I have a 19 year old kitty who's very strong. She has kidney failure and we've been controlling her continually but still sometimes she needs to be left at the vet to get an IV. But this time things got worse than ever before. She seemed fine the day before but the next she started having seizures. Her creatinine and urea levels were terrible and that caused the seizures. When I took her to the ER, she had hypothermia and couldn't even move.
She's been on IV and other medications for 3 days and her levels have actually gotten worse. Today she was a bit more alert but still very weak and unable to move. Her vet says that if her levels get better by tomorrow, she might have a chance but she'll need to have tests and IVs every 15 days or so. She's already arthritic and has Alzheimer's and is very fragile and slow. Her vet told me she is not in chronic pain right now and she is indeed a very strong kitty.
When I saw her today I felt that she was asking me to let her rest. I feel guilty because I don't want to see her suffer even if the pain is not chronic and maybe letting her rest would be the most humane thing to do--giving her IV, taking her blood, cat subcutaneous fluids, constant visits to the vet pretty much every 2 weeks. That is actually the best case scenario. But I also feel guilty because she might have a chance to live a bit longer but I feel that I would be prolonging her condition because I don't wanna lose her. If tomorrow, her levels are too bad, I'm gonna put her to sleep. But if they're not... I really don't know what should I do. I'm not a religious person but I'm literally waiting for a miracle.
Another thing is that she is eventually gonna go that way and I don't want her to go through the same things once or even more times.
What would you do because I really don't know? Give her a chance to live a sub-standard life or let her rest? She's already had a rough life even before I got her. I don't want her to suffer anymore.
She's been on IV and other medications for 3 days and her levels have actually gotten worse. Today she was a bit more alert but still very weak and unable to move. Her vet says that if her levels get better by tomorrow, she might have a chance but she'll need to have tests and IVs every 15 days or so. She's already arthritic and has Alzheimer's and is very fragile and slow. Her vet told me she is not in chronic pain right now and she is indeed a very strong kitty.
When I saw her today I felt that she was asking me to let her rest. I feel guilty because I don't want to see her suffer even if the pain is not chronic and maybe letting her rest would be the most humane thing to do--giving her IV, taking her blood, cat subcutaneous fluids, constant visits to the vet pretty much every 2 weeks. That is actually the best case scenario. But I also feel guilty because she might have a chance to live a bit longer but I feel that I would be prolonging her condition because I don't wanna lose her. If tomorrow, her levels are too bad, I'm gonna put her to sleep. But if they're not... I really don't know what should I do. I'm not a religious person but I'm literally waiting for a miracle.
Another thing is that she is eventually gonna go that way and I don't want her to go through the same things once or even more times.
What would you do because I really don't know? Give her a chance to live a sub-standard life or let her rest? She's already had a rough life even before I got her. I don't want her to suffer anymore.
If you looked into her eyes and felt like she was asking you to set her free, then, even though it the hardest thing you can do, you would do it out of love for her.
What it comes down to is her quality of life. Is she going to have more good days than bad days if you keep her alive? You want to make the best decision for her, not for you, which you obviously already realize: 
