|Originally posted by hissy
Jenn do me mind me asking? How did you get un-addicted to the computer, or did you?
Of course I don't mind, Maryanne.
I've never really told anyone about it before, but now it actually doesn't hurt to talk about it. Especially in an environment like this, where I know (hope? lol) that you won't all think I'm insane.
Basically, I refused to go to a counselor at that point because I didn't think there was anything wrong with me (though now I see that there really was). My parents didn't know what to do with me at all, and there really wasn't much advice for them because I'm pretty much in the first generation to widely use the Internet for chatting/leisure. Frustrated and confused with me, they packed me up and we headed to the cottage (no electricity at all!) for two weeks. After that, I was allowed a half hour a day, and if I got up during the night to go on the computer, the computer would be taken to the neighbour's house.
It was so many things. I'd lie to my friends so I didn't have to go to sleepovers, so I could talk to my online friends. I'd stay up all hours of the night to talk to them... sitting in my computer chair often for 5+ hours continuously. Occasionally, people online would say mean things to me and I would take it to heart and hate myself even more and go to other online places to find friends that would like me. I thought it was great that a fat girl with acne and funny hair, like me, could make so many friends. And I felt so close to them. But you know what? Now I look at pictures of myself from back then, and I was a lot prettier than I thought I was. The "fat girl with acne and funny hair" was just a girl that hadn't come out of her shell yet.
In my case, I don't think I'll ever be truly "un-addicted", really. I do have to limit my free time on the computer for my own sanity. I don't know if any of you really notice, but sometimes I'm here a lot for a couple weeks and other weeks I'm not really here at all. It's because I don't want to end up like I was four years ago. Though I do love chatting and making friends online, I keep myself busy with other things.
I hope I wasn't too hard on that girl when I first replied... I really don't mean to say that every kid on the Internet has problems like I did. I just wish it could wait a while. Kids are growing up far too fast as it is. They need to be kids for a little while longer.