We lost our baby

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We lost our baby tonight and we don't know what we did wrong.  We've raised plenty of orphan kittens during our lives over the decades and never failed.  We don't understand what went wrong.  My co-worker's daughter found her 3 1/2 weeks ago while she was out walking her dog.  She was dumped beside the road along with the rest of her litter, and the only one left alive, all her litter mates were dead.  They were only about a week old.  The high for the day was 47 degrees and it was raining all day.  My co-worker's daughter took her home and they brought her to me the next morning.  My husband and I did all the right things, we kept a heating pad in her bedding on low to keep her warm in a room set at 72 degrees, fed her KMR, and she thrived for 3 1/2 weeks with us, growing, learning to play, running around with bouts of energy.  She pottied good with stimulation and was just starting to go on her own at 4 1/2 weeks.  She became fussy about a week ago and started having trouble nursing.  She was also cutting her teeth at this time so we attributed it to that.  She was still active, playing, and running around, but we really had to coax her into eating.  She wanted to chew the nipple more than nurse on it.  Then over the weekend she simply refused to nurse.  My husband was able to get some milk down her, enough to keep her nurished, but we worried about why she didn't want to eat.  Then this morning, she woke up lethargic.  We had to work at getting some milk into her but she seemed OK, not sick or running fever, but just wanted to sit and stare and not do anything.  We talked about calling the vet first thing Monday morning and getting her checked to see what was wrong.  She wasn't her usual self, hollering for attention and wanting out of bed to run and play, just lethargic.  After her third coaxed feeding today, we put her to bed and I checked on her 2 hours later.  She seemed to be sleeping on her heating pad but when I checked from the other side, I saw her eyes were wide open and I knew something was wrong.  I picked her up, she was swaddled in her receiving blanket, and she was unresponsive and trying to breathe through her mouth.  We held her, talked and whispered to her, cried for her, and she passed away about 10-15 minutes later.

We don't understand how she thrived for 3 1/2 weeks, then we lost her.  My husband broke down and cried when she died, blaming himself for possibly doing something wrong.  I know he did everything right and we've both been through the foster care thing so many times in the past.  He was her primary keeper since he's retired and it's really hitting him hard.  He's the one who had to bury her tonight.  I've assured him that the real failure in all this is the loser who dumped her beside the road in the first place.

Her name was Bobbi and we'll make a cross for her tomorrow and in the spring, we'll turn that area where we buried her into a flower garden.
 

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God bless both of you for doing your best and for all the good you have done.   I know the hurt and pain you are feeling.   There are alot of things that can go wrong.   She showed signs of being sick and at that age the immune system is not well developed.   If she was overcome by a virus there would be little that you could do.   

You need to hug your husband and give him support to help him through this tough time.   He feels like he failed.    I know the feeling and it hurts.   

Please take care and continue your good deeds....  there will be others that need your help.
 

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My condolences.. what a terrible loss.

Our kittens were rescued from abandonment at a walmart parking lot at about the same age.. such acts of cruelty are the lowest of humankind.

Obviously you did everything you could, God bless you for all you have done.
 

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definitely not a failure to give that kitty the lovin that you did. Obviously there was something very wrong and as hard as the loss is...she is so fortunately to spend those weeks with someone that loved on her!!
 

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When my cat was at the emergency vet someone brought in a kitten who had started foaming at the mouth. The vet rushed her into the back but the kitten went into cardiac arrest and died. The vet was really upset but said it was probably a birth defect. I don't know all the details. Just what I heard as the owner checked out

It is very possible your kitten had some underlying disease. Was she tested for fiv, felv?

It is incredibly unfair to lose them so young. I lost my dog very abruptly last year. He seemed in perfect health but somehow got an infection which spread to his heart. Endocarditis. My moms dog bit him the week before and I suspect that is how the bacteria got in his blood. I can barely look at the other dog...it is so unfair. Why did we lose the good dog instead of our mean dog who fights with everyone and snarls at my cats? He will even challenge the horses over their food.:doh3:
 

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I am very sorry for your loss.  When I was trying this last year the shelter warned me about this:  http://www.catster.com/lifestyle/ask-a-vet-foster-kittens-die-fading-kitten-syndrome-cat-health.

While one of my pet peeves is that people who shouldn't really be bottle feeding are encouraged to try - you've done this successfully before.  Please don't blame yourselves, blame the cowards who dumped those kittens on the side of the road.  Bravery is knowing that you will suffer with and over the animal's pain and possible death, and doing it anyway.  That's what you and your husband did and that is what you should be taking comfort in right now.  
 
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I'm so sorry you lost the kitten, but it sounds as if you did everything you could for her.

Sometimes there is nothing we can do, as other people have said birth defects and fading kitten syndrome can take even the healthiest looking kittens.

Thank you for trying so hard for her.

 

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It is always a terrible shock to lose a kitten you have been trying so hard to save, and my heart goes out to you. You did all you could, and although I know you are asking yourselves what you did wrong, the answer is 'nothing, you did it right and Nature played you false'. The kitten knew comfort and love and did not die alone - that in itself is something to be proud of.

In respect for a little life lost, and in accordance with TCS policy, I will now close this thread. If you wish, you may open a new thread for your baby on our 'Crossing the Bridge' forum.
 
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