On Monday I lost Cow. Today Ember. I was just feeling numb, but was about a micron away from breaking into tears when I put her in our cremation freezer at work.
The only time in my life that I was not owned by a cat was the year or two I was married. After the ex wife split I got Ember. Through some rough times she was the only thing in life that kept me from sticking a gun in my mouth and pulling the trigger. The thouht of my daughter, the thought that tomorrow might be better were not enough to make me want to live. The stupid thought of "Who's going to take care of Ember" was what kept me from giving myself into the darkness.
Both of my beloved babies gone in the same week. I am so close to shedding tears for Ember and have almost lost it a few times. Man tears for a cat
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Sounds cold but when I have human friends and relatives who pass I do not even come close to shedding a tear. No human can give the unconditional love of a cat.
The only time in my life that I was not owned by a cat was the year or two I was married. After the ex wife split I got Ember. Through some rough times she was the only thing in life that kept me from sticking a gun in my mouth and pulling the trigger. The thouht of my daughter, the thought that tomorrow might be better were not enough to make me want to live. The stupid thought of "Who's going to take care of Ember" was what kept me from giving myself into the darkness.
Both of my beloved babies gone in the same week. I am so close to shedding tears for Ember and have almost lost it a few times. Man tears for a cat
.Sounds cold but when I have human friends and relatives who pass I do not even come close to shedding a tear. No human can give the unconditional love of a cat.
I hear your pain and I think you are an incredible cat lover and I wish more men were so open with their feelings about how they love their cats. They (the cat's) do fill a void in our lives where no other human can. I know how you feel, how deeply you can love a kitty. May healing peace come to you. :cross: I am so sorry for your losses. Will say a prayer. 
Ember. You are now reunited with 
