It's not a cat, but I'm hoping for sort of a sounding board here.
My partner and I have a roughly 13 year old "Cockapoo". I adopted him about 5 years ago and it was a mistake. He is an extremely loving and sweet dog, but we never really clicked, and now I am faced with end of life care for him.
Here's why it was a mistake. I had just been diagnosed with epilepsy and I was freaking out about the sudden loss of freedom. Through the now-retired Petfinder Classifieds, I found what was advertised as a miniature poodle needing a new home downstate, near Indianapolis. The dog was said to be able to predict the family's son's seizures. I thought, here is my ticket to freedom, I can train a seizure alert service dog.
I made arrangements to adopt the dog. To make a long story short, he was not a miniature poodle, but a cockapoo (I don't care that much) and he was not a rescue, as was said, so much as the owner no longer wanted to use him as breeding stock, UGH. He had at least been neutered and vaccinated so that much was done. Within the year he developed cataracts and he is pretty much blind except for the ability to see some light and possibly shadows. I can deal with a blind dog, okay. Also, within the year HE began having SEIZURES. So my seizure alert dog was a no-go because he needed his own darn seizure alert dog. Still, I can deal with a blind, epileptic dog that I never really bonded with.
A few months ago he began leaking blood from his prepuce. A few hundred dollars later, we have a probable diagnosis of prostate cancer, which is inoperable in dogs. However, the blood leaking cleared up with some expensive antibiotics, and we never revisited the subject as to whether it had been a nasty infection or actual prostate cancer. Yesterday he was leaking blood again. It doesn't bother him and he doesn't seem in pain, nor does he have potty accidents. But he drips blood ALL OVER THE PLACE when he's dripping.
I am at a loss as to what to do. Money is tight and I am still paying off vet bills from his last visits and Mimsy's bout with gastroenteritis. I feel like I've failed this dog by not caring more, but I'm leaning towards just having him euthanized. I don't think it's right to dump a senior dog with a laundry list of problems on someone else or, heaven forbid, contact a rescue group. He is not unhappy but if he does have prostate cancer, it's pretty much terminal anyway. If he doesn't, and he just has recurring infections that require really expensive antibiotics (90 USD for a 10 day course for a 25# dog)...is it worth my money to do that again, given that he is also due for a liver enzyme check and a phenobarb level check?
I have cared for this dog to the best of my ability. He has not been starved, neglected, or abused. He is groomed regularly, walked regularly, sees the vet at least twice annually, eats high quality grain-free food... But I don't feel a connection to him that makes me feel like spending probably $500 more on his vet bills with the possibility of still having to euthanize him, is the 'right' option.
Maybe I'm just a terrible person for considering euthanizing him now. I mean, he does not appear to be in pain and his quality of life is decent, except when he's dripping blood all over the house. (He quickly removes belly bands, which were my only option for leakage control).
What would you do in this situation? What do you think I should do?
My partner and I have a roughly 13 year old "Cockapoo". I adopted him about 5 years ago and it was a mistake. He is an extremely loving and sweet dog, but we never really clicked, and now I am faced with end of life care for him.
Here's why it was a mistake. I had just been diagnosed with epilepsy and I was freaking out about the sudden loss of freedom. Through the now-retired Petfinder Classifieds, I found what was advertised as a miniature poodle needing a new home downstate, near Indianapolis. The dog was said to be able to predict the family's son's seizures. I thought, here is my ticket to freedom, I can train a seizure alert service dog.
I made arrangements to adopt the dog. To make a long story short, he was not a miniature poodle, but a cockapoo (I don't care that much) and he was not a rescue, as was said, so much as the owner no longer wanted to use him as breeding stock, UGH. He had at least been neutered and vaccinated so that much was done. Within the year he developed cataracts and he is pretty much blind except for the ability to see some light and possibly shadows. I can deal with a blind dog, okay. Also, within the year HE began having SEIZURES. So my seizure alert dog was a no-go because he needed his own darn seizure alert dog. Still, I can deal with a blind, epileptic dog that I never really bonded with.
A few months ago he began leaking blood from his prepuce. A few hundred dollars later, we have a probable diagnosis of prostate cancer, which is inoperable in dogs. However, the blood leaking cleared up with some expensive antibiotics, and we never revisited the subject as to whether it had been a nasty infection or actual prostate cancer. Yesterday he was leaking blood again. It doesn't bother him and he doesn't seem in pain, nor does he have potty accidents. But he drips blood ALL OVER THE PLACE when he's dripping.
I am at a loss as to what to do. Money is tight and I am still paying off vet bills from his last visits and Mimsy's bout with gastroenteritis. I feel like I've failed this dog by not caring more, but I'm leaning towards just having him euthanized. I don't think it's right to dump a senior dog with a laundry list of problems on someone else or, heaven forbid, contact a rescue group. He is not unhappy but if he does have prostate cancer, it's pretty much terminal anyway. If he doesn't, and he just has recurring infections that require really expensive antibiotics (90 USD for a 10 day course for a 25# dog)...is it worth my money to do that again, given that he is also due for a liver enzyme check and a phenobarb level check?
I have cared for this dog to the best of my ability. He has not been starved, neglected, or abused. He is groomed regularly, walked regularly, sees the vet at least twice annually, eats high quality grain-free food... But I don't feel a connection to him that makes me feel like spending probably $500 more on his vet bills with the possibility of still having to euthanize him, is the 'right' option.
Maybe I'm just a terrible person for considering euthanizing him now. I mean, he does not appear to be in pain and his quality of life is decent, except when he's dripping blood all over the house. (He quickly removes belly bands, which were my only option for leakage control).
What would you do in this situation? What do you think I should do?