I guess this is the end for my little Cindy

I'm so sorry for your loss. The crying will stop eventually.

LDG said:

Of course I remember your Cindy, and my heart dropped when I saw the title of the thread - and now I've burst into tears.

I am just so so so so so sorry for this sad, sad news. You gave her such wonderful care and soooooooo much love!

Fly free, Cindy.

You have an angel watching over you now, for surely she will always be with you.

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LDG, thank you so much.  I will never forget how much advice, support, and help you gave me through this process with my baby.  Cindy started losing weight again recently and no one could figure out why.  Ultrasound better than the last one, blood tests good, etc., but still losing weight.  Wednesday, she had a really good day, DH kept calling me telling me all the things she was doing,  using the scratchy, watching out the window, jumped up on his computer table, etc.  Then by Wednesday evening she was so weak she could barely hold her head up.  That night she perked up a bit, and she and Swanie spent some time together.  But after that, she went downhill really fast.  Last night she could barely walk.  I put her on her blanket in the bed next to DH and she spent the night there, barely moving.  Early this morning DH called to me to come, and I could see the end was close.  I gave her some more of the pain med and we sat with her until she was gone.  It wasn't too long and I don't think she was in pain.  She went the way we wanted her to, in her own house, on the bed, on her special blanket, with us there with her.  I'm so greedy, I wanted more time with her, but not that way.  She was ready to go, and now she's probably chasing the birds up in heaven. She will always be in our hearts. 

Caralian said:

 
I am really sorry for your loss. Cindy is very beautiful. I am so sad for you and for your other kitty, Swanie. It must be hard for her to understand as well.. 

You did everything you could and you have gotten more time with her than you initially thought. That counts for something. It doesn't make the pain less or this situation any easier, but you'll have many more beautiful memories which eventually you will be able to smile about. 

My thoughts are with you. 

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One of the things I wanted to do was make sure Swanie about Cindy.  After she passed, we wrapped her in a blanket and took her downstairs, and put her on the floor next to Swanie.  Swanie went up to her, sniffed, walked away. Came back, sniffed again, and then laid down next to her.  I cried.  But now he seems okay, I can tell he's a little more subdued, but he's still eating, and he purrs when I pet him, so I think he'll be okay.

Now, somewhere down the road, we might think about trying to get him another companion - but not right away.

aww.. Mikki also came up to Min when it was over...and she gave her a lick on the forehead.... that was rough to watch... she cries a lot in the night...however, I think it's got a lot to do with Minnie used to get us up to eat in the middle of the night..so Mik got used to that schedule even though she wasn't as into the food as Minnie was... and we all know how "routined" kitties are... I am sure Swanie will adjust in time, as will Mikki.

I am Sat reading this with tears in my eyes. What a little fighter she was. Sleep tight Cindy xxx

I'm so sorry for your loss, @Misty8723.    The part about Swanie laying down beside Cindy's body really brought tears to my eyes.     You took such great care of her. It must have meant so much to you all and Cindy to be in the comfort of your loving home at the time of her passing.

Rest in peace, sweet Cindy.  

Misty8723 said:

 
One of the things I wanted to do was make sure Swanie about Cindy.  After she passed, we wrapped her in a blanket and took her downstairs, and put her on the floor next to Swanie.  Swanie went up to her, sniffed, walked away. Came back, sniffed again, and then laid down next to her.  I cried.  But now he seems okay, I can tell he's a little more subdued, but he's still eating, and he purrs when I pet him, so I think he'll be okay.

Now, somewhere down the road, we might think about trying to get him another companion - but not right away.

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Ah this is very good, yes. I mean, it's hard for cats to understand when their friend suddenly disappears. They do understand what's happening if they experience the death of a loved one. He will still be mourning of course, but maybe without any confusion and that means a lot. 

We used to have a dog and when she passed, our cat would walk the entire way we used to walk her outside, looking for her. She would search everywhere, in the garden, the shed, upstairs, downstairs, in the bench, everywhere in our neighborhood, and that went on for months. It was so sad.. I think if she had SEEN our dog dead, she would still have mourned, but at least she would have known what had happened.

I am really sorry for your loss. I don't think people understand how much it hurts unless they have animals themselves. Especially cats of course, because they are not just pets. They are family.

It will get easier, but until then, just cry. Allow yourself to feel bad, and ignore the people who tell you to "get over it, it's just a cat." They don't understand..

My heart is with you. 

Caralian said:

 
Ah this is very good, yes. I mean, it's hard for cats to understand when their friend suddenly disappears. They do understand what's happening if they experience the death of a loved one. He will still be mourning of course, but maybe without any confusion and that means a lot. 

We used to have a dog and when she passed, our cat would walk the entire way we used to walk her outside, looking for her. She would search everywhere, in the garden, the shed, upstairs, downstairs, in the bench, everywhere in our neighborhood, and that went on for months. It was so sad.. I think if she had SEEN our dog dead, she would still have mourned, but at least she would have known what had happened.

I am really sorry for your loss. I don't think people understand how much it hurts unless they have animals themselves. Especially cats of course, because they are not just pets. They are family.

It will get easier, but until then, just cry. Allow yourself to feel bad, and ignore the people who tell you to "get over it, it's just a cat." They don't understand..

My heart is with you. 

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That's why I felt it was important for Swanie to see that she had gone.  He is grieving, I can tell, but I hope it helped him understand that we didn't just take her away somewhere and not bring her back.

I am not surprised at my own grief, but if I tell someone that it is very similar to what I experienced when my mother passed, I'm sure they won't understand that.  The people who are important to me will. And this board has been important to me in the years since we adopted our babies.  I don't always post, but I'm always on here at least once a day to read other posts.  Everyone has been so kind to me on here, and offered me so much help, support, and advice that I feel so at home with people who share my feelings and beliefs and won't just tell me she was "just a cat.".

I understand misty. When u say it's the same when your mother died, I understand. I could cry for u right now.

Im so sorry. We just lost our Gizmo of 17 years yesterday. You did a great thing these past 2 years. We wish pets would never have to know pain,sickness and of course death. Its just so hard to let them beautiful creatures go.

momof3b1g said:

Im so sorry. We just lost our Gizmo of 17 years yesterday. You did a great thing these past 2 years. We wish pets would never have to know pain,sickness and of course death. Its just so hard to let them beautiful creatures go.

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I am so sorry about your Gizmo, I know the pain you are feeling and I wish you peace and healing.

I too am so sorry about Gizmo... sometimes I think losing our precious fur balls is harder on our heart strings due to we just can't communicate to them and we have that hope that "they understand" and I truly believe they do...but it's not the same kind of communication we can relay to humans so we feel that extra " lack" which weighs on us.

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I too am so sorry about Gizmo... sometimes I think losing our precious fur balls is harder on our heart strings due to we just can't communicate to them and we have that hope that "they understand" and I truly believe they do...but it's not the same kind of communication we can relay to humans so we feel that extra " lack" which weighs on us.

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You said it perfectly. I told dh, I sure hope there IS a heaven. I also said i wish they could talk to us when they get their telling us they are ok. 

having to tell my kids is very hard. They are 14-22, but they have grown up with them. I take on their pain as well as my own.

Misty8723 said:

 
I am so sorry about your Gizmo, I know the pain you are feeling and I wish you peace and healing.

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Thank you.

Nothing wrong with praying for a sign....I sure got my confirmation when I did

Here is an image that appeared on a photo I took of the outer box that Minnie's ashes were delivered in.. the Bo's was plain except for Minnie's name on it and I was touched by the little heart they drew by her name so took a pic. When I looked at the pic, this showed up.. May not mean anything to anyone else, but to me... I call it my angel as Min was a black/white tuxedo cat and that's the image I see

That is awesome! We are praying for a sign as well.  My mother sent 3 signs to us after she passed.

Hi Misty8723
I am so very sorry to read about the loss of your precious little Cindy.You took amazing care of her and she loved you for that.You were her angel who loved her till the end and of course still do.Cindy will always be in your heart and will always be a part of you.I do understand your sadness.I lost my precious Mickey on July 8th of this year.It is just a little over two months now and I still cry for him every day.Cats are amazing pets who become your best friends.I also lost my mom about three years ago.My Mickey helped me survive that loss.He was always there for me.Mickey was diagnosed with suspected colon cancer.He didn't last long after that.He also passed naturally at home in a comfy bed with his blanket.I was by his side holding him and telling him I loved him.Believe me I understand completely how you feel as do all members on this site.These precious cats are our babies and it breaks our hearts to lose them.Give extra hugs to Swanie and give her a bg hug from me.Take Care of yourself and Swanie!!

I have not been on this site in so long.  But I remember Cindy.

God bless your little angel.  I also have lost kitties recently and the wounds are still fresh.  I wish you peace and the knowledge you did all that could be done for her.

God Bless her and you and your husband.

I am so sorry for everyone's loss. Almost 2 years ago I was told that for my Leo it was question of 'quality over quantity of life" He seemed to do so well that somehow I had fooled myself into thinking he would have many more years. Leo died on July 29th, he was only 9. Such a sweet, loving boy . Truly the Huck Finn of cats. God rest all their little souls.Yesterday I adopted a 2 year old  from a shelter. Tonight I was sitting in the cat room where he is staying before I introduce him to the others, for some reason I found myself talking to him about Leo. I had promised Leo I would give a him to another needy cat. I can't help wishing he were here to welcome our new family member. He was always so good with new cats. Thinking of all of you ....

On behalf of the Team, we send our sympathy.

I'll lock this thread now, but when your ready maybe you could start a thread in the bridge for Cindy and Gizmo where we can all pay our respects