bittersweet aniiversary for me and wobbles :(

today is such a bittersweet anniversary for me...last year on this day I got to bring wobbles home from the hospital after an 11 day stay...i had missed him so much...i wish i could go back instead of reliving it over and over in my heart...i miss my cat in so many way the pain so deeper than any ive ever felt and it seems i will cry forever i miss the feel of his fur beneath my fingers, i miss his beautiful blue eyes and the slow soft blinks he gave me all the time, i miss his fighting spirit but mostly i miss the snuggles the closeness the bonded love i felt  from him all the time...im sorry i failed you poppa ill never stop missing or loving you

The pain is so bad because you lost a very important part of your life. Nothing will ever be the same again, but somehow we keep going on because we know in our hearts it is what our loved ones would want for us. Wobbles would never want you to be so miserable,he loved you so much and would never want to be the cause of such pain. Wobbles is at peace now, free of fear and pain, his earthly body is laid to rest, but the 'essence' that was him is bonded to you in such a way that he will be a part of your very being for the rest of your life. You can talk to him and he will hear, he will send you comfort in your precious memories of happier times, he will surround you with his love and visit you in your dreams. He will never really be gone as long as you hold him in your heart. You can spread his legacy of love that he left you by giving your love to another little soul, the love is not the same but it can be satisfying and will help to heal your broken heart.

He came into your life for a reason, he needed you as much as you needed him. Even though the pain of loss is so great, it is still better than to have never known him at all, he brought so much love into your life for a while. You will always miss him, the tears will always be nearby as you think of him, but stop and think of what he brought to you, the joy, the happiness, the honest love he gave to you to hold, and be glad you knew that little boy and that he loved you so much in return. You are a good person with a big heart, sometimes bad things happen to good people, no one will ever know why. Just know you had something special that can never be taken from you, love is a feeling, a spirit, it will remain with you for the rest of your life.I'm glad that you can share your pain with people who understand, it lessens the burden a little to let that pain out. May you be blessed for hurting so much from loving so much, I'll keep you and precious Wobbles in my thoughts and prayers, take care,,,,,,,,,  

I am sorry you are still suffering, Wobbles would only want you to be happy.

I know how you feel.  We have had two neutered ,  stray cats that we have been feeding in the back yard for 3 or 4 years.  They were skiddish at first but slowly they came to visit every morning and evening.  I would feed them and leave food out for them during the day.  My favorite was the one I called Missy.  I bought them a tree and two little houses but they would never stay.  They played in the tree and often stayed there when it rains.  

Lulu knows I am sad.  It has been about seven or more days since Missy has been here.  I have looked but she is no where to be found.  I grieve with you since I know how much it hurts to lose a friend.    I will also pray for Wobbles as I do for Missy and for both of us as well!

Rev. Tony

I couldn't have said it better myself Di and Bob! All they said are totally true, you're grieving and it's a natural process to healing. One day you'll be able to take out the photos and look at them with all their memories without breaking down. There's no time line on grieving, I lost my precious dog two years ago and to this day it brings a lump to my throat and pain in my heart when I think of him, it will take as long as it takes. You didn't fail him, you loved him and he loved you, there's no failure there. Things happen that we have no control over so don't let guilt creep in, there was nothing you could have done. Remember him, talk to him, he'll hear. Keep him in your heart and send him the love you had for him when he was with you. His earthly body may have gone but his soul remains until you meet again. My thoughts are with you X

Thanks for your message it was uplifting.  

I am  so sorry for your loss. Bob and Diane said it perfectly.

Take your time with grieving. I promise it gets easier AFTER you have grieved-I found that giving myself permission to grieve makes it SO much easier. It hurts. I hurt. But I know we have to learn to give ourselves permission to grieve-its the only way to heal. Know that my thoughts are with you in this difficult time.

You didn't fail him.   No one that loves or cares as much as you do is a failure. You are the exact opposite; I promise you that.