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I've been wanting to get a license for years, and cant seem to get over my reservations about driving. So it thought i would ask for advice in the one place i feel most safe online, in this forum. lol
I remember when i first started thinking about getting a license, i started having nightmares of being in a crash and losing control of the car, every time i would start driving the dreams came back. I did eventually get into a small accident, no one was hurt, but i lost control of the car while in a highway, which thankfully there werent many cars. i started driving again a couple of years ago for a few months, i went to take the test and failed, this led me to giving up on driving AGAIN.
I havent driven in over 2 years. I feel so pathetic, i need to get rides everywhere, and havent been able to finish school. And im embarrassed to admit that i havent been able to get a job.
i desperately need to get a job, so i can be independent, i am living at my brothers house, and im tired of depending on other people. i know most of you will think im awful, and its okay, i dont really have much respect for myself.
i dont know whats wrong with me, i can drive fine for awhile, but the fear and nerves never go away, i never truly like driving and i eventually find an excuse to stop. i dont know what to do, i know i need to do something now, but my heart starts racing thinking about starting again.
its not just with driving ive had opportunities to volunteer and a friend offered me a job, i got so terrified i said no. just the thinking about it makes my heart speed up.
i truly dont know what the heck is wrong with me. but i feel so lost. there are many days i wonder why i bother getting up at all.
i do get a little money by helping my brother and SIL with their daughter for the past few years, and i watch her when she gets home at 3pm. so, its not that im afraid to work. i helped my niece a lot, when i first started taking care of her she was 2 years old, she wasnt talking yet, or potty trained. she was quiet and throwing tantrums all the time. My SIL wanted to go back to work so i offered to help. My niece is now 5 and in school, shes talking and potty trained and the teacher says shes the most enthusiastic child in school.
but i want to get an actual job and to help my mom out, shes not getting any younger and needs help.
i feel so worthless and embbarassed just talking about all of this, but i dont know where else to turn.
I remember when i first started thinking about getting a license, i started having nightmares of being in a crash and losing control of the car, every time i would start driving the dreams came back. I did eventually get into a small accident, no one was hurt, but i lost control of the car while in a highway, which thankfully there werent many cars. i started driving again a couple of years ago for a few months, i went to take the test and failed, this led me to giving up on driving AGAIN.
I havent driven in over 2 years. I feel so pathetic, i need to get rides everywhere, and havent been able to finish school. And im embarrassed to admit that i havent been able to get a job.
i desperately need to get a job, so i can be independent, i am living at my brothers house, and im tired of depending on other people. i know most of you will think im awful, and its okay, i dont really have much respect for myself.
i dont know whats wrong with me, i can drive fine for awhile, but the fear and nerves never go away, i never truly like driving and i eventually find an excuse to stop. i dont know what to do, i know i need to do something now, but my heart starts racing thinking about starting again.
its not just with driving ive had opportunities to volunteer and a friend offered me a job, i got so terrified i said no. just the thinking about it makes my heart speed up.
i truly dont know what the heck is wrong with me. but i feel so lost. there are many days i wonder why i bother getting up at all.
i do get a little money by helping my brother and SIL with their daughter for the past few years, and i watch her when she gets home at 3pm. so, its not that im afraid to work. i helped my niece a lot, when i first started taking care of her she was 2 years old, she wasnt talking yet, or potty trained. she was quiet and throwing tantrums all the time. My SIL wanted to go back to work so i offered to help. My niece is now 5 and in school, shes talking and potty trained and the teacher says shes the most enthusiastic child in school.
but i want to get an actual job and to help my mom out, shes not getting any younger and needs help.
i feel so worthless and embbarassed just talking about all of this, but i dont know where else to turn.