For those members that were here around 9 years ago, they may remember my story of MyRage getting pregnant but not having babies. Instead when time came for her to give birth, there were no kittens. She was lactating, and ready to be a mom. I went to the shelter and a couple days after I asked 3 little 3 week old kittens were brought in. MyRage fostered them. I helped by bottle feeding them.
One of the kittens, the little black manx stayed with us. We named her Ladi NyghtShade. I call her Shadey.
On Tuesday I woke up to the sound of her Peeing on my coat, on my bed, where she sleeps. I got her into the vet within an hour or two. They found a large mass in her tummy. She had lost weight over the last month and a half. I was concerned because I felt she had lost too much. I was told to limit her food because she was over weight. I kept telling everyone something was horribly wrong.
My hubby and I had split up a few months ago, so people kept thinking it was stress, or she was depressed, or her diet.
Well, It wasn't. She tested negative for Feline Leukemia. But she is anemic. The vet thinks she has cancer. Either way, I can't afford to have the exploratory surgery to look into it. So she is not doing so well. That is the main thing.
My heart is broken... shattered... I cannot describe how helpless and terrible I feel. I even took her to the vet, and they said she looked fine. I wish they had felt her abdomen a little more at that time. I just want to scream. This is my little girl. I bottle fed her. She cuddled with me every night for the last 9 and a half years. She would get attention from my husband, then come and curl up on me and sleep. We spent many hours where I was holding her and she would just look up into my eyes. MY world is crashing down all around me. I feel like I cannot live without her.
Now I am faced with confort care for my girl. I know I need to let her go. I just am scared. So scared. We are so close, so bonded. She is my soul cat. She will not live much longer. I want to get her the surgery so that I know I have done everything that I can to make her better. I wish I was rich. I don't want new stuff or anything, just for my little baby manx to live longer. She is only 9 and a half.
Please pray for her to not be in pain, and for her to let me know when it is time. Please creator give me the strength to let her go. I just don't feel like I can live without her.
One of the kittens, the little black manx stayed with us. We named her Ladi NyghtShade. I call her Shadey.
On Tuesday I woke up to the sound of her Peeing on my coat, on my bed, where she sleeps. I got her into the vet within an hour or two. They found a large mass in her tummy. She had lost weight over the last month and a half. I was concerned because I felt she had lost too much. I was told to limit her food because she was over weight. I kept telling everyone something was horribly wrong.
My hubby and I had split up a few months ago, so people kept thinking it was stress, or she was depressed, or her diet.
Well, It wasn't. She tested negative for Feline Leukemia. But she is anemic. The vet thinks she has cancer. Either way, I can't afford to have the exploratory surgery to look into it. So she is not doing so well. That is the main thing.
My heart is broken... shattered... I cannot describe how helpless and terrible I feel. I even took her to the vet, and they said she looked fine. I wish they had felt her abdomen a little more at that time. I just want to scream. This is my little girl. I bottle fed her. She cuddled with me every night for the last 9 and a half years. She would get attention from my husband, then come and curl up on me and sleep. We spent many hours where I was holding her and she would just look up into my eyes. MY world is crashing down all around me. I feel like I cannot live without her.
Now I am faced with confort care for my girl. I know I need to let her go. I just am scared. So scared. We are so close, so bonded. She is my soul cat. She will not live much longer. I want to get her the surgery so that I know I have done everything that I can to make her better. I wish I was rich. I don't want new stuff or anything, just for my little baby manx to live longer. She is only 9 and a half.
Please pray for her to not be in pain, and for her to let me know when it is time. Please creator give me the strength to let her go. I just don't feel like I can live without her.
