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Smokie passed away last night. He was having troubles breathing so we took him to the vet who sent him to the emergency clinic because they have an O2 chamber. After X-rays they found major fluid around his heart and lungs and a mass in his abdomen. The vet said she could drain his chest but the fluid would eventually come back and then she'd have to open him up to address the mass. She gave him 2 months. His chest was rattling and his breathing would not slow so we made the choice to put him down. It was very peaceful and he was in no more pain.
He was 15 and the best boy. He was a Siamese mix so he had a lot to say. The house feels so different today without him. RIP big guy.
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What a beautiful picture of Smokie! I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy :hugs:

15 years is a long time but it's never enough. I can imagine the house feels quite different without the physical presence of your gorgeous boy!

Run free Smokie [emoji]128062[/emoji]
 
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Even if we know the end is near, when it does come no matter how well prepared we think we are, it is still a profound and agonizing. So when it comes with no warning at all,it is a blow to our very core.The decisions that have to be made under stress and fear affect us for the rest of our lives and have to be gone over in our minds again and again because we cannot accept what it led to, the end of a part of our lives that we thought we would have for much longer. Try to not dwell on the end, every decision, every move you made was done out of love and concern. Your baby had something that would not be cured, only progress into more pain, and more struggle. It is at this moment that quantity of life is not as concerning as quality of live.  You took away your little one's pain and took it on as your own. Smokie is at peace and your heart is broken into a million pieces You had 15 years of love and companionship, you gave Smokie a wonderful home as is evident by the love pouring from your tribute and in the beautiful pictures and memories that will now give you comfort in the coming years. He would never want you to be so sad when remembering him, he loved you too much and only wants the best for you in the future, His love will stay with you, the bond you have is something that can never be broken, celebrate having him in your life, your lives were intertwined for 15 years and will remain so for eternity. Thank you for letting us know of this special boy, I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers, and help you mourn the passing of such a wonderful family member. Take care........RIP sweet Smokie, you will be greatly missed, and will be forever held in loving hearts!
 
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I am so sorry, the picture of Smokie in the leaves is beautiful, what a handsome boy. RIP Smokie
 
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Di and Bob said:
Even if we know the end is near, when it does come no matter how well prepared we think we are, it is still a profound and agonizing. So when it comes with no warning at all,it is a blow to our very core.The decisions that have to be made under stress and fear affect us for the rest of our lives and have to be gone over in our minds again and again because we cannot accept what it led to, the end of a part of our lives that we thought we would have for much longer. Try to not dwell on the end, every decision, every move you made was done out of love and concern. Your baby had something that would not be cured, only progress into more pain, and more struggle. It is at this moment that quantity of life is not as concerning as quality of live.  You took away your little one's pain and took it on as your own. Smokie is at peace and your heart is broken into a million pieces You had 15 years of love and companionship, you gave Smokie a wonderful home as is evident by the love pouring from your tribute and in the beautiful pictures and memories that will now give you comfort in the coming years. He would never want you to be so sad when remembering him, he loved you too much and only wants the best for you in the future, His love will stay with you, the bond you have is something that can never be broken, celebrate having him in your life, your lives were intertwined for 15 years and will remain so for eternity. Thank you for letting us know of this special boy, I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers, and help you mourn the passing of such a wonderful family member. Take care........RIP sweet Smokie, you will be greatly missed, and will be forever held in loving hearts!
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Thank you so much for the kind words. It's true that I'm replaying everything that happened that night. I worry that I should have taken him home so he could feel secure but I couldn't do that because he was in such distress. It was just hard because he was purring and acting so mellow except for his breathing. I wasn't prolonging life but prolonging his death I felt. He didn't make me up this morning to eat, he's not begging to go outside on this beautiful day and he's not in his usual spots. My other cat is searching the house for him and that breaks my heart. I open the bay window curtains in the morning where they each have a bed. She's always laying on Smokie and Smokie just looks at me like, "here she is again." He loved Juniper from the moment we got her. I was so afraid with him being so old he'd hate her but in 2 days he took her in and never looked back. He'd lick her any chance he could and seriously showed her the ropes. We'd tie them up outside and he's always check on her. They were buds.
 
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Your words " I wasn't prolonging life, I was prolonging his death" is the best I have ever seen in trying to explain that difficult decision at the end,  I hope you will truly believe those words and know he would never have wanted to be put through any more. My heart goes out to you both, give Juniper a kiss from me and a little extra attention, she is mourning too. We are more like cats then we think in that we do not like change. Especially a change that brings such pain and longing. Take care of yourself......
 
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I have a Siamese mix too, hes 14 and talks a lot also. RIP Smokie.
 
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