In a grotesquely ironic twist, my little girl, Rory, who everyone believed was mildly anemic due to FeLV, turns out to be actually be FeLV negative. Ordinarily it would be a cause for celebration, but it was discovered a couple of days ago that her anemia is the result of acute renal failure, most likely due to a congenital condition. She's abnormally small, 5 lbs. at her heaviest with a tiny kittenish body, so it's not unsurprising that something has gone wrong.
She's doing remarkably well at the moment, so well, in fact, that her vet and I have decided to take a conservative approach to treatment despite her stage 4 condition. She has a decent appetite, almost normal at times, she's alert and playful, only displaying signs of discomfort periodically. We've started her on sub-q fluids, Pepcid, and she'll be starting Azodyl, Epakitin and Astro's CRF oil (high potency fish oil + ubiquinol) very soon. The vet gave us an appetite stimulant/anti-nausea drug to use if needed. The prognosis is, of course, not good. She doesn't do well with hospitals, vets, etc., so there's also the question of whether or not aggressive treatment and hospitalization is warranted if it's going cause undue stress and only prolong her life by a meager few months. The vet's philosophy is Quality Over Quantity, and I'm in agreement.
I thought I knew what was happening, the direction treatment was headed in, and everything I thought I knew turned out to be flat-out wrong. We were supposed to be treating felv-related anemia, and then trying an experimental anti-viral, and there was hope. And now all I can do is make her comfortable and wait for the inevitable. It isn't fair. It just isn't fair.
So here's where we're at:
BUN: 146
Creatinine: 9.6
Albumin: 4.6
Phosphorus: 11.4
Calcium: 11.7
Really, really awful numbers. The vet was amazed that she's doing as well as she is. I have copies of her blood work in case she goes into crisis mode....but my question is this: What good would hospitalization do, really? Is it going to give her a new lease on life, or prolong the inevitable by days or weeks? I honestly don't know what to do if she crashes because I don't want to put her through an ordeal that's ultimately going to provide temporary relief. If she'll end up right back at that point again before long, I can't justify putting her through it all. I just can't. I don't want her to suffer, more than anything I don't want her to suffer.
Any advice? My heart is just breaking in two over this.
She's doing remarkably well at the moment, so well, in fact, that her vet and I have decided to take a conservative approach to treatment despite her stage 4 condition. She has a decent appetite, almost normal at times, she's alert and playful, only displaying signs of discomfort periodically. We've started her on sub-q fluids, Pepcid, and she'll be starting Azodyl, Epakitin and Astro's CRF oil (high potency fish oil + ubiquinol) very soon. The vet gave us an appetite stimulant/anti-nausea drug to use if needed. The prognosis is, of course, not good. She doesn't do well with hospitals, vets, etc., so there's also the question of whether or not aggressive treatment and hospitalization is warranted if it's going cause undue stress and only prolong her life by a meager few months. The vet's philosophy is Quality Over Quantity, and I'm in agreement.
I thought I knew what was happening, the direction treatment was headed in, and everything I thought I knew turned out to be flat-out wrong. We were supposed to be treating felv-related anemia, and then trying an experimental anti-viral, and there was hope. And now all I can do is make her comfortable and wait for the inevitable. It isn't fair. It just isn't fair.
So here's where we're at:
BUN: 146
Creatinine: 9.6
Albumin: 4.6
Phosphorus: 11.4
Calcium: 11.7
Really, really awful numbers. The vet was amazed that she's doing as well as she is. I have copies of her blood work in case she goes into crisis mode....but my question is this: What good would hospitalization do, really? Is it going to give her a new lease on life, or prolong the inevitable by days or weeks? I honestly don't know what to do if she crashes because I don't want to put her through an ordeal that's ultimately going to provide temporary relief. If she'll end up right back at that point again before long, I can't justify putting her through it all. I just can't. I don't want her to suffer, more than anything I don't want her to suffer.
Any advice? My heart is just breaking in two over this.
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