Couldn't Win The Fight~ My Sassy is GONE!!!

pwhite01 · Apr 19, 2013

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My 12 year old beautiful Sassy got sick on April 5. I just want to say that what my baby endured that she is my hero & such a trooper! She TRULY fought!! My heart is so empty! She was like my child and now feel so empty inside. I dont know how I can get through this. She endured 3 seizure type episodes, double ear infections, fever, loss of appetite, drinking, weight loss, administered fluids repeatedly, medicines, an enema & then yesterday the loss of use in her hind legs. We had to put her down 10:30 last night. It was the HARDEST thing I ever had to do in my life. Seeing her still alert and looking at us before our final goodbye is an image that will never leave me. Never got a diagnosis but assuming cancer. I have cried all night & day!! I devoted 24/7 care to her since this started. I slept on the hard floor as she slept above my head on a soft pillow. Last night I still slept on the floor & stared at the empty pillow.

I LOVE YOU, Sassy!!

tjcarst · Apr 19, 2013

I am so sorry Sassy is gone. She sounds like she was very loved, the best life a cat can possibly hope to get. Thank you for taking such good care of her.

So many of us on here have lost a beloved pet and understand what you are going through right now. Please come here if you wish to talk to someone for support. It is a terrible feeling to lose something so special. My way of dealing with the immense grief, sorrow, guilt, anger, etc, is to realize that I cared very much or I would not hurt so much when it is gone. Knowing how much it hurts afterwords is worth it to experience such unconditional love all of the years I was able to have such a gift.

Rest in peace Sassy!

{{{Hugs}}} to you.

di and bob · Apr 19, 2013

I'm so very ,very sorry for you. I have been following Sassy's illness and was hoping and praying for the best, Nothing I can say will help right now, just know I am thinking (and crying) for you.

I wish we never had to go through this, a broken heart is soul shattering. Please know you did every thing you could for her, being with her at the end is heartbreaking for you but gave her great comfort. It's almost impossible to accept that they are gone, but she is free of pain now and wouldn't want her mommy to be so sad. Grieve as much and as long as you need, please accept my condolences. RIP beautiful Sassy, wait for your loving family at the Rainbow Bridge!

momkatpat · Apr 19, 2013

I am so sorry for your loss.    My Sassy - 18, we had her 17 of those excellent years - went over The Bridge March 9th.

And I know how empty you fee. It sounds like your Sassy had a lot to deal with, and you did everything possible to help.

And you made the choice al people dread, but you helped your best loved companion out of pain. I know you won't feel that way, and I don't either, but be assured you helped her till the end.  Your Sassy loves you and you'll see her again.

I held and sang to my Sassy during the vet visit.   I also slept on the floor with her the last few months of her life with us.   There was no way I couldn't be there for her in any way possible. When she no longer could go out walking with me, I carried her, to the amusement of my neighbors. I'd do anything for her. And I'll miss her the rest of my life.

mrsgreenjeens · Apr 19, 2013

I am so very sorry she is gone

You gave her the greatest give you could, and that was to set her free even though it broke your heart.

My sympathies.

Run free at the bridge, sweet Sassy

jcat · Apr 19, 2013

I'm very sorry you've lost Sassy, but you did everything you could for her, including giving her that last gift of a peaceful passing. It hurts terribly when we lose our beloved pets, but in time we can concentrate on all the happy memories and not the pain of loss. RIP, Sassy.

bonobosoph · Apr 19, 2013

RIP Sassy! I'm sure you loved her to bits, so she wouldn't have died unhappy.

my4llma · Apr 19, 2013

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my4llma
Apr 19, 2013

Beautiful Sassy :rbheart:

pwhite01 · Apr 19, 2013

Thank you, Everyone!! This pain is really hurting!!!!!

harleydiva · Apr 19, 2013

I'm so sorry....I know the pain you are feeling, and it is awful.

katocats · Apr 19, 2013

I'm sorry for your loss

its really heartbreaking

to lose a beloved cat.

MoochNNoodles · Apr 19, 2013

I'm so so sorry. It sounds like you did everything you could for her.

maewkaew · Apr 21, 2013

Oh I am so sorry., I checked your other thread and was very sad to hear of your loss. Sassy was a good brave kitty and you and she both tried to do a much as you could -- but sometimes disease is too much even for fighters to fight. At least now she is not suffering , and I know she had a life with so much love. She will always live in your memory , that is for sure, and I think surely her spirit is still out there somewhere and will wait for the day you will meet again.

pwhite01 · Apr 21, 2013

maewkaew said:
Oh I am so sorry., I checked your other thread and was very sad to hear of your loss. Sassy was a good brave kitty and you and she both tried to do a much as you could -- but sometimes disease is too much even for fighters to fight. At least now she is not suffering , and I know she had a life with so much love. She will always live in your memory , that is for sure, and I think surely her spirit is still out there somewhere and will wait for the day you will meet again.

Thank you sooo much!!! I am now upon my OWN research pretty sure she died from Cardiomyopathy ( heart disease). Not sure if that caused the fever as well and loss of appetite. Maybe she had cancer as well. She was a Main Coon and heart disease is the common cause of death and called the silent killer. Too bad my Vet didnt seem to realize this as I was trusting her. Each time I took Sassy it was a different guess. I cant wait to advise her to continue her education! I am not saying it could have saved Sassy but knowing and being able to go into the right direction may have helped. Sorry the anger is setting in. It has been very depressing here since Thursday. My 11 year old lost her best friend & I felt like I lost my child. We buried her yesterday and I am having a very hard time with her being in the ground. Cremation was also not something I could do either. I am so depressed and feel like I cant find that "normal & happy" life without our Sassy! She was a one of a kind cat and truly unique. Beauty & personality! Complete package!!

pwhite01 · Apr 21, 2013

MoochNNoodles said:
I'm so so sorry. It sounds like you did everything you could for her.

Thank you!! It means a lot!!

pwhite01 · Apr 21, 2013

Katocats said:
I'm sorry for your loss

its really heartbreaking

to lose a beloved cat.

Thanks so much!!!!!

pwhite01 · Apr 21, 2013

HarleyDiva said:
I'm so sorry....I know the pain you are feeling, and it is awful.

I went to the food store today for the first time and the entire time my mind was on Sassy. My poor 11 year old had to dance on the stage today with a very sad & broken heart!!

maewkaew · Apr 21, 2013

pwhite01 said:
Thank you sooo much!!! I am now upon my OWN research pretty sure she died from Cardiomyopathy ( heart disease). Not sure if that caused the fever as well and loss of appetite. Maybe she had cancer as well. She was a Main Coon and heart disease is the common cause of death and called the silent killer. Too bad my Vet didnt seem to realize this as I was trusting her. Each time I took Sassy it was a different guess. I cant wait to advise her to continue her education! I am not saying it could have saved Sassy but knowing and being able to go into the right direction may have helped. Sorry the anger is setting in. It has been very depressing here since Thursday. My 11 year old lost her best friend & I felt like I lost my child. We buried her yesterday and I am having a very hard time with her being in the ground. Cremation was also not something I could do either. I am so depressed and feel like I cant find that "normal & happy" life without our Sassy! She was a one of a kind cat and truly unique. Beauty & personality! Complete package!!

My cat who died of cancer last year had some of the same symptoms. his immune system was not so good and he got a bad URI. Then even after he seemed to be over the URI, he was having unexplained fevers. He was getting dehydrated and needing SC fluids which I gave at home. and he became very weak, so that at the end I had to actually carry him to the litterbox and hold him up while he went. He perked up for a while when we put him on medicine for the cancer but it was already too far advanced and spread.

So maybe it was cancer Sassy had too.

This cat, my Louis, was so special to me and such an amazing cat, so smart, so brave, such a strong will to live , he was just incredible. I still feel his loss very much.

I was having the same feelings, for some reason I did not want to put him in the ground, and did not want to cremate him. In my grief, I even very briefly thought maybe I could have his body freeze dried! because someone told me it was possible. I know that sounds bizarre, it sounds bizarre to me now.

The truth is I just did not want him to be gone. but of course HE was gone from the body anyway. And I did bury his body , next to the grave of his old friend Frankie who had died 11 years earlier.

I find that some form of creative expression can be helpful, a place to pour your feelings into. Your daughter who is a young dancer could maybe put her feelings about Sassy into a dance sometime.

Hang in there. I can't say it will get easier soon. but it eventually hurts less than it does right at first.

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