Still Missing Mickey One Year Later

Today it is my precious Mickey's birthday. He would be 14 years old today. On July 8th of 2014, my Mickey passed away at home. I will never forget that terrible Tuesday night.I just held him in my arms as he slowly took his last breath. My baby was leaving me and there was nothing I could do, but hold him close. He took a huge piece of my heart with him that night. Time does not seem to help. I miss him more every single day that passes. I will never forget my precious Mickey. He was so very special to me. I hope he only knew how much he was loved and how much he is now missed. I will always love and miss you Mickey! You were my baby and you will always be in my heart! Happy Birthday my Mickey! I hope you are now pain free and playing with all the other kitties from the cat site who have also passed. Just know that you are still very much missed and very very loved.RIP My Beautiful Mickey!!!

I remember you and Mickey well from the past, and the pain and grief you went through and are still trying to cope with. I hope time has softened the agony a little, but I know the pain can return at a moments notice like a tsunami, especially on anniversaries that we can never forget. Please know you are not alone and it does help to share your pain with others like us that completely understand what you are going through, it is something that has joined us together, we are all a family in our mutual grief. Keep busy, I know you will be blessed for loving Mickey so much to hurt so bad. RIP sweet Mickey, you are greatly loved and will never be far from your family's thoughts!

Di and Bob,
Thank You so very much for your kind words of comfort. It does help to know that I am not alone. The people on this site have been so kind. I often read your comments to others and you are always so thoughtful and kind to everyone. I try my best to comfort others also as I know the pain we all feel when we lose our babies. The grief can be so unbearable and it does help to know that there are people who will listen and do care. Those wonderful people are right here on the cat site. Like you said, it is like we are all one family. We may not know each other personally, but we do all care. We get to know one another from our posts and we remember each other. To me, that all means alot!! Take Care and thanks again for your words of comfort. They meant so much to me.

Today is the one year anniversary of my Mickey's passing. He left me one year ago tonight. I still miss him so very much.I will never forget that terrible night. I think it will remain with me always. I find myself crying over his loss alot lately. I can hardly believe a year has gone by without him here. I still see him around the house, sitting in all his favorite places. The house is not the same without him. I love and miss you Mickey. I would give anything to have you still here with me. A huge piece of my heart is with you. Always know that I will never forget you. You will remain a part of me and my life forever. You were the perfect kitty and my very best friend!!

I'm so sorry--those kinds of anniversaries are so tough.

Betsygee,
Thank-You. Yes, there are "those days" that just bring on all the pain once again.I don't think one ever gets over losing their "special " kitty. We just learn to live with the loss as best we can. We just have no other choice.

Oh, my Mickey. I find myself missing you more and more as time goes by. It is now almost 15 months since you left me. Please know that I think about you daily. I love and miss you so very much. I will never forget you. You were my perfect little kitty.
Run and play my sweet Mickey!
I Will Miss You Always! !

I'm so sorry for your loss.  The unbroken connection you have with Mickey is touching.  I wish all animals had someone like you in their life.

Remembering your sweet Mickey is the perfect way to honor him, sometimes it is the only thing we have. I wish I had a magic solution to heal a broken heart, but noone can change the past and time is the only thing that softens the pain.  I know it is so hard to go on without them, I had tears streaming yesterday when I looked out onto the street and the horror of that day came back. The only thing that helps at times is to remember how happy we were, how we spoiled and loved those little fluffballs, they had a wonderful full life and were loved so much. I feed the strays in my neighborhood and wish they could feel a tenth of the love and care we gave those who we have lost. I'm so glad for this site and the comfort it gives, even if it is just sharing our sorrow with those who understand. I wish we didn't  HAVE to have a site like this at all, it would mean there is no heartbreak in the world. But the moment we begin life we are destined to have it end. And it always means leaving someone behind to mourn, if we're lucky. Your Mickey was a lucky cat indeed to have you in his life, and to have you to hold him in a loving heart as long as you shall live. You were truly bonded, and this is something that even death cannot take away.  I'm so sorry, I feel your pain, take care..........

Nurseangel, thank you so much for your comforting words. It means the world to me to know that people care.

Di and Bob, Your sweet words are a great comfort to me. It is nice to belong to a site like this where people care. Yes, our babies are so special to us and it breaks our hearts when we lose them. I would do anything to have my Mickey back, but I know that can never happen.I will always miss my Mickey, but this site is a comfort to me and so many others. Yes, I too feel so bad for the homeless and abandoned cats. I wish they all had a warm and safe home. I hope my two new kitties realize how lucky they are. Not all cats have what our cats have.
Thanks again for your warm words!

It's very tough losing a cat, they are our babies and we love them so much and missing them everyday. I do understand your feelings because my two babies crossed the bridge last year and  anniversary is coming as well.

Mickey knows how much you love him and I am sure he appreciates all the love and good life you given him...

Hi Macha 143
Thank You so much for your kind words. Yes, it is so hard when our precious kitties must leave us. It is truly heartbreaking and I don't think we ever fully get over their loss.
I am so sorry for your loss as well. Losing two kitties in one year, how devastating. My heart truly pains for your loss.
Let's hope our kitties have met and are playing together.
Thanks again for your kind words.
Take Care!!

I lost my Dear Mother , then two cats in a period of 6 months.I feel your pain. There is an author named Niki Behrikis Shanahan if you are interested who has several books out. "The Rainbow Bridge" There is Eternal Life For Animals " and a few others to read. It confirmed everything I already knew. Hope this helps U thru the loss. God Bless U !!!!!!!!!!!!!

My precious Mickey, Christmas is here again and I must spend this special holiday without you. Time has not eased the pain over losing you. In fact, the pain feels worse at times. You were such a special kitty who was always there for me. You were so sweet, with your baby low meow. I loved hearing you sleep. You actually snored, but oh so cute! No kitty will ever replace you. I do hope you know that!!
I hope you are with my mom, who I also miss with all my heart. She loved you so and she absolutely loved Christmas. Oh, I am a mess now, crying so much.
Just know that I love and miss you both so much.
I will never forget you Mickey!
Merry Christmas my baby.
The holiday won't be the same without you.
You have a special place in my heart and you will remain there forever!!

Hi and I know how U feel. Miss my Mom who crossed 6 months ago, and my big baby boy named Zakk who passed away suddenly. Two weeks later my beloved Cozzi crossed ,then on November 3rd my dear friend who was like my sister dropped dead just getting out of her car.Even though God has helped me be at peace with all of them, I cry almost daily and will for a very long time. The best way is to be at peace with yourself and know that they are safe in God's presence, since they were created by him and only him can U be saved. I cry because I miss them and remind myself that I am going to be reunited with them one day, that always keeps me going.  Nikki Behnrikis Shanahan can help with what U R feeling . She has helped me .

The holidays sadly remind us of our absent friends. I am sorry you lost that beautiful boy; you two had a very special bond and that will never be broken. It is never goodbye, it is till we meet again. 

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Remembering your sweet Mickey is the perfect way to honor him, sometimes it is the only thing we have. I wish I had a magic solution to heal a broken heart, but noone can change the past and time is the only thing that softens the pain.  I know it is so hard to go on without them, I had tears streaming yesterday when I looked out onto the street and the horror of that day came back. The only thing that helps at times is to remember how happy we were, how we spoiled and loved those little fluffballs, they had a wonderful full life and were loved so much. I feed the strays in my neighborhood and wish they could feel a tenth of the love and care we gave those who we have lost. I'm so glad for this site and the comfort it gives, even if it is just sharing our sorrow with those who understand. I wish we didn't  HAVE to have a site like this at all, it would mean there is no heartbreak in the world. But the moment we begin life we are destined to have it end. And it always means leaving someone behind to mourn, if we're lucky. Your Mickey was a lucky cat indeed to have you in his life, and to have you to hold him in a loving heart as long as you shall live. You were truly bonded, and this is something that even death cannot take away.  I'm so sorry, I feel your pain, take care..........

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This is such a beautiful and true post.....I hope it helps the original poster, I know how he feels. 

Yesterday was 1 month ago that we lost Sebastian, and while it was so very traumatic at first especially being around Thanksgiving and my birthday, after a bit I started to feel "better", not well but not as bad because things got busy, time was moving on and I felt a bit better but not much. A few days ago it occurred to me that I certainly was NOT nearly over it-you NEVER truly get over it-and it hit me again, like a second wave coming over me. I know it is important to remember the happy times and laugh about the good times we had with them and we do that, but I also get "wigged out" when I go near the chair and mini-blinds that he was stuck in...we had to take Snickers back to the vet the other night for a UTI recheck and I was pacing and getting "uptight" in the vets office because I remembered having Sebastian there and where he was last and it wigged me out, and I at times think about that awful night when I came home and found him tangled in the blinds, had a hard time getting him out and saw him fading away and passing away as I held him. I said to my wife "it was akin to someone walking into a room and seeing someone in their final moments that was hanging themselves"; my mother said "it is almost like you had Post traumatic stress disorder" and I think she is right. But I know that as bad as that night was, at least he got to pass away in my arms, the guy who took him to the vets all the time, the guy who spent 5 hours with him at the vet one Saturday shortly before he died, the guy who tried to help him out, but Nature had other plans. So that part of it, him passing with me there, not alone, IS comforting, but I guess it'll take much more time to realize that and have the painful memories become less "intense".

I know how you feel, just know he knows that you loved him and he's in Kitty Heaven saying "I had it REAL GOOD down there with my Earthly family!"

Take care, you will see him again one day as all of us will see ALL of our pets someday, when the time is right......

G gladys Thank -You for your words of comfort. It is truly heartbreaking when we must lose someone we love so much, both human and pets. I am so sorry for all your losses. I often cry too when remembering how happy I was when they were here with me. I do realize they are at peace now, but I miss them so very much. Holidays just make us miss them more.
Again, truly sorry for your losses!

zed xyzed Thank-You for your kind words. Yes, we seem to miss our loved ones even more with the holidays. I keep remembering how happy we were when they were here with me. Holidays are nice, but also can be a sad time. I miss my Mickey more each day. I only hope he knows how much.