First of all, let me say a big THANK YOU to all of you for your kind words, prayers and/or positive thoughts!!!!!
Also, Pamela....please don't put off having your lumps checked out...you should do this very soon, and I will be thinking of you and sending up prayers!!! Keep us posted!!!
Hedi....have you gotten your test results back yet? My prayers are with you as well!!!!! Please let us know!!!!
Well....I went in Wednesday morning for the mammogram. I hated it, needless to say. (my first one ever) How humiliating is that????
Then I get home from work and find a message on my machine from the clinic saying I need to come back in the next morning (Thurs) for further mammogram x-rays on my right breast. I was in tears. Very very upset! bad enough going through it once, let alone two days in a row!!!!
So then I went back in Thurs. morning and had the right side repeated.
It was a different woman doing it this time and she was very rough I thought and I was already a little tender from having it all done the day before. I got rather grumpy with her. I called her later and apologized for acting this way.
I also started having an anxiety attack...I've only had one once...way back in high school when I was 17. I couldn't breathe well, (hyperventilating) felt very hot, light headed and needed to get out of there NOW!!! I didn't even wait to see what the Dr. had to say about the x-rays....I just ran out. I felt so stupid later. I sat in the car and calmed myself down, and then went to the clinic to see my regular Dr. They had already called him and told him I had just ran out without getting the results. He said the mammograms looked okay...just some fiberous things (can't remember the name) that weren't anything serious, but that they had just wanted to double check them. He said the surgeon would know more today. (because there was still of course the matter of the original large lump between my breast and armpit that had been there over a month now.) He also gave me some pills for anxiety to take to help me relax and sleep. So I went home and slept the rest of the day.
Then last night I noticed my right arm hurt really bad. It felt bruised on the underside of it. But no bruise marks. I then felt around under my arm for that original large lump (the size of a quarter) and discovered the weirdest feeling "cords" for lack of a better word, going from the lump, up towards where my armpit meets my arm. I had my hubby feel them too, and he thought they were just very strange as well. Almost like the thing had sprung roots that were growing upwards
Woke up this morning and the top part of my arm is almost numb...the rest (beneath where it bends) still just feels bruised.
Went in today to see the surgeon. He was very nice...I really like him. He said my blood pressure is even higher today than it was Monday...and it was high then. So that's not good...but must not have worried him bad enough to give me any medication, because he didn't.
He felt the lump, and the "cords/roots" and asked me if my arm hurt. I told him yes it did. He said he wants to do surgery as soon as possible and get this thing out. So Tuesday morning I go in for surgery. He isn't giving me a local anesthetic(sp?) but actually putting me all the way under. He said if all he gave me was a local, I would likely feel quite a bit of discomfort, since there is so much to be removed. (He has to get those root things out too)
He isn't sure what it is. He said it may just be a benign tumor that is growing and causing pain, or it could be cancer. He says more than likely it is benign but won't know till it is out and they can run lab tests on it.
And here's something else that is just a bit weird.....he asked me if there was any chance I had been scratched by anything in the past several months. I said not that I know of...but I do have cats and might have been strached and not known it. He asked if I had been feeling really tired for several months...well yes of course I have...but I think most of that is due to working full time and having a 13 month old daughter to take care of as well. I have no energy anymore. He asked if I had been feeling hot flashes. I said yes!! I have been feeling terribly hot all the time and have to open a window at night because I am sweating even though my husband says it is freezing in the room. I asked him why...what would that have to do with it? He said he was sure it probably didn't...but that cat scratch fever can sometimes cause infections under the skin that grow and need to be removed. He said he doesn't think this is the problem, but needs to check out every possibility anyway.
Does anyone have a good website with info about Cat scratch fever? Maybe there is a link here on TCS to it, but I haven't looked. He said he really doesn't think that's what it is...and that it is probably a tumor (benign or cancerous) but I would still like to read some info on this, just to know more about it, since he did mention it.
Anyway.....thanks for your prayers and please keep praying!!!! My brother (a real sweetheart) is not only praying for me...but also fasting. (not eating meals) I wish he wouldn't do that (not eating) but he won't listen to me.
Send me good vibes on Tuesday!