My Sweet Angel Baby Crossed the Rainbow Bridge 2/5/16

Kelly, that kitty meeting looks like it was quite good fun and not too quarelsome.  Nice! 

I hope your neighbour's little one keeps visiting so you can enjoy the company and perhaps a little fur contact from time to time.   I love your idea of trying to get a photo of this lovely neighbourhood kitty of mine.  I should take my camera out with me for a week or two in the hope that she is out and about at the same time as me.

MServant said:

 
Kelly, that kitty meeting looks like it was quite good fun and not too quarelsome.  Nice! 

I hope your neighbour's little one keeps visiting so you can enjoy the company and perhaps a little fur contact from time to time.   I love your idea of trying to get a photo of this lovely neighbourhood kitty of mine.  I should take my camera out with me for a week or two in the hope that she is out and about at the same time as me.

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Yea, it was funny, they were all just kind of laying there. It also looks like Angel is sitting at the top as "King of the porch." ......his porch. 

That other boy never let me get too close. I think the closest I got was a couple of steps away once, I was putting some treats out for him.  

I haven't seen  the little calico girl in a few days. I looked back on my phone pictures, to see the dates of when she was around. It looks like she was outside, where I went down & visited with her in the yard on the 17th, then the 21st, & the 23rd were the other two days she was here. So maybe she will show up again soon.  I was hoping I'd see her today. I had looked back at some of Angel's pictures this afternoon, of that last week, & had a cry. I usually try not to look at those too much, because they are the saddest. You can just see what was happening, & that he was ready.   

Kelly, for a while after I let Pal go I used to look at pictures of her fairly often that I had taken in the last week I had her with me.   It was upsetting but in a way I think it helped me to accept that I had to let her go, and that it was time.  Stopped me wondering if there might have been any more that could have been done.  I would wonder if she was tired and wanted to go sooner but from the pictures I took through that week I could see the look in her eyes change, and she looked more tired.   I hope looking at Angels photographs help you too.     

MServant said:

 
Kelly, for a while after I let Pal go I used to look at pictures of her fairly often that I had taken in the last week I had her with me.   It was upsetting but in a way I think it helped me to accept that I had to let her go, and that it was time.  Stopped me wondering if there might have been any more that could have been done.  I would wonder if she was tired and wanted to go sooner but from the pictures I took through that week I could see the look in her eyes change, and she looked more tired.   I hope looking at Angels photographs help you too.  

  

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Thank you.  I don't look at them too often, the ones from that last week, because they make me very sad.  After getting the e-tube in that last week, I know I did everything I could have. I just hate he went through all of that on that Monday, along w/ a treatment, only to be let go on Friday.  It was a lot for him that day. The picture I took of him on the table at the vets when I picked him up that day, you can just see it. I look at that picture & apologize for putting him through that, but it was my last attempt to help him. I hate it, but at the same time, I don't regret it, because doing that made me know that we (his vet & I) did do everything possible. 

Kelly - you did everything out of love for Angel, and he knew that. 

Zed Xyzed said:

 
Kelly - you did everything out of love for Angel, and he knew that. 

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Thank you Eric.    I really did. I couldn't have loved him more. 

Dear Kelly,

        You did absolutely everything humanly possible for Angel. He knows all the love you have for him. The little girl kitty sounds so cute,and I know you like to see her,I feel you are coming closer to being ready for a new kitty experience. There are either two kitties there looking for a forever home,or one little kitten who needs a cat mommy like you.

Kelly, it comes across to me that you made the best decisions possible for you and Angel, and as you heal you will feel more comfortable about everything you did for him.  

@MServant  & @kittylove53  , Thank you so much!  I know I did. I just wish he wouldn't have had to go through so much, & I really miss him!   It will still be a while before I have another kitty. I miss having one around,

and enjoy the occasional visits from my little neighbor kitty, but I'm not ready for one of my own yet.  It's mostly that I am not emotionally ready yet, but there is a little freedom that I want to take advantage of while not having one, like taking that trip to see my friend that moved away. Not that I can afford to travel much, but I do want to at least do that. Myrtle Beach is only about 45 minutes from me, so even a weekend trip sometime will be nice.  So I will just have to play it by ear, & see where this year takes me.  As far as having two, I love the idea of it, but don't think I could afford two, especially if something went wrong.  (I am still paying off the care credit from some of Angels stuff a few years ago). 

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I know you mentioned that Angel was already neutered, when he adopted you, but this above photo makes me smile.

It's more like the little ginger tabby is wondering if Angel could be his father. And then Sheba has to come over and joins the conversation. I hope all the cats came to an understanding.    

Angels mommy said:

@MServant
 & @kittylove53
 , Thank you so much!  I know I did. I just wish he wouldn't have had to go through so much, & I really miss him!   It will still be a while before I have another kitty. I miss having one around,
and enjoy the occasional visits from my little neighbor kitty, but I'm not ready for one of my own yet.  It's mostly that I am not emotionally ready yet, but there is a little freedom that I want to take advantage of while not having one, like taking that trip to see my friend that moved away. Not that I can afford to travel much, but I do want to at least do that. Myrtle Beach is only about 45 minutes from me, so even a weekend trip sometime will be nice.  So I will just have to play it by ear, & see where this year takes me.  As far as having two, I love the idea of it, but don't think I could afford two, especially if something went wrong.  (I am still paying off the care credit from some of Angels stuff a few years ago). 

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That's a shame. Two are lovely. Nevermind though. Go have your holiday and clear your head.

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Yes, when you are ready, perhaps at the end of the year, or next...then you might want to take @Handsome Kitty's advice, and begin to foster one.

(Though, knowing you a bit...I fear that might not go too well, in that if you'd be fostering, and have potential adopters come over...Suddenly all the signs leading up your stairs would have 'detour signs', obstacle courses everywhere, 'no one is home', and 'come back next year', too. If you had to bring them back into the shelter, your cellphone would conveniently be lost, and no one could call.

Seeing that you get attached to the 'little one's' quite quickly...I fear that you must have a lot more discipline, to not lose your heart so fast. 

 

I know you mentioned that Angel was already neutered, when he adopted you, but this above photo makes me smile.

It's more like the little ginger tabby is wondering if Angel could be his father. And then Sheba has to come over and joins the conversation. I hope all the cats came to an understanding.  

 

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YUP! I'd say you know me too well! There is no way I could foster because I do get attached too easy.  I guess that's one of the precautions to having a big heart & lots of love to give. 

That's what I was thinking, in a year or so maybe. we'll see!  

Yea, that other little guy was not neutered, I remember.  I had no idea if he belonged to someone in the neighborhood, or was a stray.  I remember looking at him one day & asking him what his name was, & Toby came into my head, & I thought he looked like a Toby, but I didn't see him very often. He had a sweet face. 

Angels mommy said:

 
YUP! I'd say you know me too well! There is no way I could foster because I do get attached too easy.  I guess that's one of the precautions to having a big heart & lots of love to give. 

That's what I was thinking, in a year or so maybe. we'll see!  

Yea, that other little guy was not neutered, I remember.  I had no idea if he belonged to someone in the neighborhood, or was a stray.  I remember looking at him one day & asking him what his name was, & Toby came into my head, & I thought he looked like a Toby, but I didn't see him very often. He had a sweet face. 

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the poor outdoor kitties, they live such a rough life

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You know, when I first look at a photo, I'll see things, but then when you mentioned about how you designed the pages, and the other things around the actual photo, I'll usually go back and take a look.

Then, sometimes I'll see other things, that I didn't really notice the first time:

I remember seeing the photo of Angel sleeping, with his feet up in the air, and all his paws out in different directions, and thinking..."wow, Angel had a lot of different positions". I'm not sure if my cats actually sleep like this.

That photo of Angel on the massage table, with that caption, is fantastic..."I not 'posed to be up here, but I wait'n for my 'ssage"....(what a relaxed body.)

And then the one with the "rocket ship"...I didn't notice the caption until later...."what's this laundry doing in my spaceship?"   (my ribs started hurting after that one. I also didn't notice the planets, rocket ship sticker, and star until later. Now that photo reminds me of Matt Damon in "the Martian", with Angel playing the leading role. All the pages are great. )

@cat nap  , Aww, Thank you!  Yea, that's exactly what the problem would be, I'd get attached too easily, (& quickly)  & then they might get adopted, & my heart would break again. I couldn't take that. Also the fact that while you are bonding & getting attached, they could be taken at anytime if they get adopted, so I just couldn't do it. I feel like it would be living with anxiety because you never know when they could go kind of thing. 

It's tough. As much as I love animals, I would love to be able to do something like that, or work with them. I once looked at an online vet tech course, but I just couldn't do it, as much as I'd love to.

I am just too tender hearted. (hearted, is that a word?? )  Anyway, I remember one time I was at the vet waiting with Angel. This was years ago, we were just there for an annual, & a lady walked in with a cat in a towel,

you couldn't even see it, but you just knew what was going on. I had never seen this lady before, didn't know anything, but just from that, It took every bit of strength I could muster up to not just start crying. 

Angels mommy said:

@cat nap
 , Aww, Thank you!  Yea, that's exactly what the problem would be, I'd get attached too easily, (& quickly)  & then they might get adopted, & my heart would break again. I couldn't take that. Also the fact that while you are bonding & getting attached, they could be taken at anytime if they get adopted, so I just couldn't do it. I feel like it would be living with anxiety because you never know when they could go kind of thing. 

It's tough. As much as I love animals, I would love to be able to do something like that, or work with them. I once looked at an online vet tech course, but I just couldn't do it, as much as I'd love to.
I am just too tender hearted. (hearted, is that a word??:scratch: )  Anyway, I remember one time I was at the vet waiting with Angel. This was years ago, we were just there for an annual, & a lady walked in with a cat in a towel,
you couldn't even see it, but you just knew what was going on. I had never seen this lady before, didn't know anything, but just from that, It took every bit of strength I could muster up to not just start crying. 

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Hearted is a word.

Dear Kelly,

       What a beautiful tribute to Angel your album is. I see just how much time and love you put into it. I started to cry again. Yes you are too loving and have too big a heart to just foster kitties. I know that I would become too attached also. Oh what a lucky kitty that will be in your future,I know how hard this has been for you. I am not that strong. I am sending positive thoughts to you. Have you seen the little calico again ? She is a beautiful kitty.

Angels mommy said:

 
@cat nap  , Aww, Thank you!  Yea, that's exactly what the problem would be, I'd get attached too easily, (& quickly)  & then they might get adopted, & my heart would break again. I couldn't take that. Also the fact that while you are bonding & getting attached, they could be taken at anytime if they get adopted, so I just couldn't do it. I feel like it would be living with anxiety because you never know when they could go kind of thing. 

It's tough. As much as I love animals, I would love to be able to do something like that, or work with them. I once looked at an online vet tech course, but I just couldn't do it, as much as I'd love to.

I am just too tender hearted. (hearted, is that a word??

)  Anyway, I remember one time I was at the vet waiting with Angel. This was years ago, we were just there for an annual, & a lady walked in with a cat in a towel,

you couldn't even see it, but you just knew what was going on. I had never seen this lady before, didn't know anything, but just from that, It took every bit of strength I could muster up to not just start crying. 

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Stewball said:

Hearted is a word.

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Yup,  @Stewball is right..."hearted"...is a word.

From the Merriam-Webster dictionary....'tender hearted' means..."easily moved to love, pity, or sorrow"

And if it were not a word, Kelly, we would all understand what you mean...  (Plus, you can go and make up any words, that you want. Though, I might have to look them up, and pm you later to ask.

I never knew that the saying...."I heart you"...meant "I love you"...until I actually saw the 'logo of the heart' on a t-shirt. Sometimes, it takes me a little while, to catch on). 

(What you described at happening at your vet's office, happened to me, too, although, it was with an older lady, and her 17 year old dog. She was there with her 70 year old mom, too, and they were talking about their Nova Scotia Duck tolling Retriever and how wonderful a dog he was. He had the softest fur, and looked so tired, but you just knew how much love this dog had given to his family. I had to look away, for a few minutes, because my eyes just welled up. But the women were okay, and just briefly stopped talking, and then continued again.)

I think you can learn to handle things like this, but it has to take a shift in attitude and thoughts, and just focus on the positives of having a job like that.

Perhaps, even talking with people in that field...vet tech...would be helpful, and ask how they handle it. But yes, it would be difficult, in certain cases, for sure.

I kind of got attached to animals, while I pet-sitted for neighbours, but then you know that it's only temporary, and that they all are overjoyed when they see their guardians come home.

Though, they always remember you, too. So that feels good.

@kittylove53  Thank you for your kind words. Yes, it can be a blessing & a curse in a way, being so tender hearted.     No, I haven't seen that calico in over a week now, other than in her driveway, while I was leaving one day, but she hasn't been up on my porch. Since I don't know her name, I've just been calling her Baby girl.    

@cat nap, It definitely takes a special kind of person to work in that field. I know I couldn't do it. I'd probably come home & cry a lot of days.  That's ok, their days are way too long anyway!! 

Angels mommy said:

Thank You Eric.  

I also forgot to tell you guys that the vet told me that the people who do the cremation, also do the plaster paw print, (which I was going to ask about)  And a lock of hair. I did cut a couple Thursday night, as someone suggested, but will be nice, & they also do a death certificate. 

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If you have some of his hair then there are companies that can put the hair into clear solid gel and turn it into a necklace. My baby girl Eva, my soul cat, will never be far from my heart. I'm so very sorry for your loss. You clearly gave your angel your whole heart,