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I just discovered TCS and am so happy I did. Thank you to everyone for your posts and to each of you that have lost a furry friend I am truly sorry. Last week we suddenly lost our buddy Riley, he was only 1.5 years old. We adopted him when he was about 4 months ago and he was truly such a blessing. He was energetic and playful, cuddly, friendly, talked to me when I came home from work, followed us around. I had never had a pet before him and never realized how attached you could become. Riley had been having some issues with overgrooming for the past couple months and was seeing a vet regularly for evaluation of possible allergies vs. psychogenic alopecia. My fiance and I work long hours and Riley was a bit clingy so our first vet was pretty set on the diagnosis of psychogenic alopecia. We moved a few months ago and established care with a new veterinary practice and started to re-evaluate the problem. He always looked really well though, never sick, always happy and playful, just seemed "itchy."
Then around Thanksgiving he began to have new symptoms- he vomited three times in 3 days (which he had never done before) and we attributed this to new dry food I had gotten. We switched him back to his previous dry food and the vomiting resolved. He then would randomly have days where he slept a little more than usual- but still playful and energetic when awake, ate well, etc. The week prior to his passing, I noticed he started licking random things- the tile floor, the coffee table, the refrigerator and dishwasher doors, etc. We also noticed new areas of hair loss on his legs. I took him back to the vet on a Saturday morning, they were so nice to squeeze me into a busy day, and they gave him steroids and an antibiotic shot and did some labwork to evaluate for anemia. Throughout all of this he looked well overall- not 100% but also not "sick." She said we would followup with the labwork and go from there, he may need a biopsy down the line and we would need to see an internal medicine specialist in the next week or two.
My fiance and I had planned to go to CA to visit my family for the week of Christmas and during my visit with the vet I asked if she thought it would be okay. She said she would call me with the results on Monday (we were leaving Monday) and we would see if anything else needed to be done. Our friend was going to be checking in on Riley while we were away (we've never left him like this before, the longest we ever left him was a day or two). When I landed in CA I saw a message from the vet, I spoke to her and she told me he was both anemia and leukopenic (low white blood cells) and she was glad we had given him steroids and antibiotics- since they were shots they each lasted 2-3 weeks. She asked me how he looked that morning and I told her he looked great! He was excited to see me in the morning as he always is when I wake up and come to find him (I always said hi to him first thing after I woke up) and his eyes always got big with excitement and hed jump up and run over to me, he ate dry food from his bowl, followed me around as I got ready (he followed us all over the place) and watched us get ready. He looked wonderful. I now feel like he didn't want us to know he wasn't feeling well and he wanted us to remember him for how he always was- happy and excited to be around us. She asked us to tell our friend to come and check on him everyday and she would be in touch. The following evening our friend went to check on him and found him already passed He looked like he passed in his sleep as he was found in front of our big living room windows in his usual spot in his usual sleeping position. Did not look like he struggled or was in distress immediately prior to death. I was so heartbroken to find out he had passed all alone, without us there! It's guilt I don't think I will ever overcome. I never thought he looked "sick," he wasn't 100% himself but always looked good.
The vet reviewed everything with us again and feels all the itching he was having in conjunction with his blood abnormalities may indicate he had cutaneous lymphoma. Rare in his age group and with a poor long term prognosis even with chemo. Now we don't know for sure that is what he had since we did not do a biopsy or necropsy, but that is their best guess. If not cutaneous lymphoma, they feel whatever he had going on was serious and aggressive since he passed so suddenly, even after getting steroids which often help with many different medical issues.
I am so so sad. He was truly the love of my life, always brightened my day, showered us with cuddles and love every single day, and even in his last few weeks when he wasn't feeling well, he showed nothing but strength and smiles. I can't believe I didn't pick up on serious sickness cues and even more sad that I wasn't there to hold him as he took his last breaths. I will always regret leaving him and had I felt he really looked unwell I would have never left. We were across country from him and when we tried to change our flights back it was way more than we could afford.
I'm so thankful he seems to have died in peace and didn't suffer in his last moments based on the position he was found in and the fact he was out in the living room and wasn't hiding. I was also wondering about cat behaviors near death. Riley was a very loving and clingy cat, followed us everywhere around the apt, sat in our laps as we watched TV or did work, always wanted to be around us. I'm not sure how he would have been if we had been home, but it doesn't look like he was trying to hide.
I can't stop crying every day, but I feel truly blessed to have had the opportunity to have him in my life, albeit for a short time. Now I know how ever pet owner feels, having a pet is like having a child, you love and care for them and want them to always be happy and well.
Sorry for such a long post. But thank you for sharing your stories and allowing me to share mine.
Then around Thanksgiving he began to have new symptoms- he vomited three times in 3 days (which he had never done before) and we attributed this to new dry food I had gotten. We switched him back to his previous dry food and the vomiting resolved. He then would randomly have days where he slept a little more than usual- but still playful and energetic when awake, ate well, etc. The week prior to his passing, I noticed he started licking random things- the tile floor, the coffee table, the refrigerator and dishwasher doors, etc. We also noticed new areas of hair loss on his legs. I took him back to the vet on a Saturday morning, they were so nice to squeeze me into a busy day, and they gave him steroids and an antibiotic shot and did some labwork to evaluate for anemia. Throughout all of this he looked well overall- not 100% but also not "sick." She said we would followup with the labwork and go from there, he may need a biopsy down the line and we would need to see an internal medicine specialist in the next week or two.
My fiance and I had planned to go to CA to visit my family for the week of Christmas and during my visit with the vet I asked if she thought it would be okay. She said she would call me with the results on Monday (we were leaving Monday) and we would see if anything else needed to be done. Our friend was going to be checking in on Riley while we were away (we've never left him like this before, the longest we ever left him was a day or two). When I landed in CA I saw a message from the vet, I spoke to her and she told me he was both anemia and leukopenic (low white blood cells) and she was glad we had given him steroids and antibiotics- since they were shots they each lasted 2-3 weeks. She asked me how he looked that morning and I told her he looked great! He was excited to see me in the morning as he always is when I wake up and come to find him (I always said hi to him first thing after I woke up) and his eyes always got big with excitement and hed jump up and run over to me, he ate dry food from his bowl, followed me around as I got ready (he followed us all over the place) and watched us get ready. He looked wonderful. I now feel like he didn't want us to know he wasn't feeling well and he wanted us to remember him for how he always was- happy and excited to be around us. She asked us to tell our friend to come and check on him everyday and she would be in touch. The following evening our friend went to check on him and found him already passed He looked like he passed in his sleep as he was found in front of our big living room windows in his usual spot in his usual sleeping position. Did not look like he struggled or was in distress immediately prior to death. I was so heartbroken to find out he had passed all alone, without us there! It's guilt I don't think I will ever overcome. I never thought he looked "sick," he wasn't 100% himself but always looked good.
The vet reviewed everything with us again and feels all the itching he was having in conjunction with his blood abnormalities may indicate he had cutaneous lymphoma. Rare in his age group and with a poor long term prognosis even with chemo. Now we don't know for sure that is what he had since we did not do a biopsy or necropsy, but that is their best guess. If not cutaneous lymphoma, they feel whatever he had going on was serious and aggressive since he passed so suddenly, even after getting steroids which often help with many different medical issues.
I am so so sad. He was truly the love of my life, always brightened my day, showered us with cuddles and love every single day, and even in his last few weeks when he wasn't feeling well, he showed nothing but strength and smiles. I can't believe I didn't pick up on serious sickness cues and even more sad that I wasn't there to hold him as he took his last breaths. I will always regret leaving him and had I felt he really looked unwell I would have never left. We were across country from him and when we tried to change our flights back it was way more than we could afford.
I'm so thankful he seems to have died in peace and didn't suffer in his last moments based on the position he was found in and the fact he was out in the living room and wasn't hiding. I was also wondering about cat behaviors near death. Riley was a very loving and clingy cat, followed us everywhere around the apt, sat in our laps as we watched TV or did work, always wanted to be around us. I'm not sure how he would have been if we had been home, but it doesn't look like he was trying to hide.
I can't stop crying every day, but I feel truly blessed to have had the opportunity to have him in my life, albeit for a short time. Now I know how ever pet owner feels, having a pet is like having a child, you love and care for them and want them to always be happy and well.
Sorry for such a long post. But thank you for sharing your stories and allowing me to share mine.