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My boy Back died exactly 8 months ago, Mothers Day 2014. Not a single day has gone by since then where I haven't thought of him, been sad, even had tears in my eyes. He was not the first cat I lost. The first one was in March 2010, and though it took time, I eventually stopped thinking about him on a daily basis. Largely, this was because I accepted that at age 14 and with advanced hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, he was an old man whose life had come to an end -- it happens to everyone whether you are a cat, a human, or any other living creature.
But with Back it was different. In all likelihood, though certainly not intentional, I caused him to go into (fright-induced) cardiac arrest by putting him into the cat carrier while he was dealing with a hairball. He was normally *terrified* of the carrier and would wail and groan in fear while in it for any reason. This was the first time he was put into it while in distress and he absolutely freaked out the moment I put him in it, then went into the usual wailing and moaning about being in the carrier, but then became quiet after few minutes (normally the wailing and moaning continued all the way to the vet and while in the waiting room). When I called his name he whimpered like a little dog, then started having trouble breathing. He died on the way to the vet, was resuscitated via CPR and then intubated because he was unresponsive, then some minutes later fell back into cardiac arrest and could not be revived.
Ultrasound while he was alive showed a completely normal heart; ECG showed normal sinus rhythm, and post-mortem x-rays showed no fluid build-up which you see with cardiomyopathy and there was no internal bleeding. The vet noted severe dehydration, but there was nothing that would have itself caused acute cardiac arrest. In essence, because of dehydration and constricted blood vessels to increase blood pressure, the sudden fear he experienced overwhelmed his heart or caused a cerebral aneurysm.
I could have just waited for him to spit up the hairball. How was I supposed to know he would die because I didn't wait 30 seconds?
8 months x 30 days = 240 days in a row that he has been on my mind.
But with Back it was different. In all likelihood, though certainly not intentional, I caused him to go into (fright-induced) cardiac arrest by putting him into the cat carrier while he was dealing with a hairball. He was normally *terrified* of the carrier and would wail and groan in fear while in it for any reason. This was the first time he was put into it while in distress and he absolutely freaked out the moment I put him in it, then went into the usual wailing and moaning about being in the carrier, but then became quiet after few minutes (normally the wailing and moaning continued all the way to the vet and while in the waiting room). When I called his name he whimpered like a little dog, then started having trouble breathing. He died on the way to the vet, was resuscitated via CPR and then intubated because he was unresponsive, then some minutes later fell back into cardiac arrest and could not be revived.
Ultrasound while he was alive showed a completely normal heart; ECG showed normal sinus rhythm, and post-mortem x-rays showed no fluid build-up which you see with cardiomyopathy and there was no internal bleeding. The vet noted severe dehydration, but there was nothing that would have itself caused acute cardiac arrest. In essence, because of dehydration and constricted blood vessels to increase blood pressure, the sudden fear he experienced overwhelmed his heart or caused a cerebral aneurysm.
I could have just waited for him to spit up the hairball. How was I supposed to know he would die because I didn't wait 30 seconds?
8 months x 30 days = 240 days in a row that he has been on my mind.