very very anxious/worried/panicky :(

My 14-year-old female Japanese Bobtail kitty has been straining to urinate for the past two weeks. We took her to the vet last Wednesday, and they drew blood and did an ultrasound, revealing a mass of *something* in her bladder. He said it could be a tumor and I should pay $600 more for a radiologist to come in and look at it. I was hysterical and brought her to my friend's clinic, where they palpated her bladder and got a lot of blood. They also felt something "crunchy" in the bladder, but were unable to tell exactly what it is.

Her appetite has been ravenous as usual, she still runs around (not quite as much, probably because she's uncomfortable not being able to pee much), and doesn't seem to be in pain or losing weight. She has been producing very little urine, so tomorrow I'm taking her in for an exploratory. Her blood test results were normal, aside from the BUN which was a tiny bit higher than normal. I'm absolutely petrified and so worried that it's a tumor. Does this sound more like stones or a tumor? I've been in bed almost 24/7 since last Wednesday, taking Klonopin for the first time, and crying nonstop.

Any advice/wisdom would be appreciated

I am so sorry you and your kitty are going through this.

Please try not to borrow trouble till you know for sure.  This will bump up your post and someone with more experience will be along to help.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

I don't have any wisdom, but I've been walking in your shoes trying to find out what the mass in Cindy's abdomen was.  You are wise to do the exploratory because after multiple ultrasounds, XRays, blood tests, and needle aspirates, the ONLY way we were able to get a diagnosis was through surgery.  I pray that your kitty will be okay and  for you as well, because I know what the constant crying and fear is like. 

i leave in 30 mins. i'm so depressed and worried

Please keep us updated.

Just checking in for updates? 

she has bladder cancer and less than a year to live. i've never hurt so badly in my life. i wish it was me. i don't want to live without her. she's my best friend, my family, and my comfort. i love her more than anything in the world. i'm just so sad and miserable.

 

I hate hearing that. I hurt for you. Life stinks sometimes.

yeahitsfine said:

she has bladder cancer and less than a year to live. i've never hurt so badly in my life. i wish it was me. i don't want to live without her. she's my best friend, my family, and my comfort. i love her more than anything in the world. i'm just so sad and miserable.

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I'm so sorry to hear this .  And I've said that very same thing about my furkids, that I'd better go first because I don't know what I'd do without them.  Mine are my life too.  And I lost my oldest one (my soulmate kitty) less than a year ago to kidney disease. 

Now, are they not going to send you to an oncologist?  We have a few cats here currently going thru chemo, and for a cat, it's not nearly as rough as for a human. Or is that year WITH chemo?  Whatever amount you have left with your dear little girl, treasure it for all it's worth, as I know you will.

In the meantime, you might want to start up another thread asking for advice on cats with bladder cancer to see what pops up.  Hang in there.  You've got to be strong for your little one. 

yeahitsfine said:

she has bladder cancer and less than a year to live. i've never hurt so badly in my life. i wish it was me. i don't want to live without her. she's my best friend, my family, and my comfort. i love her more than anything in the world. i'm just so sad and miserable.

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I'm so sorry for you. But please remember that she doesn't know she's sick. It's important that you stay cheerful and positive around her. Make this last year the most wonderful of her life. Bond with her like never before, cherish every moment.

I know the fear of loss, when you find out your cat is terminally ill, I've been there. It's a terrible thing. But she doesn't know. Celebrate her life, every day, and when her quality of life deteriorates, and she tells you she's had enough, you can let her go, knowing that you've given her the best she could have.

I'm so sorry.

Oh no! I am so very, very sorry. They are our children. Sending vibes