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Last night I had to say goodbye to 1 of my babies.
He was 1 of my children I can't believe it as I type this. My brain or heart doesn't want to register that it's actually true and that we will never see him again. Pika has been a huge part of our family for 15 years. I sincerely cannot believe it. Feels like my heart has been ripped out.
We had to take him to the vet about 3 weeks ago for an injury he sustained on 1 of his back legs and again on Monday night for an injury which looked like a car had hit his face (thats the only thing that could be derived from the injury although it didn't look VERY bad)
Pika has been displaying weird behavior like lying in the middle of the road (our road gets quite busy) and also refusing to move when we want to pull into our garage. He had started walking very weird (vet said X-ray showed that his spine was riddled with arthritis)
BUT
He never complained, he still walked our stairs, he still jumped up on the couches, our beds..
So I am asking myself after reading other people's stories about their cats been unable to do these things.. DID WE DO THE RIGHT THING??????? I feel that I shouldn't have agreed.
The vet told me that he is suffering and that she needs to be firm with me and tell me that that is what we should do.. My children made the call as I was too weak to do it. They kept saying that it's cruel and that he has been suffering for some time now.
But I can't stop thinking that maybe he could've gotten better..he NEVER complained ONCE! He wanted to be around me all the time for the past few months. and that it can never be undone. That life will never be the same again. That we will never see him again.
I am eaten up with guilt. Also, I only went to see him on the Tuesday night and then again last night. When he heard my voice on Tuesday he started purring loudly. He knew I was there. I didn't go on Wednesday. What if my not going caused him to give up?
There is a part of me the is grateful that myself and my son were with him when he went to sleep.away. because since his habit of lying in the road, we were so worried that we would find him knocked over. and be left with that picture of him. We used to make jokes and say "Pika is trying to commit suicide" because of refusing to move out of the way.
He was 1 of my children I can't believe it as I type this. My brain or heart doesn't want to register that it's actually true and that we will never see him again. Pika has been a huge part of our family for 15 years. I sincerely cannot believe it. Feels like my heart has been ripped out.
We had to take him to the vet about 3 weeks ago for an injury he sustained on 1 of his back legs and again on Monday night for an injury which looked like a car had hit his face (thats the only thing that could be derived from the injury although it didn't look VERY bad)
Pika has been displaying weird behavior like lying in the middle of the road (our road gets quite busy) and also refusing to move when we want to pull into our garage. He had started walking very weird (vet said X-ray showed that his spine was riddled with arthritis)
BUT
He never complained, he still walked our stairs, he still jumped up on the couches, our beds..
So I am asking myself after reading other people's stories about their cats been unable to do these things.. DID WE DO THE RIGHT THING??????? I feel that I shouldn't have agreed.
The vet told me that he is suffering and that she needs to be firm with me and tell me that that is what we should do.. My children made the call as I was too weak to do it. They kept saying that it's cruel and that he has been suffering for some time now.
But I can't stop thinking that maybe he could've gotten better..he NEVER complained ONCE! He wanted to be around me all the time for the past few months. and that it can never be undone. That life will never be the same again. That we will never see him again.
I am eaten up with guilt. Also, I only went to see him on the Tuesday night and then again last night. When he heard my voice on Tuesday he started purring loudly. He knew I was there. I didn't go on Wednesday. What if my not going caused him to give up?
There is a part of me the is grateful that myself and my son were with him when he went to sleep.away. because since his habit of lying in the road, we were so worried that we would find him knocked over. and be left with that picture of him. We used to make jokes and say "Pika is trying to commit suicide" because of refusing to move out of the way.