I've just recently lost my cat of ten years a day after my birthday. She died last October 9th. She got killed by a stray dog who managed to sneak into our property. I'm so devastated by the loss because this cat grew up with me. We were inseparable. I can't stop crying. I'm even crying now as I write this. I wasn't prepared for it. It was too sudden and I just feel so confused. Sometimes I find myself wishing it's just a bad dream and that when I wake up, she's gonna be there beside me again like nothing's happened, purring away all my fears, licking away to reassure me that she's right there. But she's not. I feel so guilty.if only I was there when it happened. If only I was there to protect her...if only...seeing her in that state, all broken and dead just....ugh...
Someone please tell me this gets better in time. Cause I can't handle this. My family is no help because they think I'm silly for crying for her. I have no one to talk to about it and sometimes I even think of ending it once and for all. I've just recently adopted an abused kitty but I don't want to make it as a mere replacement to my first cat. I want to really love her as she is and not as a cover up for the pain. I hope someday I can genuinely do that.
Someone please tell me this gets better in time. Cause I can't handle this. My family is no help because they think I'm silly for crying for her. I have no one to talk to about it and sometimes I even think of ending it once and for all. I've just recently adopted an abused kitty but I don't want to make it as a mere replacement to my first cat. I want to really love her as she is and not as a cover up for the pain. I hope someday I can genuinely do that.