My little Luca cat

It has been a very long time since I posted. I had to put my little Luca cat to sleep on Tuesday. She got sick on my bed last week Thursday and was then just not herself. I thought it was just a cold or something she had eaten. Until Saturday night when she started twitching while lying on my lap even though fully awake. I knew she hasn't eaten or drunk anything that day. I took her to the emergency vets but had a bad feeling. They suggested either leaving her with them for blood tests or they could give her something for nausea and acid. By then her breath was really bad and she had a funny smell. I decided to take her home as I thought she would recover better there. I slept with her curled up at my belly like normal that night. On Sunday she didn't get up. I took her back and a different vet diagnosed renal failure. We had her on fluids for two days but she just got weaker and did not eat. I visited her on Monday and she was so happy to see me. Gave me kisses and loves. On Tuesday they reran the blood tests and nothing had changed. Two of the values were so high they did not register. They recommended putting her to sleep. When I saw her on Tuesday I knew she wanted go. My husband came and said his goodbyes, I spent an hour with her loving her and telling her how happy she had made me. And we then put her to sleep. She died in my arms, purring to the end.

It feels like my heart has broken and nothing will ever fill the hole. She was only 11 years old and was healthy. She had been for her 6 monthly check up 2 weeks before. I feel like an absolute failure.

I love and miss her.

I'm so sorry about your little Luca. What a beautiful cat, and she went knowing she was well loved.

Please try to not blame yourself, horrible things happen in life and there is no way to control them. Cats are very good at hiding their illnesses, and she checked out fine at her last checkup, you had no way of knowing. I know it can hurt so bad it takes your breathe away,but remember she would not want you to hurt so bad but to cherish the love you two shared.I'm so glad you were with her at the end, it comforted her greatly to have your love surround her, even as it broke your heart in two. Please know I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers, bless you for loving so much. RIP beautiful Luca!

Beautiful Luca

I'm so sorry for your loss, @Shadowfein.

Rest in peace, little Luca. 

I remember you as a Member!. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Have a wonderful time at the bridge, Luca

You are not a failure.  You did everything you possibly could.   I wish there was something to say to help you feel better and that you could see yourself in your post as I do.  I see a brave person and compassionate person who put her own grief aside to comfort her beloved cat at the time she needed it most.  You will be in my prayers.

Thank you everyone. I have just collected her ashes. They also took a fur clipping and a paw print for me. Not much else to say. There is still a Luca shaped hole in my life. Guess there always will be. Thanks for all your kind words and support.

I'm very sorry about the loss of your beautiful Luca. It's really difficult when they leave us so unexpectedly.

I'm very sorry you lost Luca, it was very sudden, really sad.