I've read so many posts from people in my situation & now that it's me I understand even more the torrment & extreem saddness. My Smokey has been battleing CRF for almost 2 years now. It's Sunday night at almost midnight & as of right now she has not eatten much of anything since Thrusday. I knew this day was coming, but I might as well not have known for the emense sorrow I feel. I dont' have any questions, or need any advice. I know what's happening to her little body I've educated my self on CRF enough to know what's going on. I just need to talk. If it weren't so late I'd call my sister. She tells me all the time I can call her whenever, but it just doesn't feel right to wake her up at 1 am her time. Not only have I educated my self about CRF my work with the local no-kill shelter has meant watching 2 cats with CRF stop eating & end up having to be put down. The very thought of having to do that to Smokey makes me want to vomit. I just want her to go to sleep. I'm going to call the vet in the morning & get her in. I'm praying I can get her in tomorrow, I don't think I can stand another day of this. To be totaly honest I think part of me is still in denial, or I wouldn't be able to make it through this. In order to make sure that I actually take her to the vet tomorrow I called & left a message with my boss saying I proably would not be in. that way I can't back out, or I would. Well I think I'm going to try to go to sleep, I may be back later.
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9/14/03 at 9:48pm