My Sweet Angel Baby Crossed the Rainbow Bridge 2/5/16

Hello Angels Mommy,

I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am for your loss.   I've been following your story and in truth, I was so saddened by your loss, I wasn't sure how to respond.  

With my 2 kitties falling ill at the same time, for the past month, I've been hit with the hard truth of perhaps losing one or both, and that thought is ripping my heart apart.   I'm not sure how you're finding the strength, perhaps its through all the love and support you are receiving through the prayers of others.  Sweet Angel we know is no longer in pain, but I have no doubt that your heart will take time to mend, I know my would. Please know you are in my prayers as well.  You made a difference to a precious kitty and loved him more than you possible knew you could, you in my book, are a hero for caring for this beautiful creature of Gods, I extend that thought  to the many people of this Cat Site,  you're all hero's-Saving one kitty at a time.   Best wishes with warm regards...

Kittens Mom said:

 
Kelly Both my husband and I sincerely hope your heart has found a tiny bit of healing.

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Thank you, & I wish he same for the both of you. 

cat nap said:

 
I read your story, on how Angel adopted you, and I remember reading it last year, but I didn't remember the part about allergies to cats. That says a lot, that your allergies settled down, and Angel walked into your place like he was checking out the rooms, and decided to stay.  He probably decided to stay before then, but still had to make it look like he was 'measuring the rooms' or something.

You have an amazing talent for photography, as per your photos on TCS and photobucket photos, but you also have a talent for writing...so I hope you continue to write about your times with Angel, or poetry, short stories, etc,...perhaps after some time has passed and your heart begins to mend. 

I know you mentioned that 'stupid cancer' won...but I'd like to think that Angel was just needed in Heaven, and that he's probably busy up there. Physically, Angel may not be with you, but his energy and spirit will be, as you mentioned, he will always be a part of, and in your heart, forever.

You have "a big Leo heart"...somehow, that does not seem surprising at all.

  So, yes, "sometime, someday" pretty sure that Angel will send another fur-ball/ fur-bundle/cat your way.

Once again, Kelly, I am so sorry on Angel having to leave, so soon, and I hope your grief and pain diminish with time.  

 

 

 

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Thanks cat nap!  Yes, he did do just that. Walked around checking out the place, then came & laid down in the living room like, "ok."    

Yes, he is an angel, so he must have been needed up there to do more work.  

"One day," I will have another, but not for a long time. Now, I am going to concentrate on paying off that care credit!!  & maybe I will finally be able to do a little bit of traveling which I would not do while he was here. 

My closest girlfriend moved away a few years ago, 5, or 6 I think? so it would be nice to get to go visit her.  Even just a weekend trip to Myrtle Beach would be nice, which is only about an hour away. I haven't been anywhere in years, & I haven't even flown in over 15 years!!      

Thank you for the compliment on my photography & writing!  I do love photography. Other than Angel's & my story, It's all I've written in a very long time. I haven't even written any poetry in years, since he had been with me. I think he just filled my heart with so much joy, it took the place of it. 

 Hmmmmm............            Maybe I should start a poetry thread? I'll have to think about that!  I think we can trust each other on this site w/ posting any original writings. (that's a word, right??)

It does get a little easier each day, but there have still been moments.  I'm sure they will be calling me soon to come pick him up, & that I'm sure very will be emotional. 

I go back to working on Friday, to try & get in the routine of things again.  A very close friend made it possible to take a couple of days off this week, so that has been a real blessing!!  Hopefully, I will be ok, since it will be exactly a week that morning. My client offered to let me reschedule, but I thought it best to get back to things. It will help. 

2Cats4everLoved said:

 
Hello Angels Mommy,

I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am for your loss.   I've been following your story and in truth, I was so saddened by your loss, I wasn't sure how to respond.  

With my 2 kitties falling ill at the same time, for the past month, I've been hit with the hard truth of perhaps losing one or both, and that thought is ripping my heart apart.   I'm not sure how you're finding the strength, perhaps its through all the love and support you are receiving through the prayers of others.  Sweet Angel we know is no longer in pain, but I have no doubt that your heart will take time to mend, I know my would. Please know you are in my prayers as well.  You made a difference to a precious kitty and loved him more than you possible knew you could, you in my book, are a hero for caring for this beautiful creature of Gods, I extend that thought  to the many people of this Cat Site,  you're all hero's-Saving one kitty at a time.   Best wishes with warm regards...

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Awww, Thank you so much!  Yes, I too believe I have been sustained & held up during this time through so,so many people's prayers & the grace of God! 

We really do have a special community of wonderful people here. I can't say that enough!!!!! 

SheriT said:

so I wish you good health in the future,

finances and happiness

and I will continue to remember you in my

prayers.

Sheri , Lily and Bro

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Thank you so much Sheri!!    

A poetry thread would be awesome!

I just wanted to let you know I have been thinking about you. Last night I was laying in bed and I started thinking about you and Angel with tears streaming down my face.

You know when I told you Peaches doesn't really have much to do with me and then she started cuddling with me last week while we prayed for Angel. She hasn't slept with me since last Friday night.

I do think Peaches was trying to comfort me and listening to me talk about Angel, I know might sound crazy.

Just know you are still in my thoughts and prayers.

Angels mommy said:

   Hmmmmm............  

         Maybe I should start a poetry thread? I'll have to think about that!  I think we can trust each other on this site w/ posting any original writings. (that's a word, right??)

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The poetry thread sounds interesting, not that I have a poetic bone in my body, but it would be fun to read.  Just keep in mind that anyone would be able to read your writings.  Even people who aren't looking for a cat forum, as Google might find something posted via a search on a totally different subject.  So what's I'm trying to say, don't post anything you don't want the entire world to see.

@Angels mommy Glad you are doing ok.   You've been in my thoughts. I only hope when the time comes that Ruby needs medical care, I'll be as strong as you were with your Angel.

rubysmama said:

 
The poetry thread sounds interesting, not that I have a poetic bone in my body, but it would be fun to read.  Just keep in mind that anyone would be able to read your writings.  Even people who aren't looking for a cat forum, as Google might find something posted via a search on a totally different subject.  So what's I'm trying to say, don't post anything you don't want the entire world to see.

@Angels mommy Glad you are doing ok.   You've been in my thoughts. I only hope when the time comes that Ruby needs medical care, I'll be as strong as you were with your Angel.

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Yes, that's true.  I think it could be nice, & interesting.  I wrote my first poem at 12 or 13, up to around the first year or so that Angel came to me. A few years ago, I finally took all of my notebooks full, & put them into my computer, & then on a disc. That was one of the things that "If there ever were a fire," (God forbid!)  Those couldn't ever be replaced. I had way too many to ever memorise any. When I did that, I had a count of 175! 

So this way, all I had to do was grab that disc, to have them safe.  

I hope that time doesn't come anytime soon for Ruby, but when it does, you will. Your love for her, & the support from all of us & others in your life will give you the courage & strength you need, as it did me. 

LotsofFur said:

A poetry thread would be awesome!

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Does that mean you have some to share?    

this picture makes me very sad 

How you're feeling is completely normal. You have to go through the stages of grief just like you would if it was a human who passed. IMO, there's really no difference between the two. 

When the time comes and Angel finds a kitty that he thinks would be a good fit for you, he will send him or her to you along with his blessing for the new kitty to use his things.  He'd want this new kitty to fully appreciate and enjoy the same amazing life with you that he had. He wouldn't be jealous or upset. Those are human emotions. He'd be pleased that another cat will experience the same love, care and friendship that he did. I think that all cats wish that for one another. He knows that the day will eventually come when he will have you back but in the meantime, he'd want you to take care of YOURSELF first and he will watch over you while you do so. He wants you to be healthy and happy because he loves you. 

I think it's a great idea that you want to do some travelling. It will good for you to have a change of scenery and it will help you to not focus on your sadness as much. That needs to take the back seat (or the trunk!) sometimes. 

RIP precious Angel. We know you are not only a fur-baby angel with four paws but with wings also. Please watch over your mom and give her peace and healing.

@Angels mommy  you were both blessed to have each other and we all here know the pain of loss you are feeling, just remember that you have a part of Angel's heart so he will find you when you meet again.

@Zed Xyzed  ,  Sorry Eric. It does me too a little, but I think partly, it also brings me comfort having some of his things still out. It was sad to also put away his dishes from the dish rack. I have them under the sink w/ some food still. I have some cans of Nat. Bal. I am going to see if my cousin who has 2 cats wants them. (not sure what they eat). & will take those packets of "Cats in the kitchen" back to the local owned store I got them. The owner emailed me the other day, & said if there was anything they could do...  I just haven't been ready to go in there yet, because they are all great, & know I;m going to get lots of big hugs, & will start crying again.

On a positive note,  I got a lot of pictures printed out at CVS yesterday to do some more scrapbooking in Angel's book. Then I went to Hobby Lobby, & got a lot of scrapbook paper!  10 sheets, I think. To start at least.

Haven't done any in a while, so if my glue isn't all dried up, I will be doing that soon.    

Thank you.   

Kat0121 said:

 
How you're feeling is completely normal. You have to go through the stages of grief just like you would if it was a human who passed. IMO, there's really no difference between the two. 

When the time comes and Angel finds a kitty that he thinks would be a good fit for you, he will send him or her to you along with his blessing for the new kitty to use his things.  He'd want this new kitty to fully appreciate and enjoy the same amazing life with you that he had. He wouldn't be jealous or upset. Those are human emotions. He'd be pleased that another cat will experience the same love, care and friendship that he did. I think that all cats wish that for one another. He knows that the day will eventually come when he will have you back but in the meantime, he'd want you to take care of YOURSELF first and he will watch over you while you do so. He wants you to be healthy and happy because he loves you. 

I think it's a great idea that you want to do some travelling. It will good for you to have a change of scenery and it will help you to not focus on your sadness as much. That needs to take the back seat (or the trunk!) sometimes. 

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Thank you!!!!  I think you are right!  I guess it's just too fresh right now, to "imagine" anyone else in his beds, that's why. 

The only thing my husband did the day we lost Kitten was when the vet asked if we wanted the crate. I was about to say NO when my hub said yes and carried it out to the car. Where it stayed for days and is not dumped in a storage shed. I won't bring it in. I can't bring myself to toss it. I can't bring myself to donate it. And I bought new crates because I would never put one of my cats in it.

Kelly I have a few of Kittens favorite toys next to her urn. As is her cream saucer. Her blankets are folded in a tote and HER special toys in a box. To be perfectly honest aside from the heated beds that she was never fond of. My heated bed was better and some toys that are Mooks and a few that Kitten had as a kitten that went to Mook and now Mercy. All the toys in my home are new.

Artifacts can be either comforting or just make you feel worse. Only you can decide what do to with Angel's possessions. There is no right or wrong answer.

Kittens Mom said:

 
The only thing my husband did the day we lost Kitten was when the vet asked if we wanted the crate. I was about to say NO when my hub said yes and carried it out to the car. Where it stayed for days and is not dumped in a storage shed. I won't bring it in. I can't bring myself to toss it. I can't bring myself to donate it. And I bought new crates because I would never put one of my cats in it.

Kelly I have a few of Kittens favorite toys next to her urn. As is her cream saucer. Her blankets are folded in a tote and HER special toys in a box. To be perfectly honest aside from the heated beds that she was never fond of. My heated bed was better and some toys that are Mooks and a few that Kitten had as a kitten that went to Mook and now Mercy. All the toys in my home are new.

Artifacts can be either comforting or just make you feel worse. Only you can decide what do to with Angel's possessions. There is no right or wrong answer.

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Thank you. I guess time will decide.

The sight of the empty gray bed with pink lining just hit me very hard.  I am so used to seeing  Angel in it.  Angel touched us all, so deeply - he was such a very special boy.   You have handled all this with such grace and strength, it's been a real inspiration.  It's very good to see you still here on the site.  

Angels mommy said:

 
Thank you!!!!  I think you are right!  I guess it's just too fresh right now, to "imagine" anyone else in his beds, that's why. 

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I understand. My situation was different than yours but in a way the same. It took me a long time to donate a lot of MY late DH's clothes and things and there are some things I still have. I didn't want someone else wearing his things because that would really "seal it" that he was gone. It felt like I was trying to act like he had never been there at all. That's not the case at all though. They never really leave us. Human or animal. We'll always have out memories and photos to hang onto. I finally donated most of his clothes and other things to the local Humane Society's thrift store. That was the thrift store he shopped at and when he donated anything, it was to them. I did what he would have done. 

Be good to yourself right now. Allow yourself as much time to grieve for him as you need. Travel, have fun, laugh a lot. You've shed so many tears. Doing something just for YOU will help you heal. Angel will be smiling along with you.