It's been almost a week now. Last Sunday night at almost midnight, I had my cat outside with me and holding her for some fresh air. She saw a cat and started wiggling to get free and I could not get her inside before she got out of my arms. I'm so lost and beside myself and feel so guilty for letting this happen. The major downside is that she's skittish of people she doesn't know and any time someone knocks on the door she goes to hide. And the major topper and kicker to it all is that she's declawed, which I did NOT do to her as I don't agree with it one bit so please don't go after me for it ... the previous owner was the one who had it done to her because her grandkids didn't want her to get scratched because she is an elderly lady and took the cat in after her daughter passed away. I've lost it at least once a day since this has happened. I've gone around and put fliers up in town and in the area and talked to neighbors. Have contacted animal control and the local vet in town as well. Have left a few items outside for her, but I'm torn on wanting to leave her food out for her because there's always other neighborhood cats out and I don't want to have them scare her off or them to get it so I can get her. I'm not trying to sound stingy and am sorry if it does, but she's had a UTI and on a special diet and on the prescription diet food. I don't have any tuna to put out. Have put a towel that she's laid on out but haven't put her bed out and know I should. I feel so awful for this happening and I now regret taking her out with out her harness on regardless if she liked it or not and again out of stupidity I didn't have a collar on her with her home again microchip info. I just feel like a terrible and irresponsible owner for this happening and I know it's happened to others. I am trying to remain optimistic, but as we all know it can be easier said than done. No matter where I look in the apartment, I see her things (toys, dishes, litterbox, places she will nap, her fur, etc) is so hard. Last night, I put her clean dishes and some of her toys (the only ones left out are like Da Bird and others on a like/stick like that) in the bin where I have her dry food bag and finally cleaned out her litter box today. I have her two beds in my room in the one corner and find it difficult to even look in that spot and one other in my closet before I put them together. Doesn't help I haven't been hungry and eating so much and lost some weight (which have needed to do, but not the way I've wanted) and that's not good since I'm diabetic. Both my mom and I have been quite down and depressed about this happening and I'm almost to the point of tears as I've been typing this, so I'll have to stop for now. But I will share a picture or two of my Lil Miss Babycakes, Shadow.
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