Lost my little girl

Today I lost my little lady, I took her in for a second opinion to another vets as I was losing confidence in mine. It turned out she had a lot of fluids built up around her heart and lungs , I was told I could bring her in weekly to have a chest tube inserted to her and drained but they would not advise it and could kill her.

I made the decision to let her go, and now feel like was it the right decision although in my heart I truly feel it is and was, but the mind won't stop racing.

I found her at a rescue shelter and fell in love with her from the first day , I will miss my 12 yr old girl and miss her greeting me at the door every night but I couldn't see you suffer any more.

I am so sorry you had to go through this but its a wonderful thing that you had the strength to give her peace and not allow her to suffer *hugs*

Thanks lilihannah

You released her from a sentence of agony and pain. It tore at your soul to do so, but you loved her enough to give her the greatest gift you could, your total love and understanding. She shared your life and a wonderful love for 12 years, please try to celebrate the good times and the love she gave you and not dwell on her death. She would never want you to be so sad.Thank you for sharing her with us through your tribute, she will be remembered forever in your heart and kept safe and warm in that special place deep in your soul until you will be united  again. I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers, and pray that time will turn your tears to smiles when you think of her furry face. Please take care..... RIP beautiful little lady!

The mind is very powerful and I wish it was possible to turn it off especially at times like this. You were her angel for 12 years... But unfortunately life is very fragile. Thank you for rescuing her from the shelter in the first place. We need many more wonderful souls like yours.

God bless
Z

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Thank you everyone, I know we all go through this and it's difficult to read it. The mind is a powerful thing and I at times wished I could shut it off, but a friend said to me if I didn't make the decision I did I would be being selfish for my own happiness and I agree, as well as being the one who got to make the choice, above all I owed it to her to be there for her during these last moments and that's what I did.

Thank You again

Estranged said:

The mind is a powerful thing and I at times wished I could shut it off, but a friend said to me if I didn't make the decision I did I would be being selfish for my own happiness and I agree, as well as being the one who got to make the choice, above all I owed it to her to be there for her during these last moments and that's what I did.

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Your love for her is shown in your actions. I'm very sorry you were forced to make the choice. RIP, little girl.

Thanks jcat, it's been only 24hrs and I've never felt worse in my life, not eaten in the 24hrs it may sound silly but I feel guilty eating when my little girl can no longer do it.

I know it will get better one day and I'm looking so forward to that day, I still read a lot on here and know I'm not the only one, which helps to even reading the support given to me and others.

I'm so sorry.  Please take comfort that you did the right thing for her.  And please take care of yourself.

It is terribly difficult thing to go through. But all the days of joy and happiness you had together more than makes up for the pain we must endure at these times. Time will heal. Take care of yourself - you are a good soul.