I just want to share what is going on with my 10 year old Tabs. I don't have many people I can talk to and I am feeling so alone. I'm trying to be strong for my other 2 but it is so hard for me.
I noticed he had lost some weight and then Monday night he didn't eat his canned which is very unusual for him, and he was under my bed all night. Took him to the vet Tuesday who said he had lost muscle mass and was dehydrated. Bloodwork was done, and she his liver values were high. Took him for ultrasound on Thursday. The Dr came in with the most grim look on his face, and goes, "I am very very concerned about Tabs." My heart sank...at this point I put my head back, closed my eyes, and starting screaming, "No No No, this is not happening to MY cat!!"
There is a mass in his pancreas. They extracted some fluid from the mass and he showed me this cloudy yellow liquid in a test tube. He said he thought it is pancreatic cancer, large cell lymphoma, or FIP. Best case scenario is a fungal infection which is treatable.
My primary vet called yesterday and said that the results came back on the fluid in his pancreas. It did not test positive for cancer, but she said that it very well could be, but the tumor isn't shedding cells. I was crying and begging her to help and she said that unfortunately this is very worrysome because of where the mass is, and that his kidney is enlarged. If could also be FIP. She said it's highly unlikely that it's a fungal disease, because that's out west and there are changes to his kidneys and fatty tissue.
My options were to bring him back to the Emergency Hospital for another biopsy so they could try to determine whether it's cancer or FIP, or do a midline incision to try to gather a piece to test. She said its hard to get a positive for FIP..usually it depends on how they act. She said that either way, it is fatal.
I brought him in this morning to I get him on steroids and so they could show me how to give sub Q fluids at home. she can show me how to give him fluids at home. . She said something about how in some cases of FIP, cats react well to the steroids and can perk up and live for months.
I asked point blank, is there ANYTHING at all that can be done? The answer is no. Cannot do surgery because it's not just in one area. It's hopeless. I was given the Sub Q fluids as well as steroids and an appetite stimulator. She said he might have a month IF he responds well to the steroids. That's the best case.
He still hasn't eaten since we got home, even after the appetite stimulator. I will have to force feed later...she said I should because then we can have a little more time together. I still can't believe that he is going to be leaving me very soon.. He has perked up since we got home, walking around a little. I just laid down on my bed and he climbed on my back. I just lost it and started bawling. Now he's back to just laying on my bed.
I cannot wrap my head around the fact that I am losing him. I have not stopped crying since the Dr told me what he saw on the ultrasound. I am absolutely devastated...I cannot cope with this. I keep thinking that maybe there is some way I can fix this...I don't care what it costs.
I can't even look at him without getting hysterical...i just want to curl up and die with him to be honest. I am trying to spend every moment I have with him, but it's killing me to see him dying in front of me..I haven't eaten in days. I am such a wreck...I can't handle this pain anymore. This is the most painful thing I've had to go through.
I've been trying to do as much research as I can...I found this one site where some people have had luck with holistic medicine...in the case of cancer. Should I even bother with this? I can't stand not to know exactly what it is that is killing him.
I know in my heart that there is nothing anyone can do, but any thoughts, advice, well wishes would be really appreciated right now.
I noticed he had lost some weight and then Monday night he didn't eat his canned which is very unusual for him, and he was under my bed all night. Took him to the vet Tuesday who said he had lost muscle mass and was dehydrated. Bloodwork was done, and she his liver values were high. Took him for ultrasound on Thursday. The Dr came in with the most grim look on his face, and goes, "I am very very concerned about Tabs." My heart sank...at this point I put my head back, closed my eyes, and starting screaming, "No No No, this is not happening to MY cat!!"
There is a mass in his pancreas. They extracted some fluid from the mass and he showed me this cloudy yellow liquid in a test tube. He said he thought it is pancreatic cancer, large cell lymphoma, or FIP. Best case scenario is a fungal infection which is treatable.
My primary vet called yesterday and said that the results came back on the fluid in his pancreas. It did not test positive for cancer, but she said that it very well could be, but the tumor isn't shedding cells. I was crying and begging her to help and she said that unfortunately this is very worrysome because of where the mass is, and that his kidney is enlarged. If could also be FIP. She said it's highly unlikely that it's a fungal disease, because that's out west and there are changes to his kidneys and fatty tissue.
My options were to bring him back to the Emergency Hospital for another biopsy so they could try to determine whether it's cancer or FIP, or do a midline incision to try to gather a piece to test. She said its hard to get a positive for FIP..usually it depends on how they act. She said that either way, it is fatal.
I brought him in this morning to I get him on steroids and so they could show me how to give sub Q fluids at home. she can show me how to give him fluids at home. . She said something about how in some cases of FIP, cats react well to the steroids and can perk up and live for months.
I asked point blank, is there ANYTHING at all that can be done? The answer is no. Cannot do surgery because it's not just in one area. It's hopeless. I was given the Sub Q fluids as well as steroids and an appetite stimulator. She said he might have a month IF he responds well to the steroids. That's the best case.
He still hasn't eaten since we got home, even after the appetite stimulator. I will have to force feed later...she said I should because then we can have a little more time together. I still can't believe that he is going to be leaving me very soon.. He has perked up since we got home, walking around a little. I just laid down on my bed and he climbed on my back. I just lost it and started bawling. Now he's back to just laying on my bed.
I cannot wrap my head around the fact that I am losing him. I have not stopped crying since the Dr told me what he saw on the ultrasound. I am absolutely devastated...I cannot cope with this. I keep thinking that maybe there is some way I can fix this...I don't care what it costs.
I can't even look at him without getting hysterical...i just want to curl up and die with him to be honest. I am trying to spend every moment I have with him, but it's killing me to see him dying in front of me..I haven't eaten in days. I am such a wreck...I can't handle this pain anymore. This is the most painful thing I've had to go through.
I've been trying to do as much research as I can...I found this one site where some people have had luck with holistic medicine...in the case of cancer. Should I even bother with this? I can't stand not to know exactly what it is that is killing him.
I know in my heart that there is nothing anyone can do, but any thoughts, advice, well wishes would be really appreciated right now.
