Need good thoughts (long vent)

momofmany

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I'd like to ask for everyone's good thoughts for Bogart please!

Bogart, my 13 year old, has been health compromised since he caught a URI at 8 weeks old (he nearly died) which caused permanent respiratory problems within his sinuses. He has lived most of his life in what I'd compare to an allergic state with consistent sneezing and running nose. He has been on various medicines at least 3-4 times a year for his entire life. My vet at the time told me that I shouldn't expect him to live beyond 10 years because of the opportunistic infections that were going to come his way.

About 1-1/2 years ago, he was diagnosed with CRF. We've had him on and off sub-q fluids, even going as far as inserting a catheter in him to ease his trauma of the needle stick (he hated the catheter more than the needle stick so that was removed after 3 weeks). Thru this he has lost weight (from 11 pounds to 8 pounds). He's been off the sub-q's for the last couple of months - we stopped them because he was so incredibly stressed about the process and his blood/urine tests showed him to be stable. He has told us in his own way that he doesn't want these anymore.

He's been battling a recurrent round of sinus problems the last few months and has been at the vet a couple of times (he returns tomorrow). He can't smell very good, so he is eating less and starting to drop more weight. None of the medicine seems to be working on him anymore. We steam him when we are in the shower, have vaporizers going to keep his sinuses moist, give him special meals throughout the day to keep him eating and air purifiers to keep any allergens out of the air. We give him priority at feeding times to let him know he is still top cat in the house.

Behavioral wise he is still the loving boy that he has always been, although he keeps to himself (the box in the cat condo) more and more each day. I see signs of early depression in him and love him all the more to keep his spirits up.

Anyway, I feel in my heart that we are within a few months of making a decision for him. I need the strength to do the right thing for him - we're so attached to him that this decision is going to be very hard on Steve and I.

Please pass along good thoughts for my Bogart! And if you have any to spare, to Steve and I with the decision that we are going to have to make in the near future.

 

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I'm so sorry. I hope with all my heart that Bogart's health improves and that decision can be put off as long as possible, What I do know is that you'll make the right decision(sp?) whatever it may be when the time comes.
 

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Amy,

I'm so sorry. You know I understand what it's like to both have a crf kitty, and one where a decision is coming in the near future. I will say a prayer for the 3 of you, and wish/hope that Bogart bounces back from this again.
 

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Oh no! I am so sorry. You guys are in my thoughts and I know that you will make the right decision for Bogart. He is in my thoughts and will send positive thoughts for him.
 

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I am so sorry to hear this.I don't know what to say except that you are in my thoughts and prayers,and know we are all here for you.

{{{{{{{{{{{Amy,Steve,Bogart}}}}}}}}}}}
 

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Amy, I am so sorry! Good thoughts and wishes to Bogart! And here's hugs for you and Steve to give you more strength and support!
 

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I'm so sorry about Bogart. You are lucky you had so many wonderful years with him. You will know when the time is right (((())))
 

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I am so very sorry that Bogart is not doing well and my heart is going out to you ((((((HUGS))))))

I will pray for you and for your baby :angel2:
 

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Hopefully Bogart may take a turn for the better (even if it is temporary) or at least plateau for a while.In the meantime, if you can find the book on pet loss called something like
"Surviving the Heartbreak of Choosing Euthanasia" (my copy is loaned out so I am not sure if that is exactly right) try reading that. I found it to be very valuable in helping me to arrive at the correct decision & at the correct time. There are a number of other books on pet loss that may be helpful as well.
Thinking good thoughts for all of you!
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Just back from the vets with Bogart. He has lost about 1/2 pound in the last month and right now we're going for appetite stimulant along with antibiotics for his sinuses (a new type that is more broad spectrum than the last 2 types he had in the last 3 months). He got megadoses of vitamins which sometimes stimulates appetite, and I started him on GSE a few weeks back.

He's such a picky eater! He doesn't like wet (only the gravy), doesn't like most drys, doesn't like people food, and when he eats, its a few kibbles and he is done. I'm no longer concerned about a CRF diet, as getting him to eat anything is better than not eating at all. I give him his favorites all day long and he just doesn't want to eat it.

But my vet agreed that we are probably looking at a few months. He's fought the hard fight all his life and he just doesn't have that much left in him to fight with. *sigh*

Thanks everyone for your positive thoughts. If nothing else it helps me to fight all that harder and love him all the more!!

Bogart sends scritches to all the TCS cats!
 

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Amy, I'm so sorry to hear about Bogart. Cherish every day you have with him, which I know you are already doing. I'm sure he is cherishing you and Steve as well.

Sending lots of positive energy to all three of you.
 

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I am so sorry he's having trouble.
((((Hugs)))) to you
and prayers for Bogart
 

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Oh Amy I am so sorry to hear about Bogart
I know that you have loved him all of his life and it will be hard, but you will make the right choice for him when or if the time comes. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. Keep us updated on his progress.
 
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We're on round 4 of medicines to fight Bogart's now perpetual URI. As predicted many years ago, he has gotten to the point that medications will no longer help him.

My poor boy can no longer smell at all, doesn't eat much at all, and is losing weight very quickly right now. There is no cat food stinky enough to prompt his appetite, and even his favorite foods and treats are being ignored. Physically he is running down and he is withdrawing more each day.

Last night I had the overpowering sense of "the beginning of the end". I can't explain it other than I love this boy so much that I can sense his pain.

So, I sit here crying over the decision that hangs over my head, and wonder if he will make his "golden" 13th birthday this Saturday (the 13th). He has not told me that it is his time to go, but frankly, the way he loves me, I'm not sure that he can tell me that.

I HATE THIS!!!!!
 

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I'm so sorry.. this must be so so hard for you. Please know that you and Bogart will be in my thoughts and prayers.
 

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Amy,

I'm so sorry to hear about Bogart. All 3 of you are in my thoughts and prayers. And say a big Happy Birthday to Bogart for me.

You will know when it's his time because you love him so much.

Jill and Candy
 

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((((HUGS))))

I'm so sorry Amy. Saturday is only a few days away, I truly hope very much that you two can share that very special day together. Love him all you can, he is doing the same right now.
 
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