A year ago today i let Dr.Starr euthanize Sweetie. She was a feral cat i fed for 9 months and trapped with the wonderful thought that she would be part of my family. The doctor had to tell me she had leukemia. All the details are vague now because the news was like getting punched. Doctor mapped out a way I could keep her alive by isolating her in a room of my home. My 3 other cats would never stay away from her, in a large cage they would still get in the room. We don't have enough space. I think part of me died that day. A year later I am still grief stricken. i never held her. i never gave her a safe peaceful night in my home. I didn't do enough. i miss Sweetie so terribly. I miss Sweetie. I have her ashes. She is my cat and all I have is her ashes.
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For Sweetie
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I'm so sorry about Sweetie. Even though it was a year ago, it must still hurt very much. Try not to feel guilty - without you Sweetie would never have known regular meals or love, and you saved her from suffering. I know it's sad to think about what could have been - I do this, too - but you really did do right by this little girl. [emoji]127752[/emoji]
I'm so sorry you have to feel so much grief, I know that at times it seems unending and relentless. You gave her 9 months of care and love, I'm sure she loved you so very much for caring for her when no one else would. She left a mark in this world, and she will never be forgotten thanks to you and your precious memories. I know these anniversaries bring up all the old pain and hurt, and although we would do anything to change what has happened, it is not meant to be. Just remember she would never want you to be so sad when you remember her, but to live the rest of your life in happiness and joy, we would want the same for those we left behind if something happened to us . She is at peace now, safe and secure knowing she will be forever held in a loving heart. I'll pray for you both, give your little family a kiss from me. Take care and know you are not alone in your grief.
Bless you. I am so sorry about Sweetie.
I'm so sorry for your sweetie. You did the very best you could. She had a home with lots of love. My heart goes out to you. She's playing with all our cats who have passed on, and she thinks about you everyday 
I'm sorry about your loss. They are never with us long enough no matter what and they always take a piece of our heart with them. Sweetie was loved and mourned and I'm sure she knew it. 
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Dear Di and Bob,
Thank you for writing me on a day that was awfully sad here. September means different things to different people ; for me it's always going to be the time i said goodbye to my Sweetie. That little cat lived through a rough New York winter outside. Once the weather began to change after summer i wanted to get her inside my home. She didn't seem sick. But she was, and you know the rest. You wrote to me back then and your notes on this site helped me so much. It helps to read that just remembering her is something. When all I can think about is what I didn't get to do, like keep her inside, hold and pet her, feed her great food, let her play with my other cats, it helps to read that I did do something. I guess so. I know i love her and miss her.
I'm very grateful to you. I hope you know what comfort you give by noticing who is scared and sad about a cat, and writing comforting words. I needed someone who understands very much few days ago, and that is you. thank you.
Thank you for writing me on a day that was awfully sad here. September means different things to different people ; for me it's always going to be the time i said goodbye to my Sweetie. That little cat lived through a rough New York winter outside. Once the weather began to change after summer i wanted to get her inside my home. She didn't seem sick. But she was, and you know the rest. You wrote to me back then and your notes on this site helped me so much. It helps to read that just remembering her is something. When all I can think about is what I didn't get to do, like keep her inside, hold and pet her, feed her great food, let her play with my other cats, it helps to read that I did do something. I guess so. I know i love her and miss her.
I'm very grateful to you. I hope you know what comfort you give by noticing who is scared and sad about a cat, and writing comforting words. I needed someone who understands very much few days ago, and that is you. thank you.
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To all of you who wrote me about Sweetie.
Thank you for writing me about my cat Sweetie. Maybe it's hard for some people to understand how much I loved her since she was never really mine. But you know how bad i feel. It helps to know there are others who love cats the way I do. Thank you for reaching out to me.
Thank you for writing me about my cat Sweetie. Maybe it's hard for some people to understand how much I loved her since she was never really mine. But you know how bad i feel. It helps to know there are others who love cats the way I do. Thank you for reaching out to me.
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I am so sorry for your loss.
Sweetie sounds like she was a very special kitty.
You loved her and she knew that. She loved you in return.
I am truly sorry you didn't have a happier outcome with Sweetie.
Just know that you did all you could to help her, and because of you that little stray kitty knew how it felt to be lived.
Just remember that and try to smile when thinking of her!
Sweetie sounds like she was a very special kitty.
You loved her and she knew that. She loved you in return.
I am truly sorry you didn't have a happier outcome with Sweetie.
Just know that you did all you could to help her, and because of you that little stray kitty knew how it felt to be lived.
Just remember that and try to smile when thinking of her!
You made Sweetie's last months on earth so much easier - she must have enjoyed being looked after and loved. 
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It is a great comfort to read notes from so many people. When one of us loses a loved cat and all we can think of is sadness it really helps to know there are other people who love their cats as much. It helps to be reminded I tried to help Sweetie and probably did make her life a little easier. I'm still so sad that i couldn't help her more. I feel bad when I see pictures of other cats warm and secure in their homes and think i could never do that for Sweetie. Thank you all for understanding. I'm so grateful you wrote me. It helps me get through the especially bad moments.
