I have been crushed since I had to have my 1 year old Cocoa put to sleep this month. We don't know what caused him to have kidney failure at such a young age but I can't help but to think I may have caused it. I'm incredibly protective of my cats even getting my medications with child proof caps on them so if they get onto my dresser and they play with a bottle they won't be able to get the caps off. If a bottle is delivered with a regular cap I put it away. I don't drive so there's no anti freeze around. I'm dumbfounded that he is gone. Some have tried to convince me he could've been born with a problem. All I do know for sure is I miss my baby booboo bear so much. I see him in every room and feel him so strongly. Several times a day I have meltdowns. I have a memorial website for my mom and added a page for Cocoa. That's been hard to do. He brought so much warmth and smiles to my life. That angel flew into my life and my heart then to Heaven. He stole my heart and it feels like he took it with him. I want him back.