I know but I just keep thinking about what a better life she has now that she's been spayed and she eats regular meals at my house. Dry food, wet food, treats.. I play with her every nite, she has a nice chair with blankets that she can sleep on.
I mean for at least a year before this I saw her occasionally but never left food out because I know what happens when you start feeding cats, and I wasnt prepared to deal with it at the time.. but she is just so much healthier now I can tell. I feel good knowing that I am able to do these things for her at least, whereas before I'm sure she just scrounged for food and slept in the dirt, having babies constantly.