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Hi everyone, I've debated a bit about whether or not to post I am still so sad about it all, but you've all been such wonderful support during this journey of mine with Hercules. He's been missing now for a month, the most he ever left before was for a week and I've tried to hold out hope that he was just on a big journey. But I dreamed of him a couple weeks ago, one of those very vivid bits that sticks with you long after the other dreams have been forgotten - he was in his usual feeding spot looking at me very intently. I didn't know what it meant, but worried he was saying goodbye. I contacted LDG's animal communicator and she has confirmed that he has left this life. I don't want it to be true but in my heart I know it is. She said he went off hunting and ate something bad that led to stomach problems he couldn't recover from. He was likely on one of his many walkabouts he went on this summer, way too far away to get back to me where I could help him. I still live nearby and will keep an eye out for him though.
The hardest part is the guilt that I didn't take him in when I had the chance, he'd be alive today if I had. Still I have two indoor cats a feral mom and her tame son that I've had for many years now. The son, Big Guy, is very territorial and even gets aggressive chasing his mom sometimes. His aggression always got worse when he saw Herc out the window or any other cat. Hercules showed himself to be territorial and not get along with other cats outside, so I feared to bring him indoors given both their personalities. I keep reminding myself that I did choose the overall well-being of the cats I'd already made a commitment to, but it feels hollow. Thank you all for your support over this past year - this is wonderful site and you are blessed people for all you do for felines.
The hardest part is the guilt that I didn't take him in when I had the chance, he'd be alive today if I had. Still I have two indoor cats a feral mom and her tame son that I've had for many years now. The son, Big Guy, is very territorial and even gets aggressive chasing his mom sometimes. His aggression always got worse when he saw Herc out the window or any other cat. Hercules showed himself to be territorial and not get along with other cats outside, so I feared to bring him indoors given both their personalities. I keep reminding myself that I did choose the overall well-being of the cats I'd already made a commitment to, but it feels hollow. Thank you all for your support over this past year - this is wonderful site and you are blessed people for all you do for felines.