Having a tough day

gareth

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It's been 11 months. Most of the time I am fine, but I am having a really tough time today. I miss my baby girl Eva so very much, even nearly a year later. She literally saved my life. She was my once in a lifetime cat and was killed a day before her second birthday. I could scream at the unfairness of it.

My poor kitten :(

 

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I am so sorry you are having a rough time.  I think what you are going through is common with grieving.  We kind of suppress the part that we can't deal with at the time.  It comes out later when we are able to deal with it even though it is still very painful.  
 

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Some days are worse than others, that is for certain.  It comes out of the blue and you never know when it will happen.  I can remember being so excited at the opportunity to go into the delivery room as a nursing student.  When my turn came, as I watched the baby being born, I was crying my eyes out.  The vet from the emergency animal hospital had called at 4:00 in that morning to let us know our precious cat didn't make it, despite the fact he'd done CPR.   In fact, knowing about the CPR made it even worse, because I thought of how scared my cat must have been, if he was aware.  Even though I'd been waiting to go in the delivery room all semester, I was numb and sick when I got there.  I was genuinely happy for the family and a healthy baby, and appreciative that they allowed me share this special time with them.  But everything was clouded for me by grief.  I understand your pain and hope it gets better for you soon.
 

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I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Eva. All of us that have had to say goodbye to our special babies know how you feel. It's been 9 months since I said goodbye to my boy and I still get overwhelming feelings of sadness, guilt and anger. Your other two babies will help you through, I know mine do. X
 

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I hope it helps to know we share your sorrow, that you are not alone in your suffering. I know the pain can come crashing back when you least expect it and can hurt so bad it takes your breathe away. The pain can have power over you, try not to let it take over your life. One day you WILL gain control over your fear and pain, it takes time and patience. We are never ready to say goodbye, we must cling to our memories and treasure them,they will forever be locked in our hearts. Your sweet Eva will be with you always, she will never be forgotten and will live on forever within your love. Take care........and know we all support you and share your loss.
 
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