I lost my beautiful cat on thursday night, and my heart is broken into a million pieces.
She stayed with my parents while I live away for college and I missed her last moments. It is strange, I knew she wasn't doing well so I was checking in with my parents often to see how she was. I called my mom on thursday evening, and within minutes she took her last breath. I told her I loved her and begged her not to go through the phone. It was fast and seemingly painless, which I am grateful for.
I have had her since I was a little girl and can not believe she is gone. She had hyperthyroidism and CRF, but her blood work levels have remained at just outside the normal range for years. She took medication for hyperthyroidism. A few months ago she did have high blood pressure but my parents decided to not medicate her, which i now feel horrific about. About a week before she passed she stopped eating and seemed very lethargic. My parents brought her to the vet, and she was very dehydrated and her kidney had shrunk a lot. They gave her an antibiotic and Sub Q fluids.
When I went home for christmas, she had lost a significant amount of weight in the 3 months I had been away. I was home for about a month and had her eating well again, even jumping and playing with a laser toy like she was a kitten. And now, exactly one month later, she is gone. I feel responsible for her death. My parents loved her and she loved her home, but I was the best at taking care of her. I dont know how to describe it, I just knew what she needed and kept her healthy in a way my parents coulden't. I don't understand how it happened so quickly.
I dont know how to cope with so many unanswered questions, and how to deal with the guilt. If anyone has a similar story of a cat with CRF, I would love to hear your experience. I know I can't bring her back, which is the hardest part.
My heart goes out to any of you who are dealing with a loss of your own!
She stayed with my parents while I live away for college and I missed her last moments. It is strange, I knew she wasn't doing well so I was checking in with my parents often to see how she was. I called my mom on thursday evening, and within minutes she took her last breath. I told her I loved her and begged her not to go through the phone. It was fast and seemingly painless, which I am grateful for.
I have had her since I was a little girl and can not believe she is gone. She had hyperthyroidism and CRF, but her blood work levels have remained at just outside the normal range for years. She took medication for hyperthyroidism. A few months ago she did have high blood pressure but my parents decided to not medicate her, which i now feel horrific about. About a week before she passed she stopped eating and seemed very lethargic. My parents brought her to the vet, and she was very dehydrated and her kidney had shrunk a lot. They gave her an antibiotic and Sub Q fluids.
When I went home for christmas, she had lost a significant amount of weight in the 3 months I had been away. I was home for about a month and had her eating well again, even jumping and playing with a laser toy like she was a kitten. And now, exactly one month later, she is gone. I feel responsible for her death. My parents loved her and she loved her home, but I was the best at taking care of her. I dont know how to describe it, I just knew what she needed and kept her healthy in a way my parents coulden't. I don't understand how it happened so quickly.
I dont know how to cope with so many unanswered questions, and how to deal with the guilt. If anyone has a similar story of a cat with CRF, I would love to hear your experience. I know I can't bring her back, which is the hardest part.
My heart goes out to any of you who are dealing with a loss of your own!