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You have to let time do it's work, and in the meantime, allow yourself to grieve. So many of us have been through it, and fairly recently. It's rarely a quick thing, I wish I could say it was. But it does get easier with time. And you did not do a thing wrong. You'll go through all the "what-ifs" and I honestly think that's one of the worst parts. All the things we could have done differently, when in reality, 99% of the time, it would not have made a difference. I honestly believe that is the case with you and your boy.
Thank You all for your replies. I just feel that I killed him,as it hurt so much to have to sign the papers to have him put down. And I had to do it alone. I thought maybe all he needed was a relaxant to calm him from the ride. Never thought I would come home without him and never see him again!!! It hurts so, so much!!! It is so hard to be here in this new place as I can still see how heavy he was breathing and I keep hoping to see him rub against the wall or my leg, and sleep on bottom of the bed at night with me. But he isn't ever going to do any of that again!!!! The pain hurts so bad and I don't know how to stop it!!