My sweet, sweet Oscar...

  My dear, darling Oscar... I held you so close to me as you crossed the bridge. I cried on your soft fur as your still warm body laid limp in my arms.

  In your last living moments, you laid on my lap as always; purring softly as I rubbed behind your ears and scritched under your chin.

  I remember being completely unable to look at your face again for your eyes wouldn't close and I couldn't bear to see them without the life that once made them shine bright.

  I remember being hunched over your body, whispering "I love you" multiple times as I sobbed. As if you could hear me from the other side.

  I remember holding back tears as I removed your collar as steadily as I could. gripping onto it tightly with one hand while the other cradled your head.

  I remember the nurse holding me as she told me it was time for them to start preparing you. I had asked for some tufts of your fur. I cried as I clutched the small plastic bag that contained them.

  I managed to regain enough of my composure to walk out of the room to be led to the back door exit. Holding it long enough till I got back to the car where I continued crying.


My darling boy. He purred as I held him and laid still as the vet delivered the dose. Such a gentle soul.

I shall miss him pawing at my thigh as he demands attention. I shall miss him sleeping at my feet and occasionally nuzzling me. I shall miss his gentle headbutts and loving nuzzles.

As I sit at my desk typing this, I can already feel the difference. He was never a vocal cat, but the house seems quieter without him somehow. It feels colder.

I can only find solace in the thought that he no longer suffers. There is no more pain. No more discomfort. He is in a better place now. And that is all that matters.

Rest in peace, my dear child. I strived to give you all that you deserve. I can only hope I have given enough.

I only had you for a month, but it felt so much longer. We shared a bond that felt too natural to be new. You adopted me, rather than the other way around.

Your soul and mine are very old friends.

May we meet again in another life.

Dearly beloved and very much missed.

He was so very lucky to have found you, he needed you and your love so very much. To love him so deeply in such a short time shows the size of your heart and the depth of his love. I will never understand why such a loved little soul has to leave this world when there are those who so desperately want him to stay, but it happens all too often, and the world loses a little sunshine when they go.My heart goes out to you, I know how much a broken heart can hurt, but I want you to remember that he will always be a part of you, the bond you formed and the love you shared can never be taken from you. Thank you for having the strength to be with him at the end, I'm sure it comforted him so very much, and for ending his pain before it became his whole world. The 'essence' that was Oscar will follow you for the rest of your life, he will kiss you on the gentle breeze and will  nuzzle you once again when you think of him and allow him to comfort you with your precious memories. He left you his precious legacy of love, he would want you to continue to pass on his love and give it to another who so desperately needs it. My condolences on your loss, I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers. RIP sweet Oscar, you will never be forgotten and will be forever held in a loving heart!

Sorry for your loss - he was beautiful. We just lost our Charlie that we had for ten years and there is a define emptiness. Praying for you, you did the right thing.

Through your stories and posts so many of us fell in love with Oscar. I am so grateful that his final days were filled with love. Thank you for all that you did for this very special guy. 

Having been rejected by people who weren't worthy of him anyway, Oscar was very fortunate to live out his last days with a kind person like you who saw his innate worth.  If there is a god, then God bless you!  Oscar was such a lovable boy and I'm glad you shared him with us.  

So sorry to hear that, he looks like he was a great guy. He was lucky to have you as well, and especially to have you there at the end - I'm sure that made him feel safe and loved.

Oh my, my cheeks are all wet again.

Oscar was truly something special. In the span of a couple of months he's caught the hearts and love of so many people. But most importantly the one that took him in and loved him, and made that last month one to really live for. Thank you for that, RiotKatt.

I could not even compose myself to write anything until now. I hope you find a bigger way to tell Oscars story. Putting a face to the stray, abandoned and feral cats would be a beautiful legacy for him.

For you , I am so sorry for the heartache you feel.  He came and filled your home as quickly as he was gone. Your ability to take in and then commit to the care of a dying cat and see it though speaks volumes to who you are. Which I know is scant solace when you feel your heart has been ripped out.  One of the greatest gifts of love is self sacrifice. It will never feel good. Not everyone can do it. Oscar thanks you from the bottom of his heart for your love.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Oscar you have left a hole in our hearts. But more importantly it has left a void in your heart Rionkatt. I don't have any words of wisdom as others said it best above. Just know that he thanks you for taking a chance with him. I'm so glad that you took care of him until the end. Again I'm so sorry for your loss. Much too soon.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Oscar was a beautiful boy. It's so sad that you were only able to share your lives for a month, but he felt your love during that time.

Like the rest, I too am ever so sorry about your loss, dear, dear Oscar. You will be comforted that you remembered the tufts of fur in the future. As I mentioned earlier, I could not force my self to look and touch my Missy's fur for 1 year after her passing. Hugs to you sweety!!!!

He looks so satisfied in your arms. What a wonderful cat. I am glad he knew a deep love and I am truly sorry for your loss.

This is the hardest thing in the world to do, and you're so brave for doing it. The pain will lessen a little over time, but the one thing that might help is that Oscar will never suffer again - and you did that for him. Sending you positive thoughts.

Oh, what a truly beautiful kitty!
Just look at those sweet eyes!
I am so sorry for your loss. It is so obvious just from reading your words how much you loved Oscar. You may have only had him for a short time, but the mutual love the two of you shared will last forever. Oscar was blessed to have known you and the love you showered on him. I hope that one day you can think of your sweet Oscar with more smiles than tears.
RIP Sweet Oscar!
You will be missed and never forgotten!

Oscar was handsome.  Your words and pictures say so much about your love for him.  I am sorry for your loss.

Oscar was a beautiful boy and you are a wonderful person for taking care of him. I'm very sorry for your loss. RIP sweet Oscar.

Oscar's home.

I'm trying to embed the image of his urn, but I can't do that from my tablet. I shall upload it when I have access to my pc.

I'm so glad to hear he's home. It doesn't help the grief, but somehow... it just helps.

I'm glad Oscar is home as well.  He is where he belongs - with you.   

I have just read Oscar's story, and am so grateful he had a loving home the last few months of his life. I adopted an elderly German Shepherd mix from a Los Angeles city shelter 25 years ago. He was dumped on the street because he had small cancerous growths all over his body, and wasn't wanted anymore. I named him Joey. He was such a sweet old man, happy to have a home. I only had him for a month, but he died surrounded by my other senior dogs instead of at a shelter. God bless you, RionKatt, for all you did for Oscar. May those who abandoned Oscar and Joey be tossed away like garbage when they are old and sick.