Boy, oh boy, here I go again. I am Zweny. I lost my Little Girl 10 days ago. She was only 5 and was "only" having an abscess drained after a tooth extraction. Her heart stopped. She stopped. I stopped. Frozen in the moment. God, let me wake up - I know this is a bad dream. It's not. I have lost her - so unexpectedly. I have never lost a young cat. All my many many cats throughout my 65 years have lived to be "old". I was not ready for this. I did not expect this to happen. No one did. So, now what do I do? My Little Girl is g o n e. When she died, I prayed to God the same prayer I pray when I lose one of my beloved animals: "God, please be on the lookout. She is on her way to you. She will be there shortly. Please take good care of her - cherish her and love her until I can be with her again to take over my role as Cat Mother." I lost my 12-year-old German Shepherd Dog 2 days after Christmas. She was old but seemed to be healthy. She wasn't. She collapsed on my kitchen floor one morning. Turns out she had a hemangiosarcoma (mass on her heart) and HAD to be put down. But it was so unexpected. I live alone. My 3 daughters are grown. I have my animals - now 2 German Shepherd Dogs and 2 cats - Herbie T. L. Bugg, brother of Little Girl, and Kantor, my 12-year-old Russian Blue. I cherish my animals. I CHERISH my animals. I go to bed at night and can't wait until morning to spend more precious time with them. My pets are treated like the most important animals in the world. They have my undivided attention, best of care, a lot of hands on moments. And now, I have one less cat - My Little Girl is gone. I am pretty good now about "holding it together". But then, like tonight, I totally lost it. I went on your website just now, read a few messages and totally lost it. Torrents of tears. Anger, Grief, Sadness. I want to have a temper tantrum - yelling, screaming, crying, getting it out. But the bottom line is this: She is gone. I lost her. I will never have her again. I am a very private person but was in such distress, I went online looking for comfort and I came across your website. This is the most fantastic, amazing website out there. All of you, around the world, and I are joined together with a common bond. It is so comforting to come to all of you and let my feelings out because I know you will understand. You are such a comfort to me and I don't even know you! Thank you for being there. I am there for you also. Once I progress a bit further, I will be able to post a tribute to my special girl, my Little Girl. Please know that you are making a huge difference in my healing process. Know that you are special, you are loved, you are one of a kind. God bless you and your special animals who are now at the Bridge, happy, healed, and waiting...
Zweny
Zweny
