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I got my cat at the age of 7 when he was abandoned by neighbours. He has been with me for the last 8 years and is now 15. We have been through thick and thin together, good and bad, over those years. I know he is quite an elderly gent now and he had a horrible life before I got him, but I have not wanted to face the fact that he is getting older.
At a routine checkup with the vet last week (he has some thyroid problems that are under control) they found a small lump in his tummy. An ultrasound and aspiration biopsy show that it is large cell lymphoma. There is no point putting him through surgery, because the vet says that it will most likely have spread (and the surgery has a very high complication rate at his age). I could opt for chemo but the vet has again dissuaded us saying that he is probably too elderly and weak to take it. I don't want his life to become miserable. It seems like the best option is a corticosteroid treatment, which will let him fade away painlessly.
He probably has 3-6 months left.
I just can't cope with this emotionally at all.
At any time, I would find this hard but I have been challenged by some health problems of my own over the last 5 years. I am full of drugs that are reducing my emotional as well as my physical resilience. I am 37 and facing the fact that I have probably lost the chance to have children because of these problems. And now I have to lose my darling little baby kitty on top.
I have cried for hours every day since I found out. I just can't imagine what life is going to be like without him there. He is a very physical cat who always wants cuddles, and I can't deal with the embodied sense of loss, the idea that I'll not be able to hold him soon. The house is going to be so very bare and empty and lonely without his presence.
I know that I have to go through this. I know that I will get through it somehow. I just don't know how I'm going to do it. And the pain is unbearable.
At a routine checkup with the vet last week (he has some thyroid problems that are under control) they found a small lump in his tummy. An ultrasound and aspiration biopsy show that it is large cell lymphoma. There is no point putting him through surgery, because the vet says that it will most likely have spread (and the surgery has a very high complication rate at his age). I could opt for chemo but the vet has again dissuaded us saying that he is probably too elderly and weak to take it. I don't want his life to become miserable. It seems like the best option is a corticosteroid treatment, which will let him fade away painlessly.
He probably has 3-6 months left.
I just can't cope with this emotionally at all.
At any time, I would find this hard but I have been challenged by some health problems of my own over the last 5 years. I am full of drugs that are reducing my emotional as well as my physical resilience. I am 37 and facing the fact that I have probably lost the chance to have children because of these problems. And now I have to lose my darling little baby kitty on top.
I have cried for hours every day since I found out. I just can't imagine what life is going to be like without him there. He is a very physical cat who always wants cuddles, and I can't deal with the embodied sense of loss, the idea that I'll not be able to hold him soon. The house is going to be so very bare and empty and lonely without his presence.
I know that I have to go through this. I know that I will get through it somehow. I just don't know how I'm going to do it. And the pain is unbearable.