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My brother and I walked through the woods and I could tell he was upset by the whole ordeal. I mean really just because the litter box was dirty and there was a bit of litter on the floor. We talked all tough on our walks like this. We would walk to the creek and look at the fish as they swam by…make up grand tales of crossing the creek and creating a life for ourselves in the great unknown. My brother would typically talk about living in the country on a farm. He is not people oriented as one may say. When you read the bumper sticker that says “The more I know about people the more I like my dog” you are reading a biography of my brother, which may help explain the whole farm thing. Not me. I am social and I love to meet new people. I would totally live in the city and go out every night. I think about things like all the lights, the noise, the food, and the fact that a city never sleeps. I could never live on a farm like my brother – I need action. Well this was another one of those walks we took when things did not go so well for my brother. Sometimes the anger in that house gets so thick I can taste it on my tongue. I hate it when it is like that, and I hate it when he hits my brother. Usually he can get away before the beating gets too bad but he almost always gets the first hit or kick. It never used to be this way either. Just one day about a year ago it all started out of the blue. To be honest, the first time it happened to me and my brother we did not know what to do. That was a bad day because we did not know enough to get out of the house and let dad cool off. We both took a few licks that day, and when we finally figured out to get out of the house we were both shaking in our boots. Ever since then it has become a regular part of our life. Sometimes after dad goes to bed I can hear my brother whimper a bit or even cry. It is hard for him to understand why it happens – hell it is hard for me to understand! I have seen his bruises and cuts and I honestly do not know how he can take it. If he were a bit older and more able to take care of himself I think he would leave. In fact I know some day he will have to if he wants to stay alive. We make it to the creek and the sounds are somewhat cathartic. We would hang out here until dad goes to sleep and then sneak home; find something for dinner, and go to sleep. Maybe tomorrow would be better. My brother started in on the farm thing again. He was talking about playing with his friends in the fields, climbing up into the hayloft, and just being free from the fear and pain of his life here. I egged him on at times like these. He seemed to go to another place when he would daydream like this and you could tell he was happy. This made me happy and not much was doing that these days. Walking back to the house we played a bit wrestled a bit, chased each other, and generally did the things brothers and sisters do when they are young and innocent. As we got closer to the house we started to be quieter so we did not wake dad. As quiet as we could be we pushed the door open just enough to get in the house. Dad was in bed already according to the snores we heard. Remaining quiet we stopped in the kitchen for some food then we went and sat on the couch not really knowing what to do. We were not tired yet but we did not want to make noise and wake dad up either. Well, I knew what I had to do…yes HAD to do. My brother certainly had a bad life at the hands of dad however I was not completely free either. I got off of the couch and my brother jumped up. He knew what I was up to, and he was scared. He hated this time of night. He used to come with me but Dad did not like him around so much because of the things he did – the things dad called naughty. It is pretty much to the point now if my brother is in sight he gets smacked. My brother signaled that he had to go to the bathroom and ran past me to the end of the hall. Yep tomorrow would be another bad day I thought as I felt a tear well up in my eye. I tried to tell my brother no, but he would not listen. Our litter box was in the bathroom but my brother did not use it a lot anymore. This is what angers dad the most, but he just would never be able to understand. I jumped up on the bed next to dad and began to purr…He knew I was there and patted his pillow for me to come up there. I hated this man with everything I had. I hate the way he treated my little brother, I hate the way he killed my dad, and I hate the way he gave my sisters and brothers away every time I got new ones. I hated everything about him down to his stupid patch of hair on his head, his smelly clothes, and the way he talked to me like there was nothing wrong. If I did not come into the bedroom at night and sleep on his pillow he would get up and look for me. If he got up and found my little brother (especially after not using the litter box) my brother would get hit again. This was my life…sleep with the enemy in order to keep peace and dream of another life with my brother when he would get hurt. Yes I hated this man but without our claws we relied on him for food. He reached over and stroked my fur with the same hands he uses to hit or throw things at my brother. “STOP touching me you *******!!!!!” I screamed in my head but on the outside I purred.
06/02/2012 Arlo Haarsma
06/02/2012 Arlo Haarsma