If anyone thinks this should be moved to the health forum, please don't...I have put it where I want it. Thank you.
I have tears in my eyes as I write this...I have been bawling so hard.
At first I thought maybe I shouldn't even post it, because everyone has their own problems, and their own sorrows to deal with, and mine is probably no big deal, though it is to me, and I am not looking for sympathy or 100 posts about how sorry you all are....I know some of you think that gets old, when the same message of sympathy has to be repeated in different words, and they were after all, just babies....... (my heart is breaking, so forgive me if I sound angry, I'm not....just hurt)
Please forgive me if this post sounds bitter...I don't mean it that way....I am just grieving, and it doesn't come out the way I mean it to.
You are all such a wonderful group of people, so please forgive me if I was b*tchy .
I have been bottle feeding two adorable little kittens that I found in the yard, just newly born, and abandoned, two weeks ago.
I have done such a good job of feeding them, I warm the milk up, I feed them several times a day...and I had no worries that they would make it....there little bellies were so full, and I always stimulated them to poop and pee like I was told to, and I kept them warm...........
This morning, when I got them out to feed them, I noticed they had poop all over them, so I gave them both a quick bath in warm water....and then wrapped them in a towel, but when I trieed to feed them, they would not eat. I thought maybe they weren't hungry, so I tried again before I left for work...and still they would not eat.
When I got home from work, I checked on them right away....
They were alive...but very cold..........
I tried to feed them, and they still would not eat!!!!!!!!! I put them on the heating pad to warm up....I kept an eye on them for an hour or so, they were in the same room here, as my computer, so every 5 minutes, I would go check.
The grey one started having problems breathing....I knew he wouldn't make it on his own....I actually gave him mouth to mouth and blew little puffs of air into his lungs.....that kept him breathing for awhile.....but then he just stopped.
And then the other one stopped breathing not long after that!!
What did I DO????????
I thought they were so healthy......they WERE so healthy......what the heck happened?????? And I know this would be better in the health forum, but I want it here!
I feel like such a failure!!!!!! They depended on me, and I was trying so hard!!! I heatyed up the kitten replacement milk every few hours, and fed them, and they drank and drank, their little tummies were so fat!!! Is it because I gave them a bath???????????
Oh God....I am SO sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have tears in my eyes as I write this...I have been bawling so hard.
At first I thought maybe I shouldn't even post it, because everyone has their own problems, and their own sorrows to deal with, and mine is probably no big deal, though it is to me, and I am not looking for sympathy or 100 posts about how sorry you all are....I know some of you think that gets old, when the same message of sympathy has to be repeated in different words, and they were after all, just babies....... (my heart is breaking, so forgive me if I sound angry, I'm not....just hurt)
Please forgive me if this post sounds bitter...I don't mean it that way....I am just grieving, and it doesn't come out the way I mean it to.
You are all such a wonderful group of people, so please forgive me if I was b*tchy .
I have been bottle feeding two adorable little kittens that I found in the yard, just newly born, and abandoned, two weeks ago.
I have done such a good job of feeding them, I warm the milk up, I feed them several times a day...and I had no worries that they would make it....there little bellies were so full, and I always stimulated them to poop and pee like I was told to, and I kept them warm...........
This morning, when I got them out to feed them, I noticed they had poop all over them, so I gave them both a quick bath in warm water....and then wrapped them in a towel, but when I trieed to feed them, they would not eat. I thought maybe they weren't hungry, so I tried again before I left for work...and still they would not eat.
When I got home from work, I checked on them right away....
They were alive...but very cold..........
I tried to feed them, and they still would not eat!!!!!!!!! I put them on the heating pad to warm up....I kept an eye on them for an hour or so, they were in the same room here, as my computer, so every 5 minutes, I would go check.
The grey one started having problems breathing....I knew he wouldn't make it on his own....I actually gave him mouth to mouth and blew little puffs of air into his lungs.....that kept him breathing for awhile.....but then he just stopped.
And then the other one stopped breathing not long after that!!
What did I DO????????
I thought they were so healthy......they WERE so healthy......what the heck happened?????? And I know this would be better in the health forum, but I want it here!
I feel like such a failure!!!!!! They depended on me, and I was trying so hard!!! I heatyed up the kitten replacement milk every few hours, and fed them, and they drank and drank, their little tummies were so fat!!! Is it because I gave them a bath???????????
Oh God....I am SO sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!