wouldn't be scared by a stranger pulling at him. When she brought him in the room he peed, which I assume was from fear, and I think I should have asked for a few minutes alone with him before they gave him the tranquilizer. It was all so fast.
I know the decision was right, but how I handled/didn't handle things just keeps bothering me. I feel like I let him down in those final moments.
Also, when the vet came to euthanize him he was hiding under the bed where he'd spent the night. The vet's assistant went to get him, and I don't know why I didn't have the presence of mind to say I would get him, so he wouldn't be scared by a stranger pulling at him. When she brought him in the room he peed, which I assume was from fear, and I think I should have asked for a few minutes alone with him before they gave him the tranquilizer. It was all so fast.
I know the decision was right, but how I handled/didn't handle things just keeps bothering me. I feel like I let him down in those final moments.
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