My cat friend died yesterday

I knew it was going to happen. "Buggie" adopted me over a year ago. I took him to the vet and he was 7 lbs. supposed to be a 20 lb cat.  He was my friend, he tried to protect me from an abusive exboyfriend, He guarded me and my pet bunnies.  

I do not understand this pain. I do not want to feel so lost and sad and scared. And guilty.

When he first came to my home, I drove all over Burbank looking for lost pet signs, I went to all of the local pet stores, I put ads on the internet.....

I never found his family.

I grew to love him. He protected me. He comforted me when I was sad. He talked to me when I was cooking or cleaning or putting on makeup. 

I feel guilty that I didn't have the money to take him to the vet. I tried. I tried so hard, I wrote to 'Actors for animals" I called a hundred people.

One person on this site helped me, last year she mailed me some 30 or more cans of cat food. I am on disability, barely making it. 

My current bf doesn't understand, he always called Buggie "That cat". He is a nice guy but is not understanding of this. 

I took Buggie to the vet to "let him go" after he passed. The lady gave me a pendant of a cat/angel. 

I don't want to feel this anymore.

Tammy

I'm sorry for your loss. It hurts, it sucks. Try to remember the happy times you had with Buggie.
When you feel ready, you might want to post a tribute on the Crossing the Bridge forum.

Thank you.

I'm so sorry about Buggie.   As Ritz mentioned, if you'd like to post this in the Bridge forum, you're more than welcome to do so. Or if you'd like somebody to move this thread into the Bridge, we can do that for you as well. Our sympathy to you....it's difficult. And we all know how you're feeling.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry on your loss of Buggie. We've all been there. I've lost several cat's over the years.So I do know your pain. Know that you need to give yourself time to grieve. 

As much time as you need. Everybody is different and grieves differently as well. Know that Buggie is no longer suffering and is at the Rainbow bridge, waiting for you when 

it is your time. Please feel free to talk to us here at the Cat site anytime. You are not alone. We care.  

After awhile you will remember the good memories.

So sorry about your loss ...
I adopted 2 strays , Lil whistle snd Snuffy , sibblings, after a year , Lil whistle went very ill and i had no choice than to let him fall in to sleep.
No one can understand the pain if they havent been in same situation .
My other cat , the sibbling grieved for a week , cried and refused to sleep
in their sofa .. stopped eating , i had to forcefeed him .
You know i cried floods as the lil whistles sibbling as well ..
It is HARD and u have all the right to let ur feelings show in open
as cat is as a child for us ..
I belive in a cat heaven ,with green grass and lots of catfriends to play with ..
Who knows maybe ur Buggie plays with my lil whistle up there ..
Many hugs and let urself grieve, his memory and love will always stay with u .. [emoji]9829[/emoji]

It hurts because you love him. I've lost a lot of babies over the years, and it always hurts, whether it is a dog or a cat, a rat (I cried like a baby when my favorite, most friendly rat died), my beloved horse, or even a crabby old lizard that just freaked out and pooped everywhere if I tried to hold him. It is never easy to lose a family member.

((hugs))

It sounds like Buggie was a very special guy. I am so very sorry for your loss. I wish I had some magic words to make your pain go away, I can feel how bad you are hurting through the computer screen.

The best thing to do is to talk about it and never feel embarrassed or ashamed for mourning your best friend. It is necessary and your right to grieve. If you can't share those feelings with your boyfriend, please come here and let it out. We understand and we will always support you.

I feel sorry for people who don't get how incredibly special and life changing a relationship with a cat (or dog) can be. We are the lucky ones because our lives have been so enriched by our furry babies. We have shared true, unconditional love and that is so special. The price we pay for that unconditional love and friendship is the sorrow we feel when they have to leave. The pain and sorrow are a worthy trade for all the happy times and special moments you were fortunate enough to spend with your Buggie. It is a precious gift. Please know that he knew how much you loved him. And he loved you just as much in return. I know with every fiber of my being that you will see Buggie again one day at the Rainbow Bridge. Take care.

I am so sad to hear about Buggie leaving you.  I know it hurts as most of us have gone through this terrible time.  Grieve as long as you need to but if it's in your heart, you can adopt another kitty when the time is right for you.

It's so incredibly hard to feel better after something like this, and yes, nobody ever wants to feel the anguish of a broken heart. But it is because we love those little souls SO much that when they go they leave us behind to mourn and to grieve and we feel these intense feelings of loss and pain. It is perfectly normal to have these feelings, especially those of guilt, but you did the best you could, and I'm sure Buggie knew how much he was loved. You made all the difference in his small world, and he loved you for it. Time is the only thing that helps and please try to remember that Buggie would NEVER want you to be so sad, he would want you to rejoice in the love you two had and not to dwell on his passing. Take care of yourself, and feel sorry for your bf, obviously they have never experienced the great love that can be shared between a pet and their owner. Please share your grief with us, we will try to fill some of that emptiness you now feel. Bless you. RIP little Buggie, please wait at the Rainbow Bridge!

I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like he had a great home and knew real love and kindness in the end.

My condolences. It's so difficult to lose a cherished pet like Buggie.

I'm so sorry.  Buggie knew how much you loved him and I hope that will provide you some comfort.   You tried very hard for him.    

Buggie