I feel like maybe I should not be here or should not be writing, Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]m not sure which. I want to tell the story of my two best friends, Buster and Snowflake. Buster was a cocker; he lived to be almost 16 years old. He was a very special puppy. 2 1/2 years ago when he got sick we were sure we would be able to save him. He had no failure to see or hear he had no real problems that we knew of, until that night... We had just brought him back from the groomers. He looked so handsome, but about ten minutes after letting him outside he made a whimper. When we went out he was just lying on the ground, he back legs would not move. We took him to the IEVC (Indiana emergency veterinary care) and really thought he would make it. He was in some pain, but a surgery could fix that. So we got Buster ready and he underwent a surgery that would put him in a wheelie. The vet had told us that he could live quite well this way and still have a pain free life. So the day of the surgery we all went down and took him to the vets, he almost made it. The vet was putting in the last stitch when Buster passed on. Alone. I never thought we were saying goodbye, so I didn't and now he was gone. We took him there and left him with strangers (though trying to save his life) they were not his loved family, what had we done? When I came home without him Snowflake (our 13 year old cat) I think she knew something was wrong. Soon she became ill, stopped talking and playing so much, the vet said it was depression, e could understand, we too were depressed. Within two months snowflake went fast, and one day when I woke she was having a hard time breathing, we again rushed to the vets, hoping that my friend could be saved. They couldn't figure out what was wrong with her, may be asthma, or lung infection, put her on steroids and sent her home, but she only got worse. We took Snowflake to a specialist who said she had cancerous palups down her throat, we never even thought it was that bad. But my dear Snowflake had to be put to sleep. I couldn't bear it. It hurt so badly. But worst, I wasn't there for her, to tell her goodbye. I had finals that day and could not miss my classes. So again, my loved one, dear friend, these animals who had always been there to cheer me up and snuggle when I was having a bad day, they both had to go without me there. I did not get to say good-bye, or how I love them more than anything, they left without knowing that I understood. I knew that it was time. It was hard but in my heart of hearts I knew. I was just a terrible friend to let them go through this alone.
It has been almost three years now and I still hurt. I still miss them. I started a feral colony that keeps me busy, and have gotten many more animals (all alive and well) but my heart will always belong to the 2 that started it all, Buster and Snowflake. I feel like I should be over this by now, but then I run across a picture or one of these message boards and the hurt just comes back. My memories are not all I have left; I have a lifetime of thank you's that are owed to these two wonderful furry friends.
It has been almost three years now and I still hurt. I still miss them. I started a feral colony that keeps me busy, and have gotten many more animals (all alive and well) but my heart will always belong to the 2 that started it all, Buster and Snowflake. I feel like I should be over this by now, but then I run across a picture or one of these message boards and the hurt just comes back. My memories are not all I have left; I have a lifetime of thank you's that are owed to these two wonderful furry friends.