Has my 6 months old kitten grown tired of me.

Hello

I need some advice I got my beautiful kitten at 15 weeks old, She is an indoor cat, she was just like a ball of fluff but very playful. She would cuddled up  to me as soon as I was back from work, when I went to bed she follow me to bed and curl up with me and sometimes I would find her sleeping somewhere else in the room in the morning but always found her in my bedroom in the morning somewhere. My little kitten would follow me around the flat and it a medium size flat and sometimes would get under my feet as she always like to walk in front of me. I knew when it was breakfast time as she would wake me up at 6.30am and then I would play for 30 mins sometimes more until she got tired, then I fed her, gave her fresh water and when I come home she would greet me at the door and be very talkative and run into my living room for a play session which would last for an hour. there have been quite a few times when I been out of the flat for a long period of time but I always return that day so she knew I be back, then play with her and maybe not as actively as other times. Yes I know that not good but I was trying, She has always had the run of the flat and my bedroom door has always been open so she can come as she goes.  Since getting her in July I haven't been away for a weekend or that long from her. There have only been two occasion where I have been away from her and both times was 3 day and on both occasion she was at someone house so she had company for the time I was away. I know I sound neurotic but she is my little kitten who I love to pieces. When she was 5 and half months old as one of the times away from me she stayed with someone so I could go on a 3 day break. She didn't like being put in the cat carrier and properly thought I was sending her away which I wasn't going to do and that broke my heart. when I went to collect her she ran towards me and was purring it was almost like she was saying " you come back for me" I was so happy to see her, during her stay she had quite a few visitors to see her at different times of the day so she didn't get lonely. Since collecting her she seems not as cuddly as she used to be, won't sleep on the bed with me anymore, I might of moved during the night and frighted her. There are times when she gives me cat kisses by putting her nose to my face and slow blinks at me which I know mean I love you. People who see her say she seems a contented cat or well adjusted. Sometimes she will stretch up to me to say "pick me up so I can go on your shoulders"

and every now and again she will come down my front and I know to put my arm across my body and she will lie on my whilst I am standing up. every now and again she might curl up on me or walk across my keyboard if I am using it. I still am for long period of times during the day but I always come back that day. I haven't trained when she was little which I know was a mistake, trying to do it now is hard work. there are times when she seems a bit nervous of me and not sure why? I recently got her neturted as she is just over 6 months as i know you are going to say why if she is indoors but I didn't want her going into heat as it seem unfair. 

She still wakes me up at 6.30am for playtime and breakfast each morning.

she is a lovely cat and has never sprayed anyway in my flat. she used the litter box when she need to and there are no accidents outside of this.

She sometimes jumps up on my back from the floor with claws out to be on my shoulders.

she loves being high up like on top of doors or my kitchen cupboards etc.

I do still play with her but she didn't seem as interested as she was when she was younger. she regularly curls up on a cat tower, eyes shut, paw tucked under chin.

When I do stroke her at time she purrs. When ever I come in she is always trying to escape out of my front door and i scared one day she will get out by mistake and I never find her again.

do you have any suggestions on how I can rebond with my kitten or show her more signs of affection?

I do miss her not curling up in bed with me or even on top or me and curling when I am on the sofa but I know she is a teenager and I have left on her own  sometimes too long a day by herself. 

I worry i am a bad owner, she will run away from me and I will never find her again. Is there anyway of changing this as I miss the cuddles. 

 Sorry for the long winded explanation.

Hi! First I am so glad you got her fixed... this was the responsible thing to do and has medical benefits for her whether she is indoor or outdoor 

It is obvious you really really love your kitten, and you sound like a very good owner.  I know you are looking for advice of some kind, but the truth is that it sounds like you have a normal and well adjusted cat, who is acting completely normally and has a lot of affection for you! I understand you are sad she is not quite as cuddly as she used to be, but it sounds like she is showing you love in other ways.  Her change in behavior might be temporary (sometimes cats go through phases or she might still be a little skittish after you 'left' her a few weeks ago, in which case be patient, she'll get over it), or might be more permanent due to adolescence and a slight personality change.  Either way I would not worry- it truly doesn't sound like anything is wrong and it sounds like she loves you a lot!