Losing KODY

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Kody was a a spare of the moment getting a kitty..o i fell in love with him. My mom says i bonded with him so closely that he thought i was his mommy cat..he followed me every where slept close by me he loved when my arm was stretch out so that he could curl in it. He would cry if i didnt come to bed on time. But recently kody started spraying so i decided that i would get him nueter..as the night aproach for it to come. I had a feeling this would b my last night with him. I told my mom say god bye because he stayed with my mom during the day while i was at work, and as she prayed over him i thought this could b her last time seeing kody. But then i didnt want to think negative so i tried to shut that out my mind.. later that night we climb n bed and i just stared at him and told him to come back home to me.. i had a weird feeling..morning. came alarm rang, i didnt want to give in and get up and take him.. he was very different that morning of surgery..he was quiet too..i pick him up prayed over him and put him n carrier..as we got to the s.p.c.a i was nervous more for kody because he got scared quickly..they weighed him i held him sang to him and doctor cme to check his heart she kinda double check n it made me concern a lil but she said he was healthy..but all i remember is when she pick him up he was so scared his whole bottom half was curled in..i told the docyor he gets scared easy she said they all do..i left hoping not to get a call i did two hours later i listen to message they said. Have an emergency with kody call us back i prayed god please let him live..they called back right away i answer she said kody passed..i scream i was so shock i didnt want to believe it but i had felt it..i feel guilty that i should of saw the signs. I feel angry with the doctors even tho they are professionals and im mad at god for not hearing my prayers n taking kody..he was my boy and baby..he was loving fun.energetic he could jumP high he love my rubber bands chase them even put in food dish..he gab to me..he knew hos name well..i just dont understand why he had to go.he was only six months..im crushed

Rip for Cody and condolences to u. We all know how u feel. I'm going through massive pain and heartache myself. It's a different world when our babies pass. Keep on coming here on this site. We are here for you.

God bless you.

Cat concern..thankyou and i hope your days get easier also, i found this site just seeking comfort andi do aappreciate that people do care for their cats as apart of their family and can relate to my pain..

Breebree just wanted to say how sorry I am for what happened.   It`s supposed to be a pretty safe operation but as we know there can be reactions to the anaestesia.   I assume thats what went wrong.  

It is something how you had a bad feeling the night before.   Most of the time our head overrules our heart.   Thats a flaw of being human I think we think too much.  It would be nice if we could turn off the brain sometimes.

Anyway Cody`s photo grabbed me.  He was a very interesting looking cat.   Very unusual markings.   Especially the black nose and toes.   In the picture on the left he looks like Eddie Munster.   Your mom might remember him from the TV show.

Please feel better though I know it is easier said than done.   

zoneout thankyou again for your response, i wished things turn out differently. I kno we all have a day to leave earth, but i wasnt ready for kody to leave he was so young. Im glad i did have time with him. He was such a gabby cat, my mom said he talk alot to me and purred only for me..its hard to say goodbye and accept..the guilt is for what i felt the night before abd morning of, ibwish i could rewind and redo!!

Breebree I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Kody.He was such a beautiful cat and so very young. I realize all surgeries are risky but that is considered to be a minor operation especially for a male cat. I guess the poor baby just couldn't handle it.I surely can understand your pain as everyone on this site can.We have all been where you are and believe me I would never wish this pain on anyone.I lost my precious baby back in July and I am still heartbroken. I can feel your pain as I myself have that same pain.Take Care and please don't blame yourself for what happened.It is surely not your fault.You were doing the right thing.I am just so sorry that things turned out the way they did.

I'm so sorry you lost Kody to what is normally a minor operation. Fate didn't mean well for him. RIP, baby.

My heart breaks for what you are going through, it was not fair at all to lose Kody at such a young age. I have taken at least 15 cats in to have them neutered and haven't lost one, it's a rare thing and I'm so very sorry it happened to you. Please take comfort in knowing that Kody left you the wonderful legacy of teaching you to how to share your heart and your love, he would be honored to have you pass on that love to another little soul when you are ready. I felt the anger,the injustice, and the helplessness just as you are feeling when I lost my Chrissy, I know how your world is shattered and time is the only thing that helps. It helps to share your story and your pain with people who understand what you are going through. Bless you for loving so much to hurt so bad, I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers. Keep busy and try not to dwell on the death, try to remember the good times, Kody would never want you to be so sad. Take care......RIP beautiful Kody, you were greatly loved and will never be forgotten!

I'm so sorry for your loss.  Sweet Kody.  He was a handsome fellow.  It's wonderful the bond you two had.  Bless you for the difference you made in his life, for he was happy to have known you, as you were to know him.  My prayers will be with you and your mom.  I'm sure she misses him a lot, too. 

I'm so sorry breebree, Kody was a beautiful cat. I've lost cats before and I know how heartbreaking it is. Try to channel your emotions into something positive. Plant a tree for Kody or make a garden to remember him by.  He didn't suffer, he went quickly and peacefully and he had a lovely life with you. 

All these are things to be thankful for.

Big hug, lots of love to you and your mum.

One week its been hard..i miss your lil meow..we all love and miss you lots kody..xoxoxo..meow meow meow

These first weeks are the hardest. Let yourself cry as much as you need to, things will get easier. It will take a long time but there will come a day when you can think of Kody and remember all the sweet things about him that made you laugh.

One day your memories will bring you smiles instead of tears.

Hang in there, we know what you're going through.

whew...indeed that's rough... I am so sorry you lost your baby like that.... makes you wonder if he had a condition that wasn't diagnosed and he may have suffered through a lot eventually...there's never a positive in losing your furbaby but at least he didn't suffer. (hugs)