Awwww, Thank you! Yes, he really was a beautiful boy!!
I am so sorry for your loss. DH came in as I was looking at your pictures, and asked me if Angel was a real cat and said he was beautiful. I agree. A very sweet and beautiful cat. You'll be in my prayers.
There's nothing to forgive.Kelly
I have spent many hours thinking about you two. I too have had eyes that started leaking every time I thought about the final sign of love that would break your heart as much as it has broken others hearts before you. I can't tell you enough how proud I am of you of how much you tried and loved him. You kept him loved. Fed. warm. Comfortable. Medication to help make him feel better. I read some of your earlier posts a few years ago. And the one thing that stuck out in my mind-is his playfulness-how he galloped around your house like a horse. I will always hold that memory of your words close to my heart. These cats of ours all have their own quirky ways. But I just wanted to thank you for allowing us to follow your path. And we all learned so much. Learned about love and the gift of each day. That sometimes comes to an end all too short.
As far as another furbaby. A few years ago I was also at the end of the road just like you are-I swore I would never adopt again-I still had two furbabies but that little girl of mine Flash just broke my heart in two and left me so fast despite all the help I got from the vets. It just wasn't enough. If love could cure it she would still be here with me. I swore after that I just wanted to be alone. And I was. In my grief. I was trapped. I didn't reach out. I just had to wait for time to do its thing no matter how much my heart broke.
Three months later I get a phone call from my friend asking about how to rehome a kitty that was dumped. Now its cold up here in January. And I went home that night and thought about a little calico kitty stuck sleeping underneath some bushes with snow 2 feet high. The next day I decided I had to go get her. I just couldn't live with myself no matter how much my heart was still broken over Flash's leaving. So that night I met my friend and we got her. She was a beautiful cat and kind of rough on the edges. She was jumping up on the lap of the old lady who let her come in her porch. She was feeding her but for whatever reason wouldn't keep her. I took her home that night.
While my friend drove to my house this cat howled so loud. I never heard such heartbreaking sounds. It sounded exactly as the ache in my heart. I kept saying to her "honey its ok" . I named her Honeybee, it just seemed right. We took her into our house. When she came out of her cage she didn't run or hide. Just sniffing all around..my heart melted slowly. And in the next month I learned that despite how much my heart was broken this special little orange girl with the white stripe on her face melted my frozen heart.
I really believe Flash sent her. I tried so hard to be strong. I tried to hide my pain from the world. And I guess my friends and family could see through the cloak of pain. And Honeybee even to this day continues to melt my frozen heart. I thank Flash for sending me another fluff ball to love. And I know Angel will do the same. They sit up there on the rainbow bridge plotting for new homes for those other kitties still here with us. So take heart Kelly. One day soon your heart will unfreeze and the pain will melt away. But for now feel the grief and don't run from it like I did.
Angel run free with the rest of our beloved animals. And Kelly we all know how much you loved your boy. And how hard this was. He loves you and forgives you. I know without a doubt.
yes but we always feel guilt about when is the right time. I know she struggled. These words soothed me at one time when I had to send them on..you are correct there is nothing to forgive but we always have doubts and wonderings. And I know she is the best kitty mommy out there. I am not sure what you are implying but please know I mean no bad feelings. Peace.
I didn't mean anything sweety. I was trying to comfort you by saying that.you don't need forgiveness. I didn't mean to upset you. Hugs.
Yes the are. But I know that if there had been any reasonable hope we would have went on fighting for Kitten.
Thank you. Yes, I did all I could for him. That's why I let him get the feeding tube. Hoping against hope, that it was just a rough time in his journey w/ all of it, & that he could turn the corner once he started getting more food, but it just wasn't the case. After that, and after hearing how he was breathing, I just knew I couldn't let him suffer anymore, even though it tore my heart out to set him free.
That's why I did everything I could for him. There are no regrets, or what ifs. Even if I hadn't raised any money, & would have had to use my care credit, & be in debt for many years, I would have done it!
I do that with lotto and gentle. Maybe I didn't give the vet much time. Gentle was so. Miserable and clingy and l had to let her go. With lotto maybe if I'd got painkillers for him he'd have lasted longer. I.miss him so much.
Sorry. Slipped the finger.
You did what you thought was best for them at the time and they know that. They know that the decision you made was out of love. They will both always love you too.
At the time. And it's hard to go back to that moment because later you are filled with what ifs. It's the last thing any of us want to do. I think it's important to remember that. We reach that point when our pets are either going to live a life with no real quality or enjoyment or a medical condition is going to conclude it for us in short order if we don't allow them to slip painlessly away. We know it at the moment we make the choice. Sometimes you just have to learn to trust yourself.
You did what you thought was best for them at the time and they know that. They know that the decision you made was out of love. They will both always love you too.
Thank you for your kind words. They helped with the guilt.You did what you thought was best for them at the time and they know that. They know that the decision you made was out of love. They will both always love you too.
