How do people deal with strays. Ok a little back story might help..
I live in apartment with 2 kittens (Both are approximately 9 months old). My male kitten was adopted and the female was a rescue. The female, Rene was to be adopted by my parents but somehow didn't get along with their cat so I brought her back with me and have been keeping her with me ever since.
2 days ago I prepared some cat food and went down my apartment area to feed the strays there. I have occasionally seen some cats running about.. so I thought whenever I have some extra I will feed them.
I found like 3 kittens hiding under a car.. They look no older than 2 months. Totally afraid of humans.. So i just left some food and went looking for other strays to feed.
There was this cat that basically ran towards me. It was hurt. Badly hurt. It has either gotten into a fight or an accident. A part of its elbow has a big hole. A hole as big as half of a human palm. The skin in that area is gone and you can see the flesh inside.. dried blood all over its leg.... then the face... The face has dried blood, crusty dried blood...nose had a lump of skin/ blood crust.. it seems like it has been crying and sneezing blood. When it approached me it sounded like it was growling but then i realized it was purring but it had a gurgling sound.. almost if there were liquid/ blood in the throat. It was starving.. Gave it a lot of food. Sat there till it ate cause i didn't want other cats bullying it and stealing its food. I was sitting at the road side crying like a baby.
I honestly have no extra money to bring it to a vet. I have tried calling up vets to ask if they would help with the vet cost when I rescued Rene (she had mange) and none agreed not even the local SPCA. No one wants to do anything for free. I currently have 2 kittens and to be honest I cannot afford to take care of another. I am a responsible cat owner. I buy them good food. I have money for vet visits. They are vaccinated. They are also spayed and neutered but I just cannot stretch my budget for another cat. Once in a while when I have the extra money, I buy a can or two of cat food and feed the cats down my apartment. I work a full time job that doesn't pay much to be honest. I feel like such a horrible person for not being able to do anything. I feel so guilty.
So my question is this:
How do I deal with this? The guilt? A part of me is telling me to go back to my apartment with my 2 cats and live in that bubble. No pain. No need to see the sufferings of the strays. Just basically shut them out. But I just cant. I cannot ignore them knowing they are hungry and scared.
I live in apartment with 2 kittens (Both are approximately 9 months old). My male kitten was adopted and the female was a rescue. The female, Rene was to be adopted by my parents but somehow didn't get along with their cat so I brought her back with me and have been keeping her with me ever since.
2 days ago I prepared some cat food and went down my apartment area to feed the strays there. I have occasionally seen some cats running about.. so I thought whenever I have some extra I will feed them.
I found like 3 kittens hiding under a car.. They look no older than 2 months. Totally afraid of humans.. So i just left some food and went looking for other strays to feed.
There was this cat that basically ran towards me. It was hurt. Badly hurt. It has either gotten into a fight or an accident. A part of its elbow has a big hole. A hole as big as half of a human palm. The skin in that area is gone and you can see the flesh inside.. dried blood all over its leg.... then the face... The face has dried blood, crusty dried blood...nose had a lump of skin/ blood crust.. it seems like it has been crying and sneezing blood. When it approached me it sounded like it was growling but then i realized it was purring but it had a gurgling sound.. almost if there were liquid/ blood in the throat. It was starving.. Gave it a lot of food. Sat there till it ate cause i didn't want other cats bullying it and stealing its food. I was sitting at the road side crying like a baby.
I honestly have no extra money to bring it to a vet. I have tried calling up vets to ask if they would help with the vet cost when I rescued Rene (she had mange) and none agreed not even the local SPCA. No one wants to do anything for free. I currently have 2 kittens and to be honest I cannot afford to take care of another. I am a responsible cat owner. I buy them good food. I have money for vet visits. They are vaccinated. They are also spayed and neutered but I just cannot stretch my budget for another cat. Once in a while when I have the extra money, I buy a can or two of cat food and feed the cats down my apartment. I work a full time job that doesn't pay much to be honest. I feel like such a horrible person for not being able to do anything. I feel so guilty.
So my question is this:
How do I deal with this? The guilt? A part of me is telling me to go back to my apartment with my 2 cats and live in that bubble. No pain. No need to see the sufferings of the strays. Just basically shut them out. But I just cant. I cannot ignore them knowing they are hungry and scared.