Yorkie

Greetings All:

I have not been on the forum for a while--life happens.  But we had a tragedy happen today regarding our little miniature Yorkshire Terrier/Pug mix dog.  I know this is a cat forum, but I hope you will let it lay; the cats in the household are upset too.  Here is what Hub sent to a friend.  It pretty much tells how it happened. 

We are both at fault--I for not saying anything when Lynn told me he would take the dog, and him for taking the dog in the first place:

Dear Robert:

I need to talk to someone and as you, we have no real friends.  Today has been a very bad day for me.  Before I need to get my new mower blades I decided to mow our cemetery with the old blades.  It is rough cut in there.  Of course I took Yorkie my "buddy".  He stood on the steering wheel the whole time and on my lap.  I put the long leash leader on him to keep him out of my way.  He is so good, he just sits there and watches.  When I got closer he moved about twenty feet away. 

I really need NOT to stress you with this but I really have no one to talk to, not even Mary. 

I came around, and the mower hit the string pulled out  of the take up reel and Yorkie flew 2500 rpm and hit the side of my belly mower and was killed instantly.  I've been a basket case since.  He loved me so.  I loved him and I could not be more grieved if it were one of my children.  We waited until the body was cool and also hoping  God could do a miracle for me.

I buried him with his toys, one can of his food.  Put his teddy bear "girlfriend" in with him and some diatomaceous earth to preserve him.  We buried him deep in an ammo can.  I will make a monument later. 

I've had two dogs in my life.  I cannot say how this has affected me.  I apologize for unloading but if I tell my brother as he is too sick and it would literally kill him.  He loved me bringing Yorkie to visit and played with him.  His crappy wife will not allow him a dog as bad as he wants one.  I won't tell Priscilla (was her dog) until I purchased him. 

Needless to say, I'm not going to be right for some time.  It was not just a dog.  He was my son. 
Forgive me my friend but you are my friend.  Please don't mention this to me as I have abused you in this note and I'll handle it in a while.  Lynn

I hope that I, Mary, can come to some peace with this and also for my hubby, Lynn. I assure that I am grieving as well.  It is how we feel about our four-legged family members.

Thank you for your understanding and tolerance.

My heart breaks in two for what you are going through, I know the incredible pain and horror of being present and holding blame for a beloved pet's death. The ONLY thing that pulled me through that terrible experience was knowing my sweet baby would NEVER want me to be in such pain because of what happened. They hold no blame, and there is no blame to be held by you, it was an ACCIDENT, you would never do anything to intentionally bring pain to the one you love, and your sweet Yorkie knows that. It is something that will never leave you, but one day you will realize that Yorkie would want you to go on with your life and be happy again, as you would want for him if the situation was reversed.

The agony is incredible, I still have nightmares and I'm sure you will too, but somehow we all learn to live with what happened (although it seems impossible at times) and celebrate the time we had with these beautiful little souls, and try not to dwell on the end. Your grief is new and so big right now it fills your world, time is the only thing that helps to soften the edges. Try to let past memories comfort you and know he is at peace now, the bond you have with him will always be there for you, ask him to send you a sign that he is all right and that he will be with you always. He left you a legacy of joy and love, don't let sadness and grief take from that, he loved you too much for that to happen.

I want you to know you are not alone in your pain, there are many here  and in this world who understand your grief and what you are going through, We will help in any way we can, It starts by letting others know what you are going through and letting them share your burden. We all acknowledge your agony and empathize. There aren't enough words in the world to erase what you have gone through, just know I care and I'll pray for you all, you will be blessed for going through such incredible pain from loving and caring so much. Please take care and surround yourself with people who understand and care for you..........RIP dear Yorkie, you are dearly loved and missed, you will never be forgotten in this world, and will be forever held in loving hearts! 

Hi Di and Bob:

Thank you so much for your kind response.  It is very helpful in our grief.  I showed it to my hubby, and he was comforted as well. 

Thank you again,  Mary and Lynn

What a horrible thing to happen! My condolences.

Thank you, jcat.

I am so sorry that this terrible accident happened. 

Hi Zed:

Thank you.  It is hard to realize that this happened only 24 hours ago.  It feels like we have been in this misery for years.  It was noticed of me when I was at work tonight.  Tears happen at odd times of the day and night.

I had similar reactions when Angelina was killed in 2013...

I feel so bad for both you and your husband.  I am really sorry for your loss.  My prayers are with you both.

I am sorry for your lose.  Your pet knows it was a mistake.  His soul knows that you didn't mean it.  Take time to grieve and then know he will always be around you in spirit form.  I had a dog accident too and I will share so you can know that we all make mistakes that effects our lives.  I was given a **** zhu puppy that i adored.  I had worked the night shift and when i got home my dogs needed to go to the bathroom so i let them out in the back yard.  I had a pool.  I was so tired that i laid down on the sofa and fell asleep when i got up i went outside to get them and the puppy was in the pool floating and had drowned.  He couldn't get out.  I could be heard all over the neighbor hood bawling.   No one to talk too.  I felt like i had killed a child.  I still won't buy another dog because i was so irresponsible.  I just stick to cats.  They have litter boxes.  Accidents are just that.  We learn from it and hopefully forgive ourselves so we can be more compassionate to animals that depend on us.  My heart is with you.  I am so sorry. Sherry

Hi Egostorm12:

Welcome to the forum, and I am sorry for your loss also.  Thank you for sharing your story.

Thank you Nurseangel for your prayers.

The hardest part is that Lynn has the scene replaying in  the 'theater of his mind' all the time.  It is very difficult to counteract that.  We will be going out of town for a few days next week.  Maybe that will help.

Mary and Lynn, I am so very sorry for your loss.

Thank you Jenny82 for your kind words.

Meanwhile, here is a picture of our 'Lost Children' Yorkie and Angelina.  I hadn't remembered that they slept peacefully together until I found this:

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Thank you!

Such a sweet picture.     I hope the time spent away will do your husband good.  And bless you for being such a kind and supportive wife.  Even through your own grief, it's obvious how concerned you are for him.