I've been off for a while, but have been reading posts from time to time. Right now I'm feeling very depressed and frustrated.
Lucy has never come back - and I worry that she's not okay. That breaks my heart and I am angry at myself that she escaped in the first place.
Tommy is here very infrequently and food has gone untouched for several days now. I don't know how I can trap him if I can't even get him on a regular feeding schedule. I worry about him, too.
And, there was a black cat hit in the highway about a mile away. I couldn't tell whether it was one of mine, but it's probably unlikely since it has a river and interstate between here and where he was hit. I did try to get a good look, but the damage was pretty severe and it would have been almost impossible to tell. But that's a worry, too.
I have a feral villa and feeding station, I've spent a lot of money to create an area where they could live comfortably, and unbelievable amounts on food that gets thrown out. Couple that with the emotional distress and I just need to know where to go and what to do from here.
Do I continue to put food out? Do I wait until fall hoping that Tommy comes back? Do I put it out only when I see him across the street? (his usual pattern when he comes here to eat) Do I just put out kibble and try to figure out a way to keep the ants out? Just shelter? I'm going to have to have some fencing put up to protect the cats' area from noisy neighbors, which is okay.
I am just feeling so sad and worried and don't quite know where to go from here.
Sorry about the length and "down" feeling of this, but I've done rescue/foster of pets for a long time and other than saying good-bye when they went to their homes, I've never had to deal with anything like this. The only other feral I've had here was going to be relocated to a managed farm colony, but he was sick and tested positive for FeLeuk and FIV and was PTS (at only 2 years old). That broke my heart, but there were no other options.
Thanks for reading this far and if you have any thoughts, I'm open to them. This whole feral/semi-feral business is breaking my heart.
catmom5
Lucy has never come back - and I worry that she's not okay. That breaks my heart and I am angry at myself that she escaped in the first place.
Tommy is here very infrequently and food has gone untouched for several days now. I don't know how I can trap him if I can't even get him on a regular feeding schedule. I worry about him, too.
And, there was a black cat hit in the highway about a mile away. I couldn't tell whether it was one of mine, but it's probably unlikely since it has a river and interstate between here and where he was hit. I did try to get a good look, but the damage was pretty severe and it would have been almost impossible to tell. But that's a worry, too.
I have a feral villa and feeding station, I've spent a lot of money to create an area where they could live comfortably, and unbelievable amounts on food that gets thrown out. Couple that with the emotional distress and I just need to know where to go and what to do from here.
Do I continue to put food out? Do I wait until fall hoping that Tommy comes back? Do I put it out only when I see him across the street? (his usual pattern when he comes here to eat) Do I just put out kibble and try to figure out a way to keep the ants out? Just shelter? I'm going to have to have some fencing put up to protect the cats' area from noisy neighbors, which is okay.
I am just feeling so sad and worried and don't quite know where to go from here.
Sorry about the length and "down" feeling of this, but I've done rescue/foster of pets for a long time and other than saying good-bye when they went to their homes, I've never had to deal with anything like this. The only other feral I've had here was going to be relocated to a managed farm colony, but he was sick and tested positive for FeLeuk and FIV and was PTS (at only 2 years old). That broke my heart, but there were no other options.
Thanks for reading this far and if you have any thoughts, I'm open to them. This whole feral/semi-feral business is breaking my heart.
catmom5