you're still the one.

When I lost my baby girl Eva part of me died with her. 

I love Mia with all my heart. I worry about losing her and do my best to keep her safe. Anyone that I caught hurting her had best put their affairs in order before doing so because I would go completely postal. She sleeps in my bed every night and follows me around the house during the day. she makes me laugh and I see love and trust in her eyes. I adore her. But when I look at her I see a cat. I see a pet I adore.

When I looked at Eva I saw something more looking back. Something that didn't just trust me and love me like Mia does, but understood me. Mia comes to me when she wants attention. Eva came when I needed it. I talk to Mia in the same way I talked to Eva. Mia listens. Eva answered. Perhaps only in my heart or mind, but I will maintain until my dying day that that little brown cat was there in the lowest point of my life and brought me out of it.

I love my little Mia, but I am convinced that everyone has 1 cat in their life they will bond with and when that bond is inevitably broken it takes part of them with it. I used to think that was ridiculous. I know better now.

Eva, my darling little girl. I loved and love you so very much, and even after three years you are in my thoughts every day. I am so sorry your little life was cut short so young. I write in this forum to help others and always imagine they feel the way I did when you died. I was broken. I have healed Eva, and you would be proud of me. We have Loki and Mia and I know you would adore them like you adored everything. We have a good life. I just wish you were here to share it. 

You were my once in a lifetime cat Eva, and you will always be in my heart. i just wanted you to know that.

Here's her tribute video. Please watch it for me. I'd like other people to see how much I loved her

https://animoto.com/play/OoFEd4Ca5mEHoigBK0829w

beautiful video -

Eva would have gotten along well with the Rogue, who never stopped being a kitten either. I hope they meet and have fun, wherever they are now.

Rest you gentle, Eva, dream you deep.  You walked in someone's heart, and you walk there still.

a heartbreaking beautiful tribute. She was a beautiful girl and left you and your family much to early. RIP sweet girl  

Beautiful video. Eva was so pretty, I love her color. I'm sorry for your loss. I can tell you loved each other.

You may as well have been writing my feelings about Lucky right there. I will have to watch the video later because I'm crying after reading that.

What a lovely tribute.  I have no sound on my computer and watched in silence this beautiful brown cat, Eva.  Thank you for sharing the video with us.

For the lucky, there is a bond between two that love each other that is so special, it defies description. It is a part of us, and within us, none of us can explain why or how, it cannot be commanded to be in our lives, it just happens through no conscious action on our part. You describe it exactly, Gareth, it just happens, we understand that we have something that few will experience. They become a part of us, in our homes, our lives, and  especially in our hearts. When they have to go, it takes a huge part of us that can never be replaced. The agony and the pain seem to be unending, the guilt and the tears crushing to our very souls. But somehow we heal over time, and like a scar that reminds us of a past injury, the scar on our hearts reminds us of our loss. We learn to live again without them, we remind ourselves that our precious little departed ones would never want us to be so sad when remembering them, but to celebrate the time we did have together and to use these memories to comfort ourselves when the tears fall. It is still better to have known them and loved them, and although we are crushed when they go, then to have never known them at all, it brought so much life and love into our own short existence on this earth.  They loved us so much, they only want the best for us now, as we would want for them if they were the one left behind. That special bond will never leave us, it is forged of love and is unbreakable, not even death can take it from us, use it to feel the love that they left behind as their legacy. Don't let pain and loss close your heart to loving again, let another in who so desperately needs the love and care we can provide, and do it in our loved one's name. No, it will never be the same, but it's not meant to. Like a mother who has several children, they are all loved in their own way and for what they bring to the family and the heart. We need the love and the happiness they bring to us, we cannot let despair and sorrow rule our lives.

Remember them with a smile for the happiness they brought us, and for what they taught us, it formed us and taught us to have empathy for others who are going through the unimaginable. It brought us a love that can never be duplicated, but it can be passed on and shared with others who enter our lives. The world is darker indeed for their passing, but their light will shine bright in the heavens, and they will be there for eternity shining their love down on us and sending their comfort through the memories we will always have. May we all be blessed for loving so much and hurting so bad, but we do have each other to lean on and share our sorrow. Take care.........